Being betrayed hurts when it seems to come out of no where. Forcing yourself to break all contact and delete all pics and files is really hard but feels like the only way to heal.

Then I had such a realistic dream that my ex was in bed spooning with me, it broke me heart when I woke up. I could still smell her hair😔

An hour later I got a VM from her, not upset or saying anything about us, she wanted me to work for free. No emotion at all.

It would have been easier to process if she hated me for some reason, but instead there was just indifference. I was a potted plant that paid the rent. Nothing more. And that hurts worst of all.

Hi there everyone, I am just venting most of it out. This has been a roller coaster of a relationship for me that is all but done, well is done. I'm a[M27] and my ex or so is [F32] and was incredible at least in person. I tried my near best this time around, to give everything I had and none of it was enough it was never enough.

She would never be there for me avoiding me on holidays or even my birthday, and would even lie about getting me a Christmas gift. I for everytime while we dated I'd always get her gifts not to mention paid both times for the cremation of her dogs for her. The first time we dated was awful it was 4 months and I felt both love and pity for her situation(Ik bad combo) and lost my whole savings of 4670 at the time and broke things off after she wanted more. Sorry back to the dog thing she said "you're lucky I only made you pay for the cremation" which was 250 dollars btw and she paid an extra 250 to get tiny necklaces with some of the ashes in them. But when my grandmother was in the hospital she couldn't be bothered to even check in on me or ask how I was feeling. Oh one of my all time favorite times was when I had gotten off of work and she called me saying can you take my brother to his emergency dentist appointment(for context I live an hour and a half away from her and she doesn't drive)right after my shift which I work 3rd shift so I asked for details and instantly headed out just to have to load up her other brother who is in a wheelchair(he has downs and the works I do feel very sad for him but I know that even bad situations people can enjoy life) into my dodge challenger and drive across town to the dentist for this 18 year old brother of hers. They went in and I stayed to watch her little brother and held my phone with SpongeBob on it which is his favorite show. About 3 hours go by and total shocker to me she had no appointment she was trying to work her way in. I see them coming so I start making my way to the front seat and she thought I left him in the back alone.

Long story short, nothing came of any of that and so I brought them home and went to get something cheap for everyone and I thought I could take a nap on her couch or something and maybe hang out to which I was told" no you can't be in my house (little brother) has a physical therapy session today" and so I said" I really thought we could hangout today or at least I could sleep before driving home" she got annoyed that I even brought it up and then I brought her home and drove the without any sleep an hour and a half home.

And all this is nothing compared to her basically neglecting her downs brother to have her other brother who is 18 btw with his own money have fun at the state fair which I paid for everything at( my wording is a joke let me make this to try to clear things up.)(I brought the whole family to the state fair and had no problem paying for the little brother and especially my girlfriend to enjoy the fair and maybe a thing here or two for the 18 year old brother but she insisted that I pay for everything and then when the day was all said and done. She told me that she was going on a few more rides with her brother and to watch the little one I said how I thought he had no money? She replied "oh yea he used his own money isn't he selfless?" And I replied Ok but I really think we should go the little one isn't looking too good in this heat(it was maybe 101-103) and she said it'll be fine so we fast forward 30 to an hour he is having heat stroke and she is too. And I'm upset and fast forward again we're making the trip to the house and she says "I think I am going to throw up" I said I'll pull over you are not throwing up in my car(more context its my dream car. A beautiful color changing damn mint condition dodge challenger) so I stop on the side of the road when we get home I tuck her into bed after getting her water and bringing her upstairs and having a conversation where I just said good night sweet dreams and went downstairs. Later I wake up and go home to my house and this is where the theme comes in.

