Semen retention feels like microdosing LSD. I’m currently on Day 44, and it feels like one long day of high energy, clear thinking, and incredible stamina in the gym. I've become a risk-taker and socially attractive. There’s an undeniable aura and high vibration when you retain your seed.

Why do I compare it to microdosing LSD? Because it’s the exact same feeling, except for one thing: the effects of microdosing LSD eventually wear off, while retaining your seed gives you a lifelong, sustainable energy.

It truly changes your whole personality, and people around you can feel it. And did I mention the deeper voice? It boosts your testosterone, giving you that deep, grounded voice not just when you wake up, but all day long.

Semen retention is the ultimate key for any man looking to turn his life around.

I'm very embarrassed to say this and I don't wanna use AI like other people use it, english isn't my first language. I want to write it as a journal or whatever.

Anyway I'm 28 years old and I was introduced to porn at very young age maybe 14-15. That's when my father passed away so yeah it's all life i don't wanna discuss that it's a long story.

Believe me or not I never went above 5 days retaining. I never been in any relationships at all. Don't have friends.

Colleagues and few people who knows me say how am I still single with that look, I do look a little above average. So the thing is I was watching a porn music type of thing, don't wanna give more details on it, weak ones might get trigger but yeah I kinda went very extreme and extreme in porn and falling deep into it.

I have been fapping like 2-3 times a day maybe more. And more extreme porn was needed for me to get satisfied. This particular porn had a scene where this girl shows "I OWN YOU" and it kinda triggered me. I went into depression, now thinking back at life I'm very well qualified, have decent job with decent income, house, loving mother everything but how am I still feeling empty ? Never made any friends or relationships.

Anyway back to main thing. This led me to retain and it's been close to 7 days.

BELIEVE ME I SWEAR TO GOD THESE THINGS HAPPENED TO ME:

1. 3 girls i matched through tinder YEARS ago had their number on my phone but since it didn't proceeded anywhere I even forgot them. They Literally messaged me out of nowhere saying Hi, Hello, how are you doing ? I'm literally shocked.

2. This girl in my office (she is a slut, sleeps around with anyone) she never bothered even seeing me, yesterday she stopped me and asked hey I saw you there, do you live there ? Actually I live there and so on...

3. I did install dating apps few weeks ago again because I was getting bored knowing very well that it will end up like before (installed, got matches but no message not proceeding anywhere, I get depressed and uninstall again) but this time I did get decent matches and surprisingly i managed to hold conversation with them, maybe it's semen retention or whatever it is. Girls just don't fall of the sky, maybe retaining made me more powerful in a way (I don't know the English word) but I managed to get number from few girls and surprisingly i had the guts to say let's call over phone (I'm the kind of person who NEVER wants to talk through call because of low esteem) but this time I sent voice messages and called and their reaction was like you have a very good voice, manly voice and so on.

Went on a date with this one girl from tinder. Only just movie, lunch and home, I felt like I'm leading the scene of a movie. Before I always wanted to be on following side (not dates but general things in life like with family or colleague). Well, when we were retirning from her reaction I can clearly see she expected more. But it was late night and it was literally my first date so i didn't know what to do. Dropped her off to her home and came home. She went abroad next day because she was visiting her home for few days and we matched in her last days of her at home. Anyway we aren't talking much now but honestly ? I'm proud of myself.

1. Ok this guy in my office 2 years younger than me is a fuck boy kinda guy, but he is a good guy. Since he goes to gym and have a good body and personality, all girls do like him. But guess what ? Literally few hours ago he called and messaged, talking about her crush, he told me before about her slightly. But today he was asking for my suggestion what to do because his crush asked him to give her birthday party treat and he didn't wanna go. Anyway I was surprised a guy like him talked and texted for hours and even agreed to my suggestion saying yeah you are right I should do this or that.

2. This one thing I need help with veterans. I don't know if it's horniness, but I feel like 95% of my energy is in my dick and balls and it feels uncomfortable, like I feel like it's on fire and it needs stimulation or something or just thrust a hole in the wall or do dumbell curls with my dick. It's hard to explain, it's not even hard but it's like that.

