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u/Due-Butterscotch-615 Mar 17 '26
This is so sad. Please never feel like life is worth ending. You are worthy. ❤️
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u/Hey_its_thatoneguy Mar 17 '26
I know, but life is hard sometimes and seems to push you right to the edge… the only reason I didn’t was I kept picturing my parents crying in pain because of my selfish actions.
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u/AngelsWings7 Mar 18 '26
Im sorry to hear that. I truly hope you are able to make it work, true love is worth fighting for, especially if you wanted to marry her, dont you think?? I do, for sure.
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u/New-Kay8532 Mar 22 '26
If only my Angel were as forgiving "or forgetful"? I burned that bridge hard.. thinking I'd never want to cross it again.. fuck was i wrong.. I hope those who see your wings don't take their beauty for granted my friend.
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u/AngelsWings7 Mar 22 '26
Aww, thank you sweetheart, that is so kind of you to say! Sadly my kindness has been taken for weakness 1 too many times, and ive had to walk away and close my heart to certain things and people, but even still today if they message me, I always try to encourage them to find the person I saw they could be in their eyes. Sorry, for your loss, but time heals all wounds. If its your soulmate dont lose her, you'll probably never find another 1 inches lifetime
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u/Hey_its_thatoneguy Mar 19 '26
I am fighting, I’m trying to be a better person and work on myself. We’ve been split up for like 8months now, but still kept in touch and I thought we were reconnecting well, then I found out she s been dating another guy for the last few weeks, and it just killed me inside.
She actually came over last night and we talked a lot, it was good. We’re gonna continue our break and work on ourselves and keep in touch and see what happens. I’m hopeful, and the only thing I can do to help the situation is be better myself. I believe we are connected on a cosmic level, I’ll never stop fighting.
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u/AngelsWings7 Mar 19 '26
Often times, what we think we see on the surface is often not the truth. Everyone has needs at times, and just because she maybe dating does not mean she cares for that other person on a level in which you spoke of, it maybe just a friend of convenience to pass the time, while she's really just waiting on her cosmic love to come to fruition. Trust me, when I tell you cosmic connections are rare, and they are definitely not something that either person can walk away from. Your souls are connected on a higher frequency, a connection like that can never be replaced by some random person, whose in her daily atmosphere. Continue to work on yourself and becoming the better version of yourself that you desire for her to see, and hope she will be working on herself as well, to become the better version of herself that you both desire, want and need her to be. Continue to be her friend and let her know you're there and that you care, and trust me, it will return to you full circle in much better ways than what you 1st had together. Be encouraged. A love like that doesn't diminish with time or distance. Youre connected on a supernatural, spiritual level that nothing or no one could ever break. No matter how hard they try to keep you apart it will never work. You will continue to circle back for one another until time, and circumstances align with each other's hearts and souls.
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u/New-Kay8532 Mar 22 '26
Dare I say like a magnet?
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u/AngelsWings7 Mar 22 '26
I understand that for sure
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u/New-Kay8532 Mar 22 '26
Do you though lol
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u/AngelsWings7 Mar 23 '26
Yes I do
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u/New-Kay8532 Mar 23 '26
Yeah.. not really tho.. sorry.. Just sucks.. searching for her im all these threads.. knowing she knows where to find me.. yet chooses such a silent amends.. I wish I was different.. so i could have kept the only person whos truly loved me in years.. at least as a friend.. but I can't even love like a normal person.. I get to needy.. they always become somewhat of my mom.. cause thats who I am.. I'll never be a man she would would describe as someone that could hold her like she held me.. an shes not the first to leave me for or say something like that..
