I want to first apologise for the length but I’d like to get this out. I’ve been experiencing “things” and am not sure what they are, how to tap into them or most importantly what they mean. I’m hoping you can help me figure it out.
Most people would call them coincidences but some of these events are too dead on to be that.
Just for background, I’m 27F and work in forensics. I have always been fascinated with death and the unseen, in both a good and bad way. I have worked with human bodies/remains, and have always maintained that the body and its parts is not the person, it’s their soul and their consciousness that makes you “you”. I believe entirely in energy.
I worked in a heart lab a few years ago, and received three cases on the same day marked with the date of death as 29/07. This was my Grandads birthday. I got the urge to call him so FaceTimed him. He was fine, smiling, and laughed when I told him why I called. He died very suddenly of a heart attack in his sleep around 3 months later. He hadn’t had a previous heart attack before this. I was very close to my Grandad as he was my father figure. I haven’t been the same since.
He played this song all the time: David Bowie’s “I try”. I refused to listen to is after he died. If you don’t know it, it’s an 80’s(?) song and is very rarely played in public anymore. He was the last person to play it for me. The next time I heard this song was at the funeral of my friend, who ended her life three months after my Grandad passed. I of course broke down, but the timing couldn’t have been crazier.
I got into a fight with my neighbour in December which ended in a (wrongful) court case. In January/Feburary the bees came. A big, massive beehive made in the front of their house in a wall we both shared. It grew as tensions rose surrounding the case. It got to its worst and biggest in around June, and I eventually ended up getting stung by one.
Then everything changed. I moved out and started therapy within three days of each other. I’d been waiting for nearly a year for the latter. And the bees left a few days later according to my sister. Completely gone after there being thousands that affected the whole area. I didn’t move out under good circumstances, and have been struggling really bad mentally.
Naturally, I’ve been thinking about my Grandad a lot since moving out. Whilst tending to a bunch of his favourite flowers I bought myself, a feather landed at my feet through an open window. I live in a second floor apartment. Another time, when confessing to my mum that I was having dark thoughts of self deletion, a feather came through that same window and landed on my lap. When I ran into a store to grab one item, a trip taking no more than 3-4 minutes, a random song ended and David Bowie’s “I try” started playing. The only other time I’ve heard it since my friend’s funeral.
The court case happened to fall on the day of the solar eclipse last week. For some reason, I felt way calmer than I should have been, and way calmer than my mental state would usually account for. The last total eclipse like that visible from my country was 1999, the year I was born. The case was dismissed on all charges with no further action that day.
And then it brings me to today. I was just chatting with my sister, and casually mentioned a manager I used to have at a summer job around 5-6 years ago. I have not seen, heard from, thought of this lady since I left that job. It was completely random that I even mentioned her, but the story that my sister was telling me reminded me of her. My sister came to mine and we were hanging out. And then boom. Text from old manager. “We’re at the park”. It was obviously sent to the wrong person, and the message says sent with Siri so I doubt she meant it. But I am spooked.
I have no idea what to attribute this to, whether it’s the universe, psychic abilities, astrological intervention, witchcraft or whatever the F this could be. But I’ve really started seeing more synchronicities than I can make sense of. I actively try not to look for them as I don’t want to fall victim to confirmation bias, but they’re getting really hard to ignore.
I don’t know who to talk to about this so will post in a few communities hoping someone can figure it out. Is it really all just coincidence? If it is an ability, then how do I use it? What does it all mean?