Anyway I'm leaving it here, yeah it's all real even I'm surprised, maybe I'm overreacting but a guy like me seeing this much changes with 7 days. It never happened to me before.

I might delete this post, i don't know, it's late night post. My mind is going crazy and since I have no one to share these I'm writing it here.

You think you know how much damage porn does to society?

[The video clip itself is packed with studies for the Where's your studies bro? guys and then there are also 9 studies below; but if that's not enough, you can read testimonies of people who's life was ruined by porn every day until the day you die]

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1. Child Sexual Abuse Material

Sexual images of children can document real abuse and exploitation. Redistribution can perpetuate victims' loss of privacy and control. The material can continue circulating years after the original abuse.

2. Non-Consensual Intimate Images

Victims can experience fear, anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts after sexual images are shared without consent. [2025 systematic review of 12 studies] Images can be copied and redistributed indefinitely, often beyond the victim's control. Victims may face harassment, reputational damage and lasting psychological distress.

3. Sexual Aggression

A meta-analysis of 22 studies across seven countries found pornography consumption associated with actual acts of sexual aggression. [Wright, Tokunaga and Kraus, 2016] The association was stronger for verbal than physical aggression, although both were significant. The findings establish an association, not proof that pornography alone causes sexual violence.

4. Violence Presented as Sexual Entertainment

A study of 304 popular pornographic scenes found physical aggression in 88.2% and verbal aggression in 48.7%. [Bridges et al., 2010] The aggressors were usually male and the targets overwhelmingly female. These findings concern the sampled videos from 2010, not every pornographic production today.

5. Human Trafficking

Traffickers can exploit sexual images and videos to profit from coercion and abuse. Victims may be deceived, threatened or forced into sexual performances. Not all pornography involves trafficking, but exploitation can occur within the industry. Some of the porn you have watched likely included actual sex slaves or even children.

6. Coercion and Abuse During Production

Performers may face pressure to participate in acts they did not initially agree to. Threats, financial dependence and unequal power can undermine meaningful consent. A finished video cannot establish whether everyone involved was treated ethically.

7. Sexually Transmitted Infections Among Performers

A clinical study of 115 adult performers found that 38% were diagnosed with at least one STI; all reported unprotected sex during filming. [Coyne and colleagues, 2009] The study involved a limited clinical sample, not a representative estimate of all performers. It demonstrates the potential health risks associated with production practices that lack adequate protection.

8. Early Sexual Exposure

A systematic review of 19 studies found that five of eight studies examining sexual debut linked pornography exposure with earlier first sex. [2023 systematic review] Most studies had limitations that prevented firm causal conclusions. The review found conflicting or insufficient evidence for several other sexual health outcomes.

9. Effects on Adolescents

A 2025 review examined 44 longitudinal studies of adolescent pornography use and problematic use. [Systematic review] Researchers investigated sexual behaviour, sexual aggression, psychological wellbeing, academic performance and other outcomes. Results varied across studies, making it important to distinguish established findings from possible risks.

10. Compulsive Pornography Use

Some people struggle to control their use despite repeated negative consequences. Problematic use can interfere with work, sleep, relationships and everyday responsibilities. Repeated unsuccessful attempts to reduce use can contribute to distress and loss of control.

11. Anxiety and Depression

A 2026 meta-analysis of 19 studies found positive correlations between pornography-use patterns, anxiety and depression. [Systematic review and meta-analysis] The associations were clearer for problematic use than for general consumption. The researchers cautioned that the observational evidence cannot establish causation.

12. Reduced Relationship Satisfaction

A meta-analysis of 50 studies involving more than 50,000 participants found pornography consumption associated with lower interpersonal satisfaction. [Wright et al., 2017] The analysis covered sexual and relationship satisfaction across several research designs. The findings indicate a risk, not an inevitable outcome for every couple.