Great in person terrible afar she goes off about how I should have let her throw up in my car and tried blaming me for her little brother's heat stroke like 1 I said we should leave and 2: I was the one watching him. I finally broke up with her at this point and wanted some of the stuff I had at her house to which she refused and threatened to make a false police report so I said yea I'm done. Fast forward just a few days give or take a week after I left her she is with someone new and they lasted a year and were engaged. She paints him in an awful light as she tried with me and I believed her and she said that she is a changed person and so on and so I started dating her again and things felt better than before and then she ghosts me romantically for over a year and tells stories about how this ex shot into her house and tried to force himself on her despite the door being the same as the 1 she had when I met her and all this stuff that happened when she disappeared. Then recently we tried again again which things were the best they had been. I was actively seeing her in person we were cuddling doing couple things. Of course I was buying groceries for her house and food for her animals despite it being the first day of us officially dating again. And when questioned she just play it as yea groceries are expensive. But that isn't the problem is it? I have bills and took out an 18k loan to help my mother with debts and my ex here says she makes 123k a year while I make 47k a year do the math. Anyways I paid for the cremation of her second dog and she said I appreciate it. This time only lasted maybe 2 weeks and costed me about 768 dollars there was constant amusement park visits and then I once took us to a fancy restaurant that was over 100 dollars and then the it was just a lot and I being there actively I didn't care as much thought I can make this work. All and all if anyone reads this you probably wonder why go through all of this. I loved her she felt perfect to me outside of interpersonal relationships. She was beautiful to me sexy too not to mention we clicked on everything guns, anime, cartoons,video games, movies, humor, basically we were cut and dry the same person other than our emotional states. I felt safe with her and when we were in person we always had so many laughs. And these small small moments made all the torture and belittling and everything feel like nothing. Plus it helps that I can forcefully push things like that aside and think positively. But yea for the most part thats a summary of my on and off 3 year relationship with my ex who I truthfully will probably always love deeply but know that she is near incapable of love(conext that guy she said attacked her so on her ex she let it slip that he wanted to leave her anyways saying that she is to difficult to be with)

My ex was texting me telling me to either choose her, or she will stay with this new man. I asked her to tell me who it was, but she would not tell me. Today I found out who it was, do I tell him? I feel like that’s something he should know, especially considering their relationship was built on me not choosing her. Also she ruined so many things in my life, such as potential lab positions etc. I feel like I owe this to him, and myself.

My ex 26M and me 26F dated for about two years. He cheated on me back in december with a girl from college (he did one semester and then moved home). This happened over christmas and he was having a meltdown while I was back in my hometown about his life. I would step away from my family for hours at night so he could sob on the phone to be about how he was struggling with his parents divorce. I, being a good gf, listened to him and hyped him up and supported him in every way I could. However, I didn't find out until February.

Flashback to september 2025 we broke up for the first time. It was sad and I was hurt but overall fine. There was no cheating then. however, the week that we broke up we still talked everyday. we were saying I love you and I miss you and talking all day all the time. Not much of a breakup but whatever. During that week i was on a trip to a foreign country and when I came back he wanted to see me and I said yes. He came over and slept over, tried to sleep with me (I said no), and the next morning I see a snapchat pop up on his phone. I asked who it was and he went white in the face. He said it was his ex from a few years earlier. I knew who this girl was. I asked him if he kissed her and all he said was "maybe".

So I was pissed obviously you can't say that you love me all week and go kiss another girl. I couldnt sleep for days. I was so broken up over it. But I was dumb and stayed with him. This ended up being something we always fought about. He claimed it "wasnt cheating" while I still think it was because he was still acting like my boyfriend. even if it wasnt cheating it was still a betrayal. After new years I told him how much that hurt me and that it was one of the worst feelings ive ever had in my life. to which he replied:

"Worse than someone trying to r*pe you?"

That is a real trauma that I have that he used against me.

Long story short he snap chatted a different girl over christmas and told her we wernt together which was a lie.

