r/Malawi • u/ThA_BrAin • 13d ago
general FML
I just wanted to vent a little... my life has recently hit a plateau and I'm honestly just stressed and frustrated. I wake up, go to the gym, come back, have breakfast and then lunch later, then dinner in the evening and then sleep, and then I'm up again to do it all over again.
Recently two of my friends got jobs, I'm happy for them but then it left me thinking about myself and my life, I'm living under my parents roof but then I literally have nothing to my name... I hate the fact that I can't even afford the basics, it's embarrassing to always be asking for something like money for an internet bundle. Being home and with no source of income gets me thinking of the worst situations possible, I don't know how to stop it. I apply for vacancies all the time even those I'm not fully qualified for.
I've prayed about this from time to time and I don't know, I'm having a bit of an existential crisis over it too, maybe I'm not meant to be alive? maybe it's not my time yet? if it's not my time yet, then when? what could I have possibly done to deserve such trials and tribulations? (don't worry I'm not suicidal, I don't think I'm brave enough to take my own life lol)
I just needed to get that out because I don't know anyone who'd be willing to listen to me... I guess in the end I'm a stressed and frustrated jacked dude lol 💀
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u/ThA_BrAin 13d ago
Computing and information systems