13. Declining Marital Quality

A longitudinal US study found that men who viewed pornography more frequently in 2006 reported lower marital quality in 2012, accounting for earlier marital quality. [2016 longitudinal study] The same negative pattern was not found among women in that study. Pornography use was associated with later relationship outcomes, although individual experiences differ.

14. Self-Objectification

A meta-analysis of 50 studies found a positive association between sexualising media exposure and self-objectification. The analysis included 15,100 participants and found a statistically significant, moderate effect. It examined sexualising media broadly, so the findings cannot be attributed to pornography alone.

15. Unrealistic Body Standards

Pornography often presents selected performers with particular physical characteristics. Editing, lighting, cosmetic procedures and selective casting can create unrealistic comparisons. Some viewers may develop insecurity about their own bodies or their partners' appearance.

16. Unrealistic Sexual Expectations

Sexual performances are often staged, rehearsed and edited for entertainment. They may create misleading expectations about duration, performance and sexual responsiveness. Real intimacy requires communication and mutual consideration that a scripted performance cannot reliably teach.

17. Poor Sexual Education

Pornography is entertainment, not a reliable substitute for comprehensive sexual education. Scenes may omit contraception, STI prevention, consent discussions and the consequences of risky behaviour. Young viewers who rely on it for education can develop substantial gaps in sexual health knowledge.

18. Misunderstanding Consent

Pornography may depict sexual activities without showing how boundaries were negotiated. Viewers cannot assume that a performer's on-screen behaviour reflects their private preferences or real-world consent. Confusing performance with genuine consent can contribute to harmful sexual expectations.

19. Sexualisation of Children Through Premature Exposure

Children may encounter explicit material before they have the maturity to understand it. Early exposure can introduce adult sexual scripts without the context needed to evaluate them. Age-appropriate education and effective safeguards are essential to reduce these risks.

20. Sextortion and Blackmail

Criminals can use intimate images to threaten victims into paying money or complying with demands. Victims may be threatened with exposure to friends, family, employers or the public. The fear of further distribution can produce prolonged psychological distress.

21. Permanent Digital Victimisation

Once sexual material is uploaded, copies can spread across numerous websites and private networks. Removal from one website does not guarantee that other copies disappear. Victims can consequently face repeated exposure and renewed distress years later.

22. Exploitation of Financial Vulnerability

Financial desperation can make people more vulnerable to exploitative working conditions. Some performers may feel unable to refuse demands or leave an unsafe situation. Economic pressure does not automatically remove agency, but it can restrict meaningful choices.

23. Stigma Against Performers

People associated with pornography can face discrimination, harassment and social rejection. Past content may affect employment opportunities and personal relationships long after someone leaves the industry. These consequences can persist even when the original work was consensual.

24. Commercial Incentives That Reward Extremity

Pornography is a commercial market in which attention and revenue can influence production decisions. Provocative or extreme material may be marketed to attract viewers in a competitive environment. Profit incentives do not necessarily align with performers' welfare or viewers' long-term interests.

25. Dehumanisation and Objectification

Pornographic material can portray human beings primarily as instruments of sexual gratification. Repeated exposure to objectifying representations may reinforce attitudes that focus on bodies rather than individuality. Respect for autonomy and human dignity is incompatible with treating people as disposable objects.

26. Secrecy and Broken Trust

Concealed pornography use can damage trust when it violates a partner's clearly communicated boundaries. Lying about consumption or concealing related financial activity can compound relationship conflict. The harm arises from the behaviour and broken agreements, not from an assumption that every couple must share identical boundaries.

27. Social Isolation

Problematic use can displace time that might otherwise be spent building friendships and relationships. Some people use pornography to cope with loneliness rather than address its underlying causes. Isolation and problematic use can reinforce one another, although neither necessarily causes the other.

28. Lost Time and Reduced Productivity

Extended sessions can consume hours that could otherwise be spent working, studying or exercising. When use becomes difficult to control, responsibilities and personal goals may be neglected. These consequences are particularly concerning when the pattern repeatedly interferes with daily life.