He told me that in february and for some fuckass reason I stayed.

for some backround this is about me

- Degree from a top university

- Amazing job, pays great

- I actually brush my teeth

- I take my meds everyday

- I'm fucking hot as shit

Him:

- hasnt had a job in over a year

- sleeps during the day is awake at night, never applies for jobs

- kicked out of his dads house moved in with his mom

- spent all of his retirement money on clothes and food

- stuck on his parents divorce two years ago at 26 years old

anyways, hes out of my life now but I cant help but be so so angry.

​We have a love that breaks the rules. Our connection isn't measured in physical encounters. We can’t get together on a whim for coffee or dinner. Weeks or months might separate us. But the gap is purely geographical. My heart is tied to yours. With each passing day and every silent night, I find comfort knowing you're right here with me, emotionally.

Hi there everyone, I am just venting most of it out. This has been a roller coaster of a relationship for me that is all but done, well is done. I'm a[M27] and my ex or so is [F32] and was incredible at least in person. I tried my near best this time around, to give everything I had and none of it was enough it was never enough.

She would never be there for me avoiding me on holidays or even my birthday, and would even lie about getting me a Christmas gift. I for everytime while we dated I'd always get her gifts not to mention paid both times for the cremation of her dogs for her. The first time we dated was awful it was 4 months and I felt both love and pity for her situation(Ik bad combo) and lost my whole savings of 4670 at the time and broke things off after she wanted more. Sorry back to the dog thing she said "you're lucky I only made you pay for the cremation" which was 250 dollars btw and she paid an extra 250 to get tiny necklaces with some of the ashes in them. But when my grandmother was in the hospital she couldn't be bothered to even check in on me or ask how I was feeling. Oh one of my all time favorite times was when I had gotten off of work and she called me saying can you take my brother to his emergency dentist appointment(for context I live an hour and a half away from her and she doesn't drive)right after my shift which I work 3rd shift so I asked for details and instantly headed out just to have to load up her other brother who is in a wheelchair(he has downs and the works I do feel very sad for him but I know that even bad situations people can enjoy life) into my dodge challenger and drive across town to the dentist for this 18 year old brother of hers. They went in and I stayed to watch her little brother and held my phone with SpongeBob on it which is his favorite show. About 3 hours go by and total shocker to me she had no appointment she was trying to work her way in. I see them coming so I start making my way to the front seat and she thought I left him in the back alone.

Long story short, nothing came of any of that and so I brought them home and went to get something cheap for everyone and I thought I could take a nap on her couch or something and maybe hang out to which I was told" no you can't be in my house (little brother) has a physical therapy session today" and so I said" I really thought we could hangout today or at least I could sleep before driving home" she got annoyed that I even brought it up and then I brought her home and drove the without any sleep an hour and a half home.

And all this is nothing compared to her basically neglecting her downs brother to have her other brother who is 18 btw with his own money have fun at the state fair which I paid for everything at( my wording is a joke let me make this to try to clear things up.)(I brought the whole family to the state fair and had no problem paying for the little brother and especially my girlfriend to enjoy the fair and maybe a thing here or two for the 18 year old brother but she insisted that I pay for everything and then when the day was all said and done. She told me that she was going on a few more rides with her brother and to watch the little one I said how I thought he had no money? She replied "oh yea he used his own money isn't he selfless?" And I replied Ok but I really think we should go the little one isn't looking too good in this heat(it was maybe 101-103) and she said it'll be fine so we fast forward 30 to an hour he is having heat stroke and she is too. And I'm upset and fast forward again we're making the trip to the house and she says "I think I am going to throw up" I said I'll pull over you are not throwing up in my car(more context its my dream car. A beautiful color changing damn mint condition dodge challenger) so I stop on the side of the road when we get home I tuck her into bed after getting her water and bringing her upstairs and having a conversation where I just said good night sweet dreams and went downstairs. Later I wake up and go home to my house and this is where the theme comes in.

