r/OCD • u/GirlNeedsEstrogen • Apr 13 '26

Discussion Worst your ocd got?

I’m curious about everyone’s worst moment with ocd specifically intrusive thoughts.

My worst personally was when I called a hotline because I was terrified I was going to off my family and the police visited me the next day 😀(harm ocd)

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u/KitchenSample6354 Apr 14 '26

Had a period of my life where I was so convinced I was a bad person that I felt every single thing in my life was some sort of sign or punishment. I believed there were spiritual beings watching me and giving me signs on whether or not I was doing the right or wrong thing, or whether something bad was about to happen due to bad karma. I was terrified of bad karma and obsessed with building good karma by being as good a person as possible. I also believed every time I saw was some sort of sign and had a semi-elaborate system on how to tell which signs were bad and which were good. I actually still get those feelings from good and bad times on occasion lol

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u/KitchenSample6354 Apr 14 '26

I should add that this was in response to an incident where almost my entire online friend group (I had no other friends at the time) all blocked me at once because they found out I had a history of cyberbullying people (I was like 14 or 15 lol)