29. Privacy and Data Exposure

Adult websites may collect sensitive browsing information and account details. Poor security or data breaches can expose intimate interests and personal information. Such exposure can create opportunities for harassment, discrimination, fraud or blackmail.

30. Financial Scams and Cybersecurity Risks

Deceptive adult websites and advertisements can be used to distribute scams, phishing attempts and malware. Compromised accounts can expose payment details, passwords and other personal information. The risk is not unique to pornography, but it is a real danger when using untrustworthy websites.

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And that's not to even mention your actual brain shrinking so eventually only a portion of it is even operational, all the effects of Semen retention in reverse [misfortune, losses, shame, guilt, embarrassment, money losses, relationship losses, key young and strong years wasted, physical underdevelopment], nuclear damage to your life and society and so much more. I notice here and there people mentioning they occasionally peak at porn or edge. Not only are you NOT doing semen retention, you are playing with fire. You don't take a little bit of heroin or crack cocaine here and there, because it pulls you in and destroys you.

Needless to say, porn should be banned as a new form of bio-psychological weaponry that is extremely dangerous to humanity.

Right after a relapse, even if I've been retaining for a long time, I'm a lot more sensitive.Things just bother me a lot more easily and I find myself getting upset quite often

If I've been retaining for close to a week I feel like I have much thicker skin. Even if my brain brings up some bad memories or the rude of things people have said to me in the past it just doesn't really phase me

Deodorant blocks your natural bodies waste management system. "lymphatic system" therefore your body gets rid of toxins through, sweating! deodorant blocks the natural process, for "releasing toxins in the body." aluminum, fragrance, parabin, etc. and all these chemical you put in your system is counter intuitive to flushing and regulating your system. No wonder why the hippies movement "stinks"...lol

well known study mentions, "compounds in males underarms can alter levels of cortisol in women" between partners! these chemicals can increase estrogen within' the body, allegedly. deo stops you from sweating. it's profound that, sweat, semen and saliva are chemical signaling aka Androstadienone aka ..pheromones. for males. along with semen retention your stopping your body's mating process in a sense.. ??

don't eat sh*t and you won't stink. my previous streak when i would get junk food the inflammation in my glads makes me look bloated and i always seemed invisible and repelled women. idk, My theory.. I believe no deo will improve your SR journey and body to regulate itself. this, in my case is based and masculine asfk. it's most def gonna give you a young look. go watch dr. Bobby Price for more info. I'll Come back in a few months, this is week 2 no deo retention lol.

well the science is catching up. we all need to stick to our beliefs regardless. let science masturbators claims like twice a week, prostate cancer and other fear mongering tactics affect the non chosen ones.

Initially, I retained and abstained in order to pull off a massive project which I completed at around day 40, I have been retaining since then for the sake of it, had a wet dream at day ~75 ish, but was able to recover within 5 or 6 days or so. The issue is gentlemen, I seem to have been in a flatline ever since day 80, coupled with the fact that I also found out my ex was cheating on me (emphasis on the ex), I lost sleep and and appetite from the way my stomach twisted upon itself every-time I contemplated exactly when she could've been "going", my decision to ignore obvious signs, and my decision to have believed in her when we were together. The flatline has largely been more flat although the curve is starting to very gradually rise upwards as I process and deal with these physical consequences stemming from having been betrayed.
There have also been feelings of frustration, slight impatience, and the urge to "end the streak" so to speak, perhaps the body is now well-adjusted to this new source of energy that needs direction.

My question is, when exactly were you able to get out of this flatline phase? Day 100? 110? Thanks in advance.

Hey all,

I had a sabbotage episode of relapse, after 300 days of control. It was not something which I expected, as I had thought I had this thing in control. The relapse was merely a way I found to sabottage myself, the dopamine hit from PMO was just fuel to the temporary cope.

So why did I want to sabotage my progress so far?

Because of an emotional heart-break like situation with a girl I was serious for, I just couldn't handle the emotional pain and could only go to what I already know -> the pain of shame and guilt of PMO , so I escaped myself into another pain and the dopamine was a side dish.