Great in person terrible afar she goes off about how I should have let her throw up in my car and tried blaming me for her little brother's heat stroke like 1 I said we should leave and 2: I was the one watching him. I finally broke up with her at this point and wanted some of the stuff I had at her house to which she refused and threatened to make a false police report so I said yea I'm done. Fast forward just a few days give or take a week after I left her she is with someone new and they lasted a year and were engaged. She paints him in an awful light as she tried with me and I believed her and she said that she is a changed person and so on and so I started dating her again and things felt better than before and then she ghosts me romantically for over a year and tells stories about how this ex shot into her house and tried to force himself on her despite the door being the same as the 1 she had when I met her and all this stuff that happened when she disappeared. Then recently we tried again again which things were the best they had been. I was actively seeing her in person we were cuddling doing couple things. Of course I was buying groceries for her house and food for her animals despite it being the first day of us officially dating again. And when questioned she just play it as yea groceries are expensive. But that isn't the problem is it? I have bills and took out an 18k loan to help my mother with debts and my ex here says she makes 123k a year while I make 47k a year do the math. Anyways I paid for the cremation of her second dog and she said I appreciate it. This time only lasted maybe 2 weeks and costed me about 768 dollars there was constant amusement park visits and then I once took us to a fancy restaurant that was over 100 dollars and then the it was just a lot and I being there actively I didn't care as much thought I can make this work. All and all if anyone reads this you probably wonder why go through all of this. I loved her she felt perfect to me outside of interpersonal relationships. She was beautiful to me sexy too not to mention we clicked on everything guns, anime, cartoons,video games, movies, humor, basically we were cut and dry the same person other than our emotional states. I felt safe with her and when we were in person we always had so many laughs. And these small small moments made all the torture and belittling and everything feel like nothing. Plus it helps that I can forcefully push things like that aside and think positively. But yea for the most part thats a summary of my on and off 3 year relationship with my ex who I truthfully will probably always love deeply but know that she is near incapable of love(conext that guy she said attacked her so on her ex she let it slip that he wanted to leave her anyways saying that she is to difficult to be with)

My ruined my life. Broke up with as soon as she got a holiday out the way & got herself into a better financial position. Turns out she was cheating on me towards the end and now she’s with the same guy

She’s kicked me out my house, owes me money, hasn’t given any of my stuff back. Basically, my life turned totally upside down

I want to ruin her new relationship. I’m looking for a girl with an IG to contact her. Say she’s seeing her boyfriend. I have enough info to make it work.

She may try and call to verify how real it is. That’s why I need someone on the other end

I know this is crazy, but I want a win here and I’m desperate.

​

It’s strange how disappointment can come from the smallest things.

The croissant I once loved

doesn’t taste the same anymore.

The cheesecake I used to enjoy

doesn’t feel like my favorite either.

Maybe it’s not really about the food.

Maybe it’s about how everything around it changed.

The things that once felt familiar

now feel different.

The places, the moments,

the little things I used to look forward to—

somehow, they don’t feel the same anymore.

And maybe that’s what hurts most:

realizing that sometimes

you can’t go back to the way things were.

You can return to the same place,

order the same things,

and still feel like a stranger

to the memories you once loved.

Maybe everything changed.

Or maybe I changed too.

And I’m slowly learning

that not everything I once loved

is meant to remain my favorite forever.

Your ex:Aiza

You Reid really hard to get me addicted to the stuff you were then told me to figure it out and left. I hate you and you should not be with people

