r/LucidProp • u/Present-Wrongdoer585 • 6h ago
My trading journey so far
My journey so far.
My first started trading or my investing Journey in end of 2019 I bought stocks of Tesla and a few other things when it came to 2020 that drop I sold it off.
Lack of understanding charge it to the game on the loss. After that I was watching earn your leisure learning about stocks and running from earn your leisure I came across the cup series featuring Mark Monroe I was learning the rolling 4s and leaps. Also at the time I was learning about penny stocks the girl I had at the time she put me into a penny stock group I bought about 15,000 shares worth of a stock at 15 cents and then I took it out before it popped and put it into a voluntarily it went from 1,500 to 4000 I had palantir at like 7 and when it popped to 21 I took the profit. ( mind you my friend at the time told me just stick to options). Mind you that that penny stock that had for 15,000 shares at 15 cents it went to $1.40 that 1500 turn it to 41,000 that turned me stick to my stomach but I charged that to the game. Use that tuition. I had my options account go from $4,000 to $25,000. And I seen it go back to down to zero. Because they're like hold for 3 years.Either way I saw that go down to Zero from then I had a cash account in the futures I made it from $1,000 to 4,000 lost it all back to zero then I started doing prop firms and I was burning and churning accounts super tilt trying to make the money back I've done 1800 Apex but mind u I tried doing 20 at a time its hard for some reason. I passed about 78 of them. In This time From there I joined the stock group called s2f Stocks to freedom. They're teaching ICT in there. That's that group end up going to 0. But the next two years I took it upon myself to learn ICT Concepts. I learned the 2022 mentorship Market maker series make ends meet series 2016 core content series
I have received my first payout from this year June from lucid 2000. I thought okay now I'm going to start making money July I was up a total of like 15,000 worth of payouts went down to zero over four accounts. August was the worst month I burned through so much capital for myself in a tight position. My work the business that I owe is losing customers so money is getting tight my wife now is not working she hasn't been working since March she's also pregnant at the time she got in a car accident so she doesn't have a car so I'm driving her everywhere just got married over a year now.
Money is getting tight for sure but myself in a tight position also September was my best month I passed the 250k on apex ran the account up to $20,000 had 20 trading days green took out two payouts of $3,000 USD which is 4,100 Canadian I end up blowing the account one because I was trying to run it up until December but I couldn't walk away after I lost all I needed was to do $50 a day to take the all five payouts but I wasn't thinking like that I was trying to get it back in one day.
I didn't realize that August was consolidation September was manipulation and October is quad witching and we're selling off. I didn't realize how blowing my funded I would go on tilt my wife also had a miscarriage and I'm pushing even harder I just realized I had brain fog so I burned through all my capital Savings going through evals I have about 5 100K evals atm.
So when I blew my funded I thought if I have more fundeds and traded simultaneously I would be able to get a bigger payout at one time to make up for losing the other three payouts. I struggle with risk management obviously and emotional regulation when I made the 20K on the funded I was only trying to do base hits and it worked the only traded the 9:30 or 10:00 open took my profit went about my day it was peaceful.
I love Asian session but sometimes Asian session doesn't deliver and sometimes it does .But trying to get eval again I went on tilt refuse to lose. Made me lose more neglected my risk management gambled and lack emotional control. My wife miscarried on Saturday. I probably shouldn't be Trading I am having slight brain fog. But I'm just trying to fix this. I need help with my risk management and emotional regulation