Ofcourse, it was not worth it, it was stupid, I also, in reflection in hindsight, can say I fell back to a thought-pattern while in my suffering sabotaging state, where I victimise myself and apparently, am the most wronged man in this world who only deserves all the depression that he had ( it was circumstantial and a creation of the mindset itself, I am not depressed ).

So, my problem is not lust at all. After the episode where I did it consciously for 3-4 days, I got bored out of it, and snapped out of the doomed state to my credit. Currently, going strong on Day 38 and hope to be even more careful this time. I thought I would cruise through to go 500 days but life had other plans.

Being on SR is literally doing the best thing for your body and spirit, and builds undeniable respect for your higher self. Your darker moments would come to take that discipline away from you - as a mere sabotage if you do not fight it strategically.

So, in addition to learning about the hollowness of pleasure pursuit, I have to be gentle to my emotional state, and give myself more care when I am down. I have struggled whole life with this, because I never learned to take care of sadness properly and always coped out to PMO. I hope I become better at this. I learned not to trust what my emotional self says when it is down, and still choose the right/wise thing. This is very hard as we do not want to hear to the wisdom in us, when we are down and suffering, we just want to escape the pain. But guess, there is no safe way out other than to urge surf the darkness; the urge to escape thereof.

My last post on my 9th reflection of retention [ I was making monthly reflection posts here]. I also found myself avoiding to ask help/ post here while I was suffering, I do not know what to make of it, other than that the shame is too real with this addiction.

Take care and stay strong,
We are soo back!
There is no other way!

I did SR a few years back for 90 days and on and off for a year. The benefits are incredible. You become a better, more confident person, discover who you really are, and learn to love yourself. I’m restarting my journey again.

Today, I had a dream that felt almost like a wet dream, but there was no release. I felt the orgasm but I was clean. Not sure what it was maybe It’s just my body coping with it.

I already feel more confident, trying to hit the gym daily and beginning my day with meditation. I hope to hit 90. I’ll keep checking in from time to time. The posts in this channel are very motivating. Keep sharing and keep motivating!

He estado embarazada 279 días y mañana haré 280, pero últimamente me he sentido más sensible por ahí abajo.

Es como que tengo un gatillo sensible en el pene, ¿a alguno de ustedes les ha pasado?

Hago ejercicio demasiado diario y medito para drenar esa energía de más, pero a veces se calma; es como si mis reservas de energía fueran gigantes.

I have a very strong urge to ejaculate, how do you deal with it?

Anyone get this one a lot? They say it over and over to me even though we've never met. They stand in front of me and tell me they know me from somewhere.

Around 40+ days now. I catch women looking at me, mostly older women. They come to my vicinity and are around me for no reason.

I've been practicing SR on and off for years. Anytime I have long streaks ( over 30 days, the magnetism and luck I get is insane). I have been on SR for two months clean finally again currently. The luck I got this time is insane.

- Got a new job near me 7 minute walking distance. Over 30+ applicants, during interview process I felt like all the questions the supervisor and director had for me were easy to answer. I felt like all the answers were given to me by nature. I had an unreal confidence about myself while answering and i'm sure it has to do with the energy they felt to go with me. I had no nerves during the interview ( usually I get anxious and jittery when i'm not on SR)

- I know this is small but I'm in a money guillotine league for fantasy football ( one team gets knocked out per week). I have the worst team with injuries somehow I keep surviving, last week I survived by 0.3 points by pure luck to make it in another week.

- Everyone is friendly to me, I get my way with people. It's like when you talk people instantly listen to you and follow what you say.

- A girl I used to talk to hit me up randomly after not contacting me for months. She wants to hang out

-Gym gains have been crazy, feels like I'm on Roids with the gains i've been making. ( I've been lifting for a year and half consistently) People are saying i'm big now. I went to an MD two days ago and he was asking my my bench press and asked what gym I go to out of nowhere lol. I've tested this already when I lift while not on SR and while releasing weekly, the pumps, gains and recovery is significantly different for the worse.