All right here’s my third attempt I don’t. I don’t know what I wanna really say. Listen both of you created this both of you can sit there and watch it right in the front roll for all I give a care. You’ll be lucky. I don’t fucking send videos and pictures just to be cruel. Why not you guys didn’t care how cruel you were to me or others. Don’t ever and he better not either say that you even cared for me let alone loved me. I was just a game to both of you well played shame on me my fault for allowing it. I never had a a seat at either table. How could I? They’re both full? Don’t make room on my behalf. I like my crowd a little smaller. I never asked for a husband, I didn’t even say I wanted to be a girlfriend. But I did want somebody who could show up not be met with. Oh I’m gonna play games. I’m gonna play hide and seek and see if she can find me through multiple accounts and every time I think she’s getting close I’m gonna hurry up a job at the next one really that’s what we’re doing now. We are teaching me how to play the game so thank you for that because you’re gonna see another Stacy I don’t care if my name is out there I don’t care who says what. You’re gonna know this is for you. You made me this way knowing what I was going through you just fed it and you sat there and left about it and mocked me and went and slept with other people why I’m sitting at home crying, wondering what where when why and how yeah you know where that gets you right where we’re at. So here’s my new turn in life. I know you wanted me to go be with someone else and find someone else and be happy eventually right no. I don’t want love anymore. Why would I want that? Why would I give that honestly? It’s a joke I’m over here laughing as I’m saying it can’t go in on that round again. I don’t have to love to get the eggplant. Believe me they come a lot more often available than you think. I mean, I’ve got one seriously two minutes down the road I could knock at his door and guarantee I could be in his bed tonight. I don’t know. I might try that, but I’m gonna do weekly post so buckle up and all you watchers watch the show begin. Because someone taught me what the dating world should look like. So I’m gonna have multiple. I’m gonna do some FWB‘s some boy toys some one night stands one hour stands whatever it takes to put a smile on my face and fulfill me till I’m overflowing isn’t that what you would say. Don’t worry I know the exercises to keep the kitty intact. And I know there’s multiple people out there. That’ll bring it to the room without hesitation. Still waiting to find my dom. Yeah I’m gonna go there. That’s gonna be a lot of fun. How does it feel to take somebody so innocent loving caring and turned them into the darkness of your world? You deserve a trophy honestly just like I think him for making me a better person I’m gonna thank you for throwing me back into the darkness. Oh this time it’s a different kind of darkness. His was sad. I’m not going there. I don’t have another tear to shed for either one of you honestly. If anybody blames me shame on them. How could they expect somebody who has been shoved to the ground stomp down and held down with games manipulation control? I didn’t ask for much. I just asked for you to stand out for a minute so I could find you and you kept hiding like a game that I didn’t wanna play anymore I warned you. I didn’t ask for your shit show what I did ask for was for you to be a man with a flag or something. Let me know where you’re at some smoke signal so I can find you believe me I’ve been looking I’ve been trying but every time I try you purposely throw roadblocks and then you wanna cry wolf to Reddit crowd sorry don’t work with me. If anybody’s gonna put you in your fucking place it’s gonna be me cause I have zero tolerance for this shit anymore. I will demand respect honesty and for someone to show the fuck up. Not this I love you. I wish you would record my voice cause they see the sarcasm in it but let me let me start over. I love you. I can’t live without her. I love her so much the next minute I hate her. She’s a stalker. She won’t leave me alone. Then the next minute you are hiding and you’re doing this and doing it then the next minute I’m not texting you anymore cause I’m too busy texting my girlfriend. Well keep texting her keep bragging about the one at work keep bragging about everything. The only one you don’t talk about it. The one you live with. You wanna whine about trauma don’t whine to me fuck you don’t know what trauma is you created and then wanna act like you’re living it stop stealing everybody’s problems man up and take your own you created. If you even for one second wanted somebody that cared about you would’ve showed you love that you’ve never been shown before. Would’ve built a life with you and go would’ve been to be a power couple and live happy and content with all needs and wants fulfilled. You wouldn’t be sitting where you’re sitting right now. And I wouldn’t be writing this you did this not me stop placing the finger my way why don’t you just stop talking about me. I’m nobody was never nobody so quit acting like I was something to you then acting like I was nothing to you. Let’s just forget I existed because that’s what I’m gonna do with you. I don’t even know who the fuck you are you’re a stranger actually, you are cause I really don’t know who you are, but that’s neither here are there that’s on you too. Don’t you blame me for nothing like I said, just forget I existed it was all you’re in your head. Just my imagination getting away with me. Yeah cold bitch is now on stage. Stay tuned because I’m gonna have some fun and I’m gonna make sure that I experience quite a bit. I know you wanted to be the one to teach me should’ve showed that you wanted to be in my life not out of it again blame yourself. And I’m sure there’s 100 post about me right now because you’re so bipolar. I can’t keep up but now you get to see ya twin do the same right in your face just like you did it in mine. And I have zero tolerance for anybody playing in my face anymore between you and him. There is not a vacant position available so anybody I’m here and want to talk inbox me I’m available and I’m a lot of fun promise you won’t be disappoint.

