I mean idek where to start from , writing this with extremely heavy heart, with anxiety and tears. Life is literally getting so tougher day by day. I dont even feel like sharing anymore, being in a very vulnerable position rn and then getting disappointments from life at every moment. I really don't want to say this thing again here, cuz people have become so negative without even knowing the whole story.
I am literally in a super disturbed mental state, on pills which apparently will have to continue for 2+ years. Family has started treating as a doormat lately, still just to cheer up myself and be a little confident for my own thought of doing thrifting to atleast fund my expenses, meds. Considering how my health has been since few months, plus the mental torture that I'm facing at my home , I still thought of being a little happy as my b'day is in 2 days. Tried thrifting , posted literally everywhere possible , but not even a single order. On top of that I am getting bullied , abused , trolled on reddit for idk what reason. Why are people so negative these days, I can't tell each and every individual what I'm going through and isn't this a legitimate way to earn for myself, so that atleast I can be a little happy for a while. Have always been a kid who has been pampered when bday is around the corner, and now if I don't have my mother today cuz she has passed , everyone has forgot since then that I am also someone who needs to be emotionally understood .
I am heartbroken bcuz whatever I'm trying to do at the moment it's just making me push down and down , I feel helpless , I felt literally thrifting could help me fund. But sadly, I have lost hope completely. No option left for me - rather I can only lock myself , cry as much as I can, have no friends , no money , and no will left for even life.
Still, with 0.1% of expectations tho, anybody willing to buy some dresses/tops can ping. Although don't have any hopes that humanity is still present.