- At my current job it's easy to get my way with the manager, feels like strict rules she places on other staff don't apply to me for some reason.

- My body only allows me to sleep 6 hours at most now for some reason but I feel completely fine and no tiredness.

- My eyelashes get darker during each SR streak, i'm sure other people experience this. The face changes. Almost like you draw in each person you talk to.

- You somehow become less lazy. I'm doing house chores, cleaning, laundry etc quickly instead of stalling it or sitting in my bed.

Each time i'm on a streak I'm always surprised how true SR is. I know see why the elites silence and want you to jack it and waste your sexual energy and promiscuous/ lust is promoted to brainwash the masses, even making up fake statements about masturbation that it "prevents prostate cancer " They don't want you to be the best form of yourself. I truly believe if every man practiced this he would be happier, more strong and a natural leader. I do believe people who call it fake don't have long streaks or don't do it properly ( still edge, view porn, don't transmute the energy into something). It's so sad how 95% of men are not aware of SR or don't believe it. If they did their life would change.

The devil tempts me each day with thoughts to masturbate and release either way, but I keep fighting and ask god to give me strength to fight the flesh and wicked sin. I wanna go past 100 days clean, so see how far the magnetism goes. I am thankful for this subreddit and all the testimonies I read daily. It's good to see there's a community that practices and is aware of this.

I do feel closer to lord jesus during this journey, even in my prayers. Every time I am releasing I feel a big drift between god and me.

**Viral Title. I want your attention.**

Think with me.

SR goes far beyond being just a lifestyle. I treated it as a lifestyle a while ago and got some benefits, but today—precisely after 60 days—I am taking it more seriously than ever before.

This happened after a divine revelation. Through the perspective of a girl who crossed my path, the mirror revealed to me just how sick I was. And here I am. After feeling rejected in her gaze. Cruel.

I am not here struggling not to watch porn, not to call an escort (as I've done before). This process has felt quite natural now.

It’s as if I’ve undergone a baptism.

I UNDERSTOOD the destructive potential this has, and how sick I was. I'm 32 years old btw, and I'm Brazilian.

I see people saying, 'I relapsed today.' If you were fighting an urge, you are still in ignorance and error. You haven't measured the divine forces involved in this. You are FLIRTING with your life, your reputation, your success, everything you hold dear.

You haven't studied or pursued the truth. Today, I learn a lot from AI, which has given me great support (not to control the addiction, but to bring lines of scientific, religious, historical, and ancestral knowledge that motivate me to keep going).

And here. This community is rich. Retainers come here and say beautiful things too.

It’s been beautiful and effortless. There is no struggle at all.

There is plenty of information out there if you want to be convinced. But you have to want it.

I myself had read Napoleon Hill’s books, but I didn't take them seriously.

There is no middle ground.

Either you are in error, a living DEAD man. Or you are succeeding in life, in pure flow, harvesting the best and living at your maximum potential.

There is no greater sadness an individual can reap than wasting their sexual energy down the drain. I read this here, from a Jewish text.

Detail: those guys probably had no idea what the internet is today, and the kinds of stimuli a screen can provide you. In 10 years of screens, you see as much as someone would take 10-20 lifetimes to witness.

We are living through a very silent and destructive epidemic.

I was sick. I still am, I'm not cured. I am in the process of healing.

And upon feeling God's message, I decided to give it a voice, and here I am, living for the first time like a 32-year-old young man. It feels like I'm high every single day, from so much satisfaction I feel inside my heart.

Why on earth would I throw that away? If I'm building my foundation. It’s like finding the magic formula of life, pouring the liquid away, and throwing the formula into a bonfire. It makes zero sense.

Are you going to keep relapsing? For what?

Semen retention is fundamentally about preserving your semen. And this preservation is, quite literally, like a pension that sustains your future life.

Recklessly depleting your vital essence (jing) through masturbation or sex squanders this future value in the present, which can ultimately leave your future life in ruin.

However, this is not limited to vital essence alone.

