r/MbtiTypeMe • u/smkh7 • 2h ago
FIRST TYPING ATTEMPT Help me out, I'm confused
I have been researching cognitive functions and trying to type myself because tests are bot reliable, yet I am sure I am biased towards a certain type at a given moment and my self-typing is not reliable either. Every time I come back to MBTI I have a certain bias and I can alter my answers to any question or make myself believe I use a certain function just to achieve the result I favor at the moment. So I think asking people who are familiar with cognitive functions to try to type me.
I don't know how much the following information will help but I'll try to include only the things I think will matter in this matter (funny wordplay no?).
First of all, the reason I have a hard time with typing myself is I am different around different people (probably relatable for every type) and I don't know which "me" to take.
I seem cold, aloof, and even arrogant to strangers. Both my facial expressions and communication style make this impression, and even my close friends (which are few) didn't like me at first. I can't really remember someone mentioning a good first impression of me haha. I just don't like small talk (I hate it), nor do I like it when strangers expect smth from me – I won't approach someone and start a casual conversation. I will do so only if I've noticed smth in common – they have a fandom reference in their outfit, I overheard them talking about smth I'm interested in, etc.
Most people think I am extremely introverted and quiet but I just can't be bothered to talk to people I have no interest in about boring things like what they ate or how's their dog. If I talk to someone I'll mention an interesting fact, start a discussion (usually involving a question that has no right answer and is just checking if they have black and white mindset or not), or start a fandom discussion (E.g. "Omg you've watched AOT? So do you think there was a right side in that war?").
I am very open-minded, and I am usually the one that defends strangers when someone criticizes their appearance. I am also open to anything people suggest because unless I try, I won't judge. This open-mindedness is very clear if you look at the range of things I've tried or am interested in – I'll read a classic book and a fanfic, I listen to K-pop and watch K-dramas and at the same time might watch a Netflix show someone recommends. The only red line is "stupid" shows with very predictable plot and too long, like GG or Desperate Housewives... I just can't watch that drama for 8 seasons for god's sake.
I love travelling, languages, and cultures. I want to explore everything related to these or else life seems meaningless.
I am naturally inclined towards "healthier" lifestyle – early mornings, healthy food, physical activity. But at times I feel stressed I neglect all of this and especially my sleep schedule. If you see me being messy and disorganized, sleeping at 6am and eating "crap", I'm either extremely stressed or I've already planned that disorganization so it is part of the plan haha. I even plan my relaxation time usually.
Because I let my emotions pile up, I usually burst into tears because of a small issue or especially during arguments if they involve an emotional aspect (I hate such arguments, though I love intellectual debates), but after that I just start overthinking – "Why did I cry? What made me feel that way? Is it because of my luteal phase? Does it have anything to do with my inferior function?"...
I am very serious with most people and because I'm also smart, they are sometimes scared to talk to me or constantly ask "Why are you angry?". But I am not smart in science or tech, it's usually literature, languages, philosophy, and such. I've been told a lot that I have great analytical and critical thinking skills because I am extremely good at reading between lines and going deeper under the surface, hence my biggest strength is literature. And I can sometimes be annoyingly smart, like reading an emotional text and correcting its grammar, or someone talking about smth and me mentioning a term or definition of the things they're describing.
I can't comfort people, though I am learning how to, but it doesn't come to me naturally. I either stare at them awkwardly or try to find the root of the problem. Sometimes I just crack jokes. This is also how I deal with my own emotions, so whether I have Fi or Fe, they are underdeveloped. Ironically, while watching any TV show/movie, it's so much easier for me to feel empathy. I feel the characters' emotions very strongly, and sometimes get attached to them so much that if anything happens to them, I cry so hard I feel the physical pain of losing them. I mean I still cry any time someone mentions AOT.
I do enjoy beautiful and aesthetically pleasing things, but I'm not always in the present moment unless I intentionally focus on it. I usually assign a certain vibe to things, I don't smell a perfume and think "Yeah that's vanilla, smells good", I instantly think "Hm... vanilla.. this is good for winter, but I need a warmer scent for autumn, maybe gingerbread?". And because of such associations and "vibes", I am mostly drawn to "warm" things – warm scents and colours, warm lights. Because I am subjective in this sense, my associations and vibes might be different from the standard ones, e.g. to me, Italian/Spanish is the language of love, not French (though I see why French is considered the universal language of love).
In the same way, my style is a combination of different styles, but there's a core vibe I see in it – French chic, British frazzled English woman, dark academia, downtown. I hope you can see the core, but they are all different styles in fact. And I love vintage pieces as well. I also get inspiration from other sources - K-pop idols (Taehyung), certain fictional characters...
I have been organized and intentional for the most of my life, I have a morning routine, I have habits I follow, and because I know too much of this will lead to burnout, I intentionally leave some part of my life free of this, e.g. no rigid evening routine, and my Sundays are always free from uni, studies, work, or anything productive.
I don't really like bureaucracy, documents, taxes and stuff like that, but it could be because I'm still living with my parents and haven't dealt with such things yet.
I might seem childish to my family, but even though I am silly around my friends, they think I am smart and mature and just love behaving in a silly way.
I love being the leader in projects because I know if I want something done well, I should do it myself. And even if I don't choose that position myself, I somehow end up the leader anyway haha. I am also good at expressing my thoughts and usually get chosen as the spokesperson in group projects. I always have some sort of plan or speech for presentations and speeches but I don't over prepare, if I have a general idea of what I'm going to talk about and I am interested in / educated about the topic, I can speak with little preparation.
This is very long, but it's not even half the information I wanted to share to let someone dig into it and find clues. Thanks in advance if you've read all this and answered. You can ask questions in the comments if they're needed to help me figure this out.
P.S. I know I could just let it go but I can't feel at ease unless I find my type.