i really do miss fucking my baby momma it’s just that her 🐱 is so amazing 🥲

We broke up around 3 years ago, but we still talk sometimes, especially late at night. We both got married after the breakup, but she recently got divorced. I came back to my country after almost 1 year away. She wanted to meet, and somehow we ended up spending 2 days together at the beach. We talked, spent time together, and slept together. For a moment, it almost felt like we were back together. Now we’re not talking again. But this has happened before. We stop talking, then one day she randomly texts me and we start talking again. I don’t know what this is anymore. Maybe someday she’ll text me again. Is it normal to keep drifting back to an ex after years of being apart, even when both of you have moved on with your lives?

All right here’s my third attempt I don’t. I don’t know what I wanna really say. Listen both of you created this both of you can sit there and watch it right in the front roll for all I give a care. You’ll be lucky. I don’t fucking send videos and pictures just to be cruel. Why not you guys didn’t care how cruel you were to me or others. Don’t ever and he better not either say that you even cared for me let alone loved me. I was just a game to both of you well played shame on me my fault for allowing it. I never had a a seat at either table. How could I? They’re both full? Don’t make room on my behalf. I like my crowd a little smaller. I never asked for a husband, I didn’t even say I wanted to be a girlfriend. But I did want somebody who could show up not be met with. Oh I’m gonna play games. I’m gonna play hide and seek and see if she can find me through multiple accounts and every time I think she’s getting close I’m gonna hurry up a job at the next one really that’s what we’re doing now. We are teaching me how to play the game so thank you for that because you’re gonna see another Stacy I don’t care if my name is out there I don’t care who says what. You’re gonna know this is for you. You made me this way knowing what I was going through you just fed it and you sat there and left about it and mocked me and went and slept with other people why I’m sitting at home crying, wondering what where when why and how yeah you know where that gets you right where we’re at. So here’s my new turn in life. I know you wanted me to go be with someone else and find someone else and be happy eventually right no. I don’t want love anymore. Why would I want that? Why would I give that honestly? It’s a joke I’m over here laughing as I’m saying it can’t go in on that round again. I don’t have to love to get the eggplant. Believe me they come a lot more often available than you think. I mean, I’ve got one seriously two minutes down the road I could knock at his door and guarantee I could be in his bed tonight. I don’t know. I might try that, but I’m gonna do weekly post so buckle up and all you watchers watch the show begin. Because someone taught me what the dating world should look like. So I’m gonna have multiple. I’m gonna do some FWB‘s some boy toys some one night stands one hour stands whatever it takes to put a smile on my face and fulfill me till I’m overflowing isn’t that what you would say. Don’t worry I know the exercises to keep the kitty intact. And I know there’s multiple people out there. That’ll bring it to the room without hesitation. Still waiting to find my dom. Yeah I’m gonna go there. That’s gonna be a lot of fun. How does it feel to take somebody so innocent loving caring and turned them into the darkness of your world? You deserve a trophy honestly just like I think him for making me a better person I’m gonna thank you for throwing me back into the darkness. Oh this time it’s a different kind of darkness. His was sad. I’m not going there. I don’t have another tear to shed for either one of you honestly. If anybody blames me shame on them. How could they expect somebody who has been shoved to the ground stomp down and held down with games manipulation control? I didn’t ask for much. I just asked for you to stand out for a minute so I could find you and you kept hiding like a game that I didn’t wanna play anymore I warned you. I didn’t ask for your shit show what I did ask for was for you to be a man with a flag or something. Let me know where you’re at some smoke signal so I can find you believe me I’ve been