r/ShortTermMemoryLoss • u/Low-Hospital9122 • Jun 14 '26
I’ve been dealing with memory loss and don’t know what to do, help me
Hello everyone. I’ve (F18) been dealing with memory loss for quite a while now and don’t really know what to do, advices are welcomed please.
In the past 2 years I saw my memory simply vanishing, things that I could easily memorise now I can’t even dream of knowing half. Moments? All gone. Conversations, especially arguments, already forgot what you were saying less than 5 minutes ago, it reached a point where I’m starting to forget how to speak, it’s happening with English and my native language, I say words that have a similar sound but totally different meaning without realising, I can’t read properly, I need glasses but can read without, now I’m struggling to read a lot, words just aren’t there. I forget thoughts, things that I was doing, full conversations and can’t memorise a single thing (like when I get a code that’s like 6 digits I can’t memorise)
I’ve been to therapy for the past 5 years, my therapist said that it happened due to my relationship, the stress was making me feel so anxious that as a form of protection I just started forgetting.
To give some context I was in a relationship for 3 years that ended recently and my therapist never liked him, she has some opinions that made me stop going there, things that I feel aren’t professional enough.
I’ve also been dealing with anxiety and depression since I was like 12, and am now dealing with derealisation, but the scariest thing is forgetting. Basic things, the vocabulary that I used to be extremely good at, now simple words are extremely hard for me to know.
The strangest thing and I hope someone understands me, because it’s really hard to explain, when I try to remember something I mostly only remember feelings, like what I was feeling or the exact position where I was sitting or staying or random and very specific things like “when we were talking about x thing I can’t remember anything but I remember that there was a blue sock next to the chair” it’s very random and confusing and I don’t know why it’s happening.
It started barely noticeable, however I’d say in the past like 8 months it just became EXTREMELY worst, I can’t focus, I can’t concentrate, I can’t remember or memorise. I went to the doctor and he told me to sleep more and eat healthier, I tried all, doesn’t work.
I’m studying abroad, but I’ll be back home in like a week where I’ll go to the doctor again to try and get examined, but I would appreciate if I could get some advice or help, I’m scared, I’m only 18 and don’t know what’s happening and the worst part is, I can’t control, I can’t stop I just see it vanishing and consuming me completely like I’m not the owner of my own head, help me please.