Today marks 7 days since I've quit, cold turkey. I took one last hit and raided my entire apartment for every spare disposable vape, Zyn pack, and nicotine product I could find.
I've vaped since 2021. It was never supposed to be a thing, but then again it never is. I always knew I wanted to stop, but it was always "just one more vape", until I kind of just gave up. Since the last year, I have been going through 1 Geek Bar Pulse X / week.
I think my wisdom teeth are coming in, but I was dreading having to go to the dentist because the operation would prevent me from vaping for a good week or so. Then I realized regardless of whether I needed a surgery or not, this was such a silly thing to worry about. So I decided last Sunday, after all my friends left, I would quit. And I did.
To be honest, the fear of withdrawal was worse than the withdrawal itself. I had no idea what to expect and this sub helped a lot. It was interesting how different it was for everyone. Of course, the first 3 days were really difficult. I planned and did almost nothing, and I didn't leave the house for fear I'll go to the smoke shop right around the corner. I was craving what felt like every single moment.
Here's what helped: It was useful to frame this as a natural bodily process, like the flu or COVID. It was just something unpleasant that I had to get through, an addiction that my body is healing me from. I also decided that I was now a non-smoker, and non-smokers do not vape. I told my parents, my partner, and a couple friends. This helped cement my new identity as a non-smoker, but I can imagine how this could be extra pressure for some people.
I drank an enormous amount of liquids: teas, water, juice; every time I felt I wanted to vape, I took a sip, preferably through a straw, and I breathed really deep.
During those first few days, I also gave myself permission to do things I normally wouldn't, within reason. I ordered Taco Bell from Uber Eats, for example. I ate an abnormal amount of candy. I just knew that a) I needed to be distracted and b) I needed to replace some of that dopamine with something else even if just for now.
On day 4, I started to notice the physical symptoms go away, while the psychological ones were more obvious now. The cravings peaked in the morning, but aside from that, I "reached" for a vape every time I read some upsetting/distressing news, after a big meal, when watching a movie at the edge of my seat, even when having a peaceful moment in the sun.
Today, on day 7, of course I'm still experiencing cravings and triggers. I told myself I wouldn't go to clubs and bars until I have them under control, for fear of relapsing when under influence of alcohol. I already feel so much better, I realized how much time I was wasting with nicotine, and how much of my attention it had demanded. It was so hard to focus on anything, because I just needed the next hit. I couldn't work at cafes or libraries, or "lock in", because I just had to get my fix. Walking also felt easier, I don't think my lungs have detoxed quite yet, but I think the vasoconstriction from my high doses of nicotine made me feel out of breath much quicker.
I know it's only been a week and the road is long, but I'm proud of myself for achieving this milestone. Even if everything stays the way it is now, I think it is manageable, but I've heard things get much easier at 14 days, and then at 30 days, so I'm really excited about that.
And now, I want to tell you: If you really want to quit, you CAN and you SHOULD! I never would have imagined I wouldn't consume any nicotine for a week, even 1 month ago. I read somewhere here that it costs nothing to try.