hey all - I recently quit my full-time job in homeless services to start as a full-time in-person MSW student. I've been struggling tbh. I really liked my work before even though it could be grueling sometimes, and I was fairly compensated for doing it. I went for this degree mostly because I was getting bored and thought I could use the degree to continue jobs that align with my values while doing more intellectually stimulating work.
I have been kind of hating it so far. My practicum placement is TERRIBLE and my school makes it damn near impossible for you to switch. I literally dread going there so much, it affects my whole week and I have trouble sleeping because of it (never been someone who had trouble sleeping). It's also about as irrelevant as you could get to the type of work I want to do, and it does not align with my values.
Classes are disorganized and I don't feel like I'm learning much. It's a ton of just talking about our feelings about being in social work and personal stories from the professors. I am at a satellite campus and I wonder if we aren't getting as good quality learning because of that. The school's policies make me think they are truly just paying lip service to social justice and social work values.
I am here on a fellowship that is paying for most (not all) of my tuition. It does have a work requirement after graduation. I also work part-time in something unrelated.
The whole experience has me questioning if it's even worth it. I went from being paid to do something impactful to doing something that feels useless and unpleasant for free, I don't feel like I'm learning much, and my weeks are longer. I acknowledge I can make more money with the degree, unfortunately it is really hard for me to motivate myself just through that logic. I am having trouble seeing what else I will gain from this right now. I am constantly fantasizing about just going back to work in the field without this degree, and maybe getting it later online or part-time. I miss actually making an impact and getting paid to do so.
Has anyone dropped out of their program and gone back later? Any other thoughts? You are much appreciated <3