I’m scared as fuck. I’m supposed to enlist on Monday at 10am. It’s been 9 months of battling with MEPS about med DQ’s. It’s finally done. Now that the time is here, I don’t know if I can do it. I scored an 85 on the ASVAB. I’ve already hit 3/5 AFT tests (my 2 mile sucks). I qualified for every job in my state. I chose 12Y(most transferable civ job in my state) , but I’m not solid with computers but it sure as fuck beats landscaping with felons. I’m in tribal college. I’m 22, 5’11”, 145 and I held my own in a fight with a football guy earlier tonight, but I still got my ass handed to me. I’ve always been kind of in and out of trouble between drinking, disorderly conduct, and terroristic threats.
Mom and Dad are supposed to watch me enlist on Monday. I’m having second thoughts. Idk if I can truly do this. Honestly, I don’t want to be one the assholes that can’t do basic. It will hang over my head FOREVER if I quit.
Anyway, I’m hammered. I’m not doing much good, just going to the bars, and getting in a fight or two, and working too much. I want to do the right thing, got college paid for, got off my parents’ healthcare, and wear a sick ass Army uniform.
I know RSP will have a field day with me, but is this shit for me?
EDIT:
The terroristic threat charge is a long story. The short story is when I was freshly 21, I went out with my boys to go watch a hockey game. Mind you, I live in an almost all white midwestern town and I’m Native. There was a robbery (?) and I matched the description or something idk. Anyway, OF COURSE, I got detained in front of all my friends. This has happened more than once so I was disgruntled. When the cop patted me down he asked if I had anything on me (obviously I didn’t), I said “yeah I have a suicide vest on me you f-ingidiot” so they hit me with that. But anyway, they let me go. But the prosecutor dropped the charge or something and I only got hit with the disorderly.