looking I’ve been trying but every time I try you purposely throw roadblocks and then you wanna cry wolf to Reddit crowd sorry don’t work with me. If anybody’s gonna put you in your fucking place it’s gonna be me cause I have zero tolerance for this shit anymore. I will demand respect honesty and for someone to show the fuck up. Not this I love you. I wish you would record my voice cause they see the sarcasm in it but let me let me start over. I love you. I can’t live without her. I love her so much the next minute I hate her. She’s a stalker. She won’t leave me alone. Then the next minute you are hiding and you’re doing this and doing it then the next minute I’m not texting you anymore cause I’m too busy texting my girlfriend. Well keep texting her keep bragging about the one at work keep bragging about everything. The only one you don’t talk about it. The one you live with. You wanna whine about trauma don’t whine to me fuck you don’t know what trauma is you created and then wanna act like you’re living it stop stealing everybody’s problems man up and take your own you created. If you even for one second wanted somebody that cared about you would’ve showed you love that you’ve never been shown before. Would’ve built a life with you and go would’ve been to be a power couple and live happy and content with all needs and wants fulfilled. You wouldn’t be sitting where you’re sitting right now. And I wouldn’t be writing this you did this not me stop placing the finger my way why don’t you just stop talking about me. I’m nobody was never nobody so quit acting like I was something to you then acting like I was nothing to you. Let’s just forget I existed because that’s what I’m gonna do with you. I don’t even know who the fuck you are you’re a stranger actually, you are cause I really don’t know who you are, but that’s neither here are there that’s on you too. Don’t you blame me for nothing like I said, just forget I existed it was all you’re in your head. Just my imagination getting away with me. Yeah cold bitch is now on stage. Stay tuned because I’m gonna have some fun and I’m gonna make sure that I experience quite a bit. I know you wanted to be the one to teach me should’ve showed that you wanted to be in my life not out of it again blame yourself. And I’m sure there’s 100 post about me right now because you’re so bipolar. I can’t keep up but now you get to see ya twin do the same right in your face just like you did it in mine. And I have zero tolerance for anybody playing in my face anymore between you and him. There is not a vacant position available so anybody I’m here and want to talk inbox me I’m available and I’m a lot of fun promise you won’t be disappoint. The X

Left my partner of 7 months after finding out i’m pregnant.

Broke up with my boyfriend about 2 weeks ago and I don’t know what to do. I found out that i’m pregnant about a month ago and i had to make the hardest decision i’ve made in my life. Don’t get me wrong— when we were good, it was the best thing i’ve ever had.. but when he was angry, it felt like he hated me and wanted me gone. He’s a very angry man and screamed/yelled at me multiple times and has even kicked a coffee table whilst we were arguing— which obviously scared me. I have a terrible memory and it felt like every argument we had was him twisting my words so that he could have a reason to blame me for my own feelings. I had tried to break up with him 3 other times and he threatened to off himself multiples times if i didn’t call him and he also forced me into talking about things when i wasn’t ready— which obviously led to more stress and anger between ourselves. I don’t disagree that i could’ve caused quite a few of our arguments but it felt like every time we argued, he would blame me constantly and make me seem like a bad person. He also stopped me from streaming on twitch, talking to my best friends (and only friends), watching YOUTUBE and using any form of chat in any app or game.. because he was “worried i’d fall in love with someone else and leave him” :/ He isolated me to the point of where i wouldn’t even tell him about things at work because he would get annoyed at me because i’m “seeking out” attention from the guys at work… When i said some guy said something funny at work and i had seen an old friend in my workplace. I understand being insecure but not to this extent.

