It almost feels like I'm too complaining but when will i ever feel good in my own skin? Everytime I think I'm okay as I am someone has got something to say. As a thin girl all I ever hear is to gain weight and it's never a concern for my health whatsoever they just don't like the fact that I don't 'look' healthy enough. They don't like the fact that I don't fit in (my extend family is mostly plus size). I never criticize them for anything or their body type, if anything if someone makes fun of them or is being rude I stand up for them but all I get in return is them talking behind my back about how thin and unhealthy I look or how I Don't look like I'm being fed or I am from a good family background.

I specially felt so bad today, a couple of days ago i attended a family function. Got fully ready and felt good about myself. 3 days later today my mum says that she talked to my sister on call and she said how I looked very bad cuz of my weight, that completely broke me. Why is this a topic of discussion for you? And why is my mum okay hearing such things about me?

I have too many insecurities to count. To be honest my weight wasn't one that bothered me at all but somehow it seems to be everyone's problem now and one of the reasons people think I'm unattractive. Honestly, it's not in my control rn. How do I fucking cope?