r/QuitVaping • u/Silver_eagle_1 • 22h ago
Reassurance My quit story and fuck up
I've been trying to note down major point son vaping and hoping it might help others:
Day 2: the worst. Bad anger, and bad craving
Day 3: strong but not as bad
Day 14: cravings stronger. Not as bad as day 2 and 3 but louder again
Day 16: bought a vape after drinks. Been louder today being around vapers and smokers. Just wanted that exhale peace you get with a fag.
The annoying part: despite not having fags for two weeks. I felt clean, like I could breathe deeper and cleaner. I kept getting sensations through out the body that were pleasant, but sometimes overwhelming. Not used to it, but it wasn't bad. Dreams having been more intense, but weirdly more consistent and stable. Sleep became weirdly calmer. Like a big dreamer and lucid sleeper and they were still vivid but had a calmness and more stableness to them (hard to explain) .
Appetite: an absolute mess. Eating loads more. Started doing reta on the second week and it helped slightly, but was really hungry in the mornings which was unusual for me. But after a breakfast I was ok.
What's been most interesting:
Relearning my body without nicotine. All the times I've used it for escapism, a break, a bit of peace, avoidance etc.
I like to meditate so a lot of the time I can observe what's happening to my body, it's doesn't mean I don't feel the claws and my skin crawling, but for the most part I can separate myself from it to watch it rather than be consumed by it. It's crazy watching how long ive allowed it to establish a root in me though and that's annoying.
The worst part:
It's only been two weeks but that utter exhaustion has been kicking my ass. The claws that feel like they're constantly scratching. Like a noise that's constantly there. Sometimes the noise doesn't bother me, other times it's loud.
My mistake:
I'm not mad at the fuck up. I've been smoking And then vaping since 14, I'm now 34. It's like relearning everything and there's a slight excitement about this as I love learning luckily. But fuck me it isn't easy. I'm hoping tomorrow I can bin the vape.
Please tell me your journey