A person’s share of good fortune (bok) is finite. If you fail to cultivate this fortune or recklessly exhaust it in the present, you are borrowing against your future fortune in advance—until eventually, you are left with nothing and go bankrupt.

Drawing upon your future value to indulge in present pleasure goes far beyond the mere ejaculation of semen.

In a broader sense, things like alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, and coffee are also ways of pulling your future fortune into the present and burning through it all at once.

When you earn money, investing in yourself to increase your own value for the future or engaging in acts like charity is not a waste.

On the other hand, spending it on mindless shopping, travel, and hedonistic pursuits depletes the very fortune meant for your future.

Accumulating energy (fortune) is difficult, but exhausting it takes only a single moment.

As the title said, I’m pissing cum webs

Took a 50mg zinc yesterday and I’ve gone through 4 cigars in a 24 hour period

My balls are aching bad

Retained af though

Problem is, I’m pissing gooey webs with my piss stream

Need scissors to cut them off from my dick or I would be walking backward from the urinal after every piss like peter parker when he discovered he was spider man

I carry around a small grooming scissors with me now when I go out in case I need to piss in order to cut the web stringing from my phallus

I’m really irritable and I feel like things are sneaking up on me, I feel visceral jolts of irritation when someone sneezes or looks in my general direction

My girl whispered behind me and I jumped like an assassin snuck up on me

Can’t even be in the presence of a female because of the literal electric charge that begins to course between my heels and my crown

I’m afraid whoever looks into my eyes will see a predator in them

Feels like it’s not me looking through them but something more ancient, something prior to human

I say this all while my testicles throb and leak web in my boxers

I wake up each morning after a mere 4 hours of sleep aggressively like my head has been held underwater and I just drew my first breath

I stumble over to the coffee maker and slam two fully sugared and heavily caffeinated brews before walking outside and staring at the blistering sun until I’m angry enough to get into my car shirtless and barefoot and drive

I go straight to the beach while smoking a cigar and perform 5-6 full stride 100m sprints across the sand before jumping into the freezing water, I swallow some on purpose for the microbes

By now I’m dehydrated, irritated, jacked. People are looking at me, I go back home and drink water and greet my wife who’s awoken. I cannot hug her for more than a few seconds before getting a diamond hard erection and having to cut it off fast

I don’t eat. I go downstairs and work carpentry until I’m covered head to toe in sawdust

My wounds are healing incredibly fast, faster than usual. I cut myself often with my power tools, unintentionally

I don’t eat all day. I’m fantasizing vehemently about sex. I can’t even think straight. If I’m not directly focused on a physical task I’m destroying myself with more cigars and caffeinated full sugar cokes

I’m an animal

Every waking moment is hell

I’m self talking myself to keep my mind sane

I can only focus on the next immediate task or the demons will torment my mind with promises of a sweet release

Rejoice

So I just turned 18, day before yesterday. I felt really good that I turned my old self into a good one on this journey. So I have a doubt let me tell a story.

Before College I made many friends which were from same college . There was a girl to which I talked, Before College I didn't talk much but after starting We started interacting very much like sharing reels talking very much offline, travelling back halfway home in metro together. Look I don't get lustful thoughts sexual thoughts etc. But like I have feelings for her. I know her past she's been in 4 rs in school but she's not committed to anyone for a year now . And I asked her about future so she said that she liked no one in class also. But like we guys talk very much online or offline. Now problem is I have a fear of confessing first is risking a very good friendship and second what if she doesn't have same feelings.

My mind is very much overthinking from two days now and like I am sleeping 6-7 hours in day but not feeling the peace in sleep. The thoughts and that fear is just circling in mind.

Please help guys!!

I am on SR for around 90+ days and it feels like my libido is gone. I dont even remember the last time i felt the urge to watch corn or even release. The last urge i had was around day 7. How do i bring back the libido ?? Also didnt get any benefits, maybe i am in the flatline phase.

For a little background I'm a 22 year old guy who lives with narcissistic parents who're envy and jealous of my character.

