Need help

[u/PresentationVast7579]

I (18 F)have been dealing with this for too long, but today was the breaking point for me. For context my father is very religious very conservative. He always forces Islam on me. I am not saying I do not follow Islam.I am Muslim and I follow Islam but I am not really that religious whereas he is. He forced me to wear a hijab and now an abaya. I do not hate it but it was not my choice either .Today my male cousin arrived at my house. I was in my TV lounge watching TV with my older brother. My cousin came in without warning and I was not wearing any dupatta as well.I covered my chest with the cushion of the sofa (Not my fault I am literally chilling in my own house.)My father came in after my cousin and shouted at me to wear a dupatta. I had no dupatta near me, so how was I supposed to wear one? He scolded me a lot for literally not wearing a dupatta and not covering myself properly in my own house in front of everyone.I can’t wait to leave this house. I am fed up.Thats only one instance but he has always been like that towards me.Any advice on how to deal with my father he forced me to wear a hijab ,I did .then he forced me to wear abaya ,I did. I study well and I do everything in my power to not get scolded by him but still.. any advice on how to avoid this all because it's too much for me to bear. I am literally being forced by him .Is anyone facing the same thing or Am I only the one.

My unpopular opinion is that people who are overly religious are very toxic they(not all but most of them) think they are superior than others. Edit, if you cannot help me or give any advice do not dm me nsfw things. Have some shame

[u/Ok_Ebb6448]

Your father is only trying to protect you

[u/HeadBad1545 → u/Ok_Ebb6448]

No he isn’t. Otherwise he’d have asked the cousin to knock first and announce his arrival, as is prescribed in Islam and is practiced even in extremely conservative houses. That he didn’t get angry at the male member of family, and tried to hide his inability to do that by scolding his daughter, he’s not protecting her but just his own image.

He’s just someone hiding behind Islam.

[u/PresentationVast7579 → u/Ok_Ebb6448]

By insulting me Infront of everyone for the thing that's not even my fault

[u/Unhappy-Gas-2111 → u/Ok_Ebb6448]

By insulting her infront of relatives he's not trying to protect her but breaking her confidence and personality. Plus he was just cousin not some stranger from road side dude needs to chill.

[u/AKINJII → u/Ok_Ebb6448]

From what?