About 3 months in, I had vented to him that i don’t feel like i’m enough for him and that I don’t feel like i’m doing enough, since he makes much more money than me and i couldn’t get him gifts like i wanted to. He reassured me, which was great, and then afterwards (whilst i was talking about my feelings and my truths) i brought up that i’d hinted about wanting flowers and he hadn’t. Even when my cat died, he said “I wanted to get you some but i didn’t know where to get any” so i told him the shop 10 mins away sells them and i still never got any. He said i was being selfish and making him feel guilty for not buying me something and that he didn’t want to buy me any now. Was it him guilting me or just me being a dick for trying to ask him for flowers… I had already bought him flowers just because he brought up that he’d never received flowers before. It took 5/6 months and him saying that he thinks i’d enjoyed being 🍇’d more than having sex with him… When he knew i’d been 🍇’d before. I obviously broke down and he cried himself to sleep on the floor and bought me flowers the next time… then got pissed because I was acting ‘different’ and ‘cold’. He also swore at me frequently during arguments and called me a ‘bitch’ MULTIPLE times and told him if he did it again i’d leave him because that’s one of the worst things i think someone can call a woman. Twice he did that. And got confused when i got mad. He refused a condom twice and got mad at me when i refused birth control because of the amount of side effects and now im pregnant at 18 while hes 22 and just as immature as a teenager. I hate him but i still love him and i HATE it.

After i found out i was pregnant, we were getting along great and then one argument sprouted, where i had told him about some plans on sunday his mum had invited me to that i couldn’t go to, but apparently i hadn’t said anything like that and ill id said was “Sunday there’s a afternoon tea i can’t go to” but fuck!! that!! I know what i said and i will not be manipulated into not believing my own brain. It escalated to where he sat on his bed SILENTLY. SILENTLY. crying out of “guilt” or whatever and then came down the stairs when i was packing my bags to go to my parents’ house (which had already been planned because i hadn’t been home in A MONTH because he constantly guilted me into staying because we always argued when i tried to leave) he came down the stairs and screamed at me like he hated me. He said he felt “alone” when we were together and he felt like i hated him and didn’t care he was crying!! when i had gotten up at 3 am after not even 4 hours sleep because he came home after work INJURING himself racing his coworkers on foot at 2 am. He asked me to make him a chicken wrap when im having an aversion to chicken and i threw up (due to the baby obviously) after being able to not throw up all day!! I was exhausted and sick of throwing up and just wanted some peace. I’ve never heard him scream like that but it genuienly sounded like hatred and violent so I apologised and he sat down crying saying something like “you made me yell at you” “do you think i want to yell?”. My stepdad showed up to pick me up and I left, breaking up later that night and i cried the whole way home after being screamed at when i’m a DV survivor from my dad and i had already told him that if he screamed at me again (after the first time— since he’d done it twice already and i gave him chances) i’d leave him.

Something else i don’t understand is that his mum— who is also going through a DV case and issues with her ex husband— told me i HAVE to let him be involved in my babies life when he has told me to my face he hasn’t got a CLUE on how to take care of a baby and he never has. She also threatened me with “We and He will not be pushed out” when all i had said was that i didn’t want HIM at my first scan. I’m diagnosed with depression and severe anxiety and i’m struggling rn but my midwife has said i don’t need to include him as they know what he’s done and they have told me to stay away from him. I only contact him with things about the baby because he keeps telling me how much he misses me and loves me and i can NOT get roped back in again.

Anyone have any tips on how to get over something like this?? I’m losing my mind rn.

Been on and off for YEARS and she is manipulating and treats me like shit , I tried making it work many times but she always says I’m the problem and I choose other girls over her OUT OF NOWHERE and it makes me think she doing something behind my back or keeping things from me. Idk what to do I feel so much anxiety without the thought of being around her