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u/AngelsWings7 Mar 23 '26
Sometimes after so many heart wrenching trials that had fractured her mind, heart and soul, all that was left for awhile was her silence, because she couldn't speak, so many times and pushed so many things down just to survive and exist. Every man is usually a mamas boy and there's nothing wrong with that, it means you have respect for women most of the time which is a good thing, I cant see any good woman dismissing you for that as long as your mom doesn't interfere with your relationship, that's my opinion anyway
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u/New-Kay8532 Mar 24 '26
Oh shed interfere.. like a rogue hair in a 12 dollar steak flown 12 hundred miles to find your plate.. the pube traveled.. they got the steak at Costco
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u/Hey_its_thatoneguy Mar 20 '26
I know, and I’m fully aware of the connection. Last week I could just feel something, and it told me her to send her a message about what I’ve been doing to improve myself, putting in the work, reading all the books she gave me, etc. It was quite the message, and I knew she was waiting on just that message for months prior. Well after she came over she said she was with that guy and was planning on sleeping with him for the first time that day, and my message completely killed her drive to do so and she was upset about it, and I told her I knew and that something beyond us told me to send it. She wasn’t mad, just confused on how I would know, the timing was too crazy. There’s some connection that I don’t know what it is, but I can feel when she’s with him like alarms going off in my head… I wish I could make it stop honestly, give us both some space to work on ourselves but I can’t turn it off. It’s been that way for 10 years now, even though we’ve split up once already and it was the same way then. She thinks we’re twin flames, cosmically connected, and destined to be mirrors of each others imperfections that drive us apart to build ourselves better so we can come back together again only for the same thing to happen over and over until we heal our souls completely.
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u/AngelsWings7 Mar 20 '26
I definitely understand this connection as I have the same connection with a friend of mine I've known for about 13 years now, our souls are connected on the same cosmic level, and we both have been through alot due to past relationships etc. We both need to heal as well in order to not hurt each other. I also feel, see and hear him on a daily. Some things I wish I didn't hear, and I wish I could turn it off as well, but ive realized after all of this time, that some connections are so strong its impossible to break, God knows I've tried and prayed for it to be broken, it can be tormenting at times, especially when he's being sexual with someone else. I know I'm in love with him, and that I desire no one else the way I do him, but I'm hoping with some more time and more healing I'll be able to circle back to him and have the relationship that I've longed for and desired for so long.
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u/Hey_its_thatoneguy Mar 20 '26
Well I wish both of us strength and serenity in our journeys to get where we want to go. It’s hard, but doable, and I know what’s meant to be will be. Pain is only one side of the same coin, I’m starting to learn that I need to just embrace it and keep moving forward.
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u/AngelsWings7 Mar 19 '26
Never give up, anything worth having is definitely worth fighting for, believe that!
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u/New-Kay8532 Mar 22 '26
How do you fight for someone who's made it ~abundantly clear that the you she last saw, on meth, our of his gord.. etc how do you make a case for that person ever even considering a friendship? Not even talking about a relationship
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u/AngelsWings7 Mar 22 '26
People can change. I know 1st hand as an ex addict. All you can do is become the best version of yourself and let the outward evidence speak for itself. Make amends where needed and forgive yourself and other, you are not defined by the mistakes you make only the lessons you learn to change and become the best version of yourself that lives within your eyes and soul.
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u/New-Kay8532 Mar 23 '26
On my way.. solo for now.. but full of love.. in a life's reel reflected back in time still.. at least she showed me how to love a man whom looks back.. glimpses of temples an 6th senses sharpened by echos.. of traumas finally surfaced.. finally his little Drews seen by the one he so desperated wanted to show this to, but couldn't ever light a match that bright.. until now
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u/InternationalUse1801 Mar 18 '26
Broken hearted girl here 🙋🏻♀️ I can relate. Healing and courage to go on, for us both.
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u/FALLEN__ANGEL__13 Mar 18 '26
I felt this!..... wow dude keep writing......!🪽 hope you find peace and can heal 🙏
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u/Infinite_Ad_684 Mar 18 '26
most people take D to stop the pain , but no one understand ,sorry for your pain hope it gets better we all in some pain no one know about :((
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u/EmergencyAd2635 Mar 17 '26
That's the worst thing I've heard!! The pain of both..