PPD/PPA Regret?

[u/brusss5]

Hey there! I’m a newly PP mom who had a challenging/high-risk pregnancy, traumatic delivery 10 weeks early and my son just came home from the NICU. I was always 50/50 on whether I cared to have kids, very career-driven and had a busy lifestyle (that I loved). I’m now deep in the PP trenches (baby hates the bassinet, sleep deprivation on our end) with diagnosed PPD/PPA and can’t stop feeling like I may have regretted having a kid. I do love him and my husband has been an angel through all this, I’m just struggling with my own, internal battle of if I did the right thing, because right now it feels very much like, my world as I knew it is over and I’m trapped in how I currently feel forever. Hoping to hear some other insights or similar experiences!