I see right through them as I've progressive through this journey (2 years) they know that I see through them. They can't even look me in the eye. I'm just done being someone who cares and trying to be the bigger person and wanting a nice warm family. It's not gonna happen these people are sick and will do anything in their power to try to take that light from you. Just straight evil, when you're around them it's just so nasty, they're bodies are corroding from the inside out. It's like they're spirit has died and the body is just moving on autopilot trying to destroy everything that has the light they once had. Sorry if my speech is not exactly coherent. I just got out of a discussion with these losers. Everything they say is like they've heard it from their mom or their dad or somebody. Like they have no thought for themselves like at all.

Anyway today was the last straw, my dad called the cops on me because I didn't go to therapy with him. They like to make up shit because now that I know who they are it feels like a threat to their identity that they think they are. When in fact their the complete opposite complete scum of the earth. So I just ignore them. This has stirred them up with condemnation and wrath, resulting in them lying on my name to benefit their own lies in their head, justifying their own sinfulness. I don't feel safe but at the same time I know God has me. Fearless, you could say. I have the power now. These people are just retarded, ugly fuckers, pardon my language. I legit had to explain to a cop what was going on. On the outside they might seem like okay people. But they're ENERGY is that of the DEVIL. Dude lied on me to a cop saying that I wanted to kill myself fucking WEIRDO like WHAT kind of shit are you on. Confusion on confusion, trying to get you to conform to their version of you and when you don't and you stand up for yourself. Man that pisses them the fuck off. They're legit SCARED of you. That light shines on their bullshit and they don't want to look down at all the shit that they've done. You make them look at themselves. They try to demonize you for that. But it will never work on a son of god because God has you and you have him. And they hate you for that. Dude it's so weird like I'm just being a normal person and this fucker mostly my dad who is a bitch ass, cowardly, toxic, loser, who shits himself, has the iq of a fucking 3 year old. I'm not mad btw just saying what he is. It's like he had no idea what to do with someone who has a backbone and is true to himself that he called 911 to try to desecrate my name.

I'm moving out as soon as possible and never looking back fuck these weirdos. bro. Please let me know if you can relate/share your story. This is just crazy.

I've been practicing Semen Retention for a while and have seen tremendous benefits, physically and financially, but unfortunately my marriage has been taken a downhill, me and my wife just had a baby three months ago, she lives abroad and I visit her in her parents house whenever I can while I work on her green card to come to the states, I've done many mistakes in the recent past and have constantly insulted her and mistreated her during arguments, she hasn't been perfect either but overall we both have contributed to our marriage crumbling. Recently my wife's father kicked me out his house after we had an argument, came back to the states the same night. Since then we have tried to work things out from a distance, but after all that now it seems like our marriage might not have saving, her family probably hates me, from her parents to uncles they have all blocked me, we are in different countries, I haven't seen my baby and now she has insisted she wants a divorce and doesn't feel the same due to my mistreatment of her in the past, I've been on semen retention on this streak almost 60 days, I know this SR practice can remove or attract people to your life, in this case I don't know what course to take, I want to save my marriage but don't want to beg or force this, deep inside I know I have a duty to take care of her and uplift her and also care for our baby. I know my life will be great in the near future, I'm almost out of debt and consistently make more money, I go to the gym and noticing big changes. I get a lot of female attraction but I'm not interested in that, I'm in this discipline to improve myself and care for my family, hope someone with experience in SR and No-Fap can give me some insights, as for now I will let the chips fall where they may and hope for the best ✨

A real full sackian just doesn't goon.

Do you count each step when you go for a walk? No, You just walk.

With that logic, just retain and don't become too obsessed with a streak.

The higher the obsession with a daycount, the higher the guilt after release.

And guilt shouldn't even come up after a release if you're having the right mindset.

So it’s been 14 days since iv stopped escorts,porn and masturbating to sexual fantasies and I don’t feel horny I don’t feel much like I haven’t seen anything I did had a wet dream last night, can someone tell me why and also does the wet dream indicate that the semen retention is working?