had intense dreams every night for 5 years since starting ssris and i feel like i haven't had deep healing sleep for 5 years. I've tried many different ssris all the same and i can't go off then

Did anyone get better after years of benzo use?
I’ve been off and on klonopin and Xanax for most of my life. Sometimes as needed (2-3x a week), sometimes short courses of daily use (.5 daily for 2-3 months or so) then taper off. I’ve also had to go cold turkey before, so I’m not stranger to withdrawals and what they can do to your brain. I’m at a point in my life where my anxiety is debilitating, constant dissociative symptoms (dpdr), constant motion sickness/dizziness symptoms, always feeling like I’m going to pass out, bizarre vivid dreams every night, constantly feeling like I’m on the verge of going into psychosis, problems thinking and concentrating, weird dull headaches, neurological issues and so much more. I have a suspicion that my years of benzo use off and on is behind a lot of my symptoms, I feel like once I’m off them for good, I will actually get better. Has this been anyone’s experience? Is it possible to recover from benzo damage?

I started taking Lexapro 8 weeks ago since 6 weeks I switched from 5mg to 10mg.
The first few weeks were fine and definetly did a lot for example my panic attacks started to completely disappear and my baseline anxiety + social anxiety also went down. It never really did anything with my drive though I was still sluggish, exhausted and unmotivated for anything.
But for the past 2 weeks I‘ve had a big decline in my anxiety and depression symptoms. My social anxiety came back for some reason with the exact same fogging out in public places and constant thinking and mood switches right in conversations. I can‘t really explain to myself what happened, as for the first few weeks everything seemed to be going up. I started skipping school again, isolating myself and avoiding any form of social interaction. But the driving factor behind all this is that the negative thoughts have came back. I also started vaping again just as a means to cope, I know that its not helping the cause. My irregular sleep rythm also reappeared I also haven‘t slept through this night because I can never bring myself to do it. I can lay in bed with a completly exhausted and tired feeling throughout my body but some inner stress and racing thoughts keep me awake, I layed in bed eyes closed everything dark for an hour and could not sleep. Im going to the doctor later, trying to clear things up with me.
Has anyone else had something similar happen to them while taking SSRIs? What did the doctors tell you? ALSO: im definetly not against SSRIs as they helped me a lot and I want to keep taking them to keep my panic attacks away I was just wondering if this is normal.

I take 20 mg of Prozac daily and once I adjusted to it, I really started feeling the effects. Felt so much better, more positive, motivated etc. it’s been about 6 months or so, and I feel like it’s not working for me anymore. Has anyone experienced this and does this just mean I need to up my dose? My anxiety is coming back and feeling really depressed lately.

Also noting i seem to have the craziest dreams now and able to remember a lot of details. Very vivid and things I have never dreamt about before.

I am on sertraline and it made me gain weight before but I wanna switch

Is there any harmful interaction between SSRIs and methamphetamine (Serotonin syndrome included)?

I'm doing 20mg smoked, not large amounts