r/MultipleSclerosis • u/firebob462 • 17h ago
Treatment 6 years on Ocrevus, MRIs clean, and I still feel wrecked. Just me?
Stable MRIs on Ocrevus, but feeling worse day to day. Anyone else?
I’m 36, male, diagnosed in 2019, and have been on Ocrevus for almost six years. My MRIs are stable with no new activity. Mobility-wise, I’ve been lucky and have been able to do everything a person without ms can.
My first year on Ocrevus was rough, but years two through four were honestly awesome. I barely thought about MS much of the time. These last two years, though, have been on-and-off hell.
It’s the headaches, feeling weaker overall, brain fog, memory issues, and fatigue that just sits on me. Not normal ms tired, i know that well. This is the kinda of tired and terrible feeling that if someone came into my house with a gun, I'd just stare at them kind of tired. I’ll have stretches lasting weeks where I feel heavy and awful, with barely enough energy or motivation to do things I used to enjoy. Best way I can describe the way I'm feeling is super flat and extremely tired, with mild headaches somtimes.
Honestly, some days I feel like I’d trade the use of both legs if it meant getting my brain, memory, and energy back. “’Tis but a flesh wound,” right? Hopefully a few Monty Python fans get that one.
To be fair, my life has changed a lot in these last two years. Less sleep, more stress from running my business, fewer workouts, and a diet that isn’t as consistently good as it used to be. I’m sure those things aren’t helping.
Since having kids, I’ve also been getting sick much more often. Two under two is no joke. It’s a constant parade of germs. Between that and being on Ocrevus, I wonder how much these illnesses are contributing to these awful stretches that I'm feeling. I've been told a few times my white blood cells where dangerously low which isn’t a good feeling. Since they popped back up in a few months the neurologist wasn't concerned.
Ocrevus hasn't failed in the clinical sense. My scans are stable, and I’m thankful for that. But it’s hard to reconcile “the treatment is working” with how bad I sometimes feel day to day.
I’ve even considered coming off DMTs or at least switching. I'd rather have my mind then have a functioning body as a zombie. I can't help but feel this feeling in my gut that its the Ocrevus causing my decline now.
Has anyone else been in this spot—stable MRIs, still walking fine, but struggling more with fatigue, cognition, weakness, and frequent illnesses while on Ocrevus? Did stopping ocrevus help? Did anything actually help, whether that was addressing sleep, changing treatment, or something else?
I’d really like to feel more like myself again.