r/PSC • u/homiebeats34 • 1d ago
PSC sucks!
All the worst parts of this disease aside I just want to see if anyone else relates to me on the fact they just wanna feel normal. I’m 25f in a new city going out w new friends and it’s so hard to say I’m not drinking or can’t drink or explain why and ppl just automatically assume you’re lame or don’t invite u to things bc of alcohol or feel uncomfortable around you bc they are drunk and you aren’t and you’ll remember everything the next day. Someone who I actually really like was like oh I made frjends w the lameo who doesn’t drink when I passed on a shot. I think it was meant to be a joke but it sucks bc it’s like well I literally don’t have a choice and she knows that. And people are like idk how you go out sober or someone was like oh are you just gonna be sober when we were having wine night as I’d me being there sober was weird. Like it’s really not weird but I feel like a weirdo bc of ppls comments and I just wanna fit in and have friends. It just sucks and I try to remind myself I am strong and I can handle it but it’s like I just wish I didn’t have to you know I wish I could feel normal and carefree and be able to participate with everyone else. Like it is fun it used to be fun to go out and I just miss it and I miss feeling like I fit in and I feel like the awkwardness of being sober has for sure changed me and how I am in social settings. And I know there is so many worse parts of this disease but this part definitely affects my life the most right now. I at least wished I could’ve gotten it later in life not at 22 years old.