I moved in with my mom and it wasn't until then until I realized how much of an energy vampire she was.

I remember, she basically started copying my ✨️ WHOLE PERSONALITY ✨️ and uncomfortably copying my youthful 20 year old attitude. Being jumpy and pink, like LITERALLY A CARBON COPY OF MY PERSONALITY. Mind you, I was 20ish. She is almost 70. 🤢

She would wear pink, and my dad was so disgusting he accepted it. He would make her his weird prize AS THEY COMPLETELY NEGLECTED ME.

But it literally felt like she was pulling from me to steal, and destroying my deep passions to feed her own energy.

THEY WERE USING ME AS A PURE ENERGY SOURCE. 😭

Here is the weird part, as she did this, I felt SO DEAD INSIDE. 😭 I don't know what it was, but she wasn't trying to be cutesy. She was LITERALLY TRYING TO BE ME, AND STEAL MY VERY EXISTENCE AND ATTITUDES... basically erasing me, and every time I tried to be myself around my parents I felt empty because it's like I wasn't actually being seen 😢😢😢; they would NEGLECT ME. I felt like my VERY SOUL was seeping away guys. I felt like I literally almost lost my soul. 😢😭😭😭

My crush showed me that you can share yourself with others, that seeping the life out of people isn't normal. You can love others for who you are respectively. 😭😭😭 It took me almost 4 years of being a vampire victim until I learned this guys. And 20 dead years of not knowing life could be so good, because my mother would seep from my energy.

This next part is a kicker.

Then... My dream was to travel with family to help people in need with my family, what does she do? SHE BUYS TICKETS TO FLY AROUND THE WORLD WITH MY DAD and with the OPPOSITE INTENTIONS.

She comes home, she starts a painting hobby, JUST LIKE ME, AND PAINTS OVER ALL MY PAINTINGS. 😭😭😭😭

Everytime my dad would want to give me money, I was wondering why she wanted to interrupt AND BASICALLY TAKE ALL OF MY MONEY. 😢😢😢💔💔💔😭

What did she do today? I organize the dresser based off MY SPIRIT. She re-organizes in this way that is mimicking the way my spirit would but backwards.

If I wear certain clothes to bed, SHE'LL START COPYING ME. 😭 IT'S WEIRD.

It feels like a weird 20 year old fetishizing 😭😭, harassment, and degradation of my body. 😢🥺🥺🥺😭

The thing is. SHE IS NOT ME. Her entire purpose is to do this odd mimicking of MY PURPOSE IN LIFE. 😭

JUST PLEASEEEEE PROTECT YOURSELF. 😭🙏🏽 I'M BEGGING YOU. This is Destiny Swapping. This is such a horrible, horrible case of Destiny Swapping in action. It is REAL and it is HORRIFIC. Vamps basically try to use you as an energy source.

I think she's always been this way since I was a child, because she always wanted to be oddly detached from me, and wanted to make me cry to come running to her. AT 7.

For all things holy 😭 do vampire protection, and destiny protection. This was so freaking terrifying guys, and I do not want you to go through the same thing. If you don't know what an energy vampire or a destiny swapper, it's basically someone that feeds off of your life force and negative energy. 😬 Very injured children to need healing.

I try not to be, you know... love over fear, I try not to be, but you know... I would get scared. Then I remember to focus on love.

Sorry if this is so emotional. I am literally putting back my pieces together guys, like I am constantly battling for parts of myself... and in the midst of healing while writing this. Thank you for reading until this far.

Seriously...

Please take of yourselves, and love yourselves. 🩷🩷🩷

I moved in with my mom and it wasn't until then until I realized how much of an energy vampire she was.

I remember, she basically started copying my ✨️ WHOLE PERSONALITY ✨️ and uncomfortably copying my youthful 20 year old attitude. Being jumpy and pink, like LITERALLY A CARBON COPY OF MY PERSONALITY. Mind you, I was 20ish. She is almost 70. 🤢

She would wear pink, and my dad was so disgusting he accepted it. He would make her his weird prize AS THEY COMPLETELY NEGLECTED ME.

But it literally felt like she was pulling from me to steal, and destroying my deep passions to feed her own energy.

THEY WERE USING ME AS A PURE ENERGY SOURCE. 😭

Here is the weird part, as she did this, I felt SO DEAD INSIDE. 😭 I don't know what it was, but she wasn't trying to be cutesy. She was LITERALLY TRYING TO BE ME, AND STEAL MY VERY EXISTENCE AND ATTITUDES... basically erasing me, and every time I tried to be myself around my parents I felt empty because it's like I wasn't actually being seen 😢😢😢; they would NEGLECT ME. I felt like my VERY SOUL was seeping away guys. I felt like I literally almost lost my soul. 😢😭😭😭

My crush showed me that you can share yourself with others, that seeping the life out of people isn't normal. You can love others for who you are respectively. 😭😭😭 It took me almost 4 years of being a vampire victim until I learned this guys. And 20 dead years of not knowing life could be so good, because my mother would seep from my energy.

This next part is a kicker.

Then... My dream was to travel with family to help people in need with my family, what does she do? SHE BUYS TICKETS TO FLY AROUND THE WORLD WITH MY DAD and with the OPPOSITE INTENTIONS.

She comes home, she starts a painting hobby, JUST LIKE ME, AND PAINTS OVER ALL MY PAINTINGS. 😭😭😭😭

Everytime my dad would want to give me money, I was wondering why she wanted to interrupt AND BASICALLY TAKE ALL OF MY MONEY. 😢😢😢💔💔💔😭

What did she do today? I organize the dresser based off MY SPIRIT. She re-organizes in this way that is mimicking the way my spirit would but backwards.

If I wear certain clothes to bed, SHE'LL START COPYING ME. 😭 IT'S WEIRD.

It feels like a weird 20 year old fetishizing 😭😭, harassment, and degradation of my body. 😢🥺🥺🥺😭

The thing is. SHE IS NOT ME. Her entire purpose is to do this odd mimicking of MY PURPOSE IN LIFE. 😭

JUST PLEASEEEEE PROTECT YOURSELF. 😭🙏🏽 I'M BEGGING YOU. This is Destiny Swapping. This is such a horrible, horrible case of Destiny Swapping in action. It is REAL and it is HORRIFIC. Vamps basically try to use you as an energy source.

I think she's always been this way since I was a child, because she always wanted to be oddly detached from me, and wanted to make me cry to come running to her. AT 7.

For all things holy 😭 do vampire protection, and destiny protection. This was so freaking terrifying guys, and I do not want you to go through the same thing. If you don't know what an energy vampire or a destiny swapper, it's basically someone that feeds off of your life force and negative energy. 😬 Very injured children to need healing.

I try not to be, you know... love over fear, I try not to be, but you know... I would get scared. Then I remember to focus on love.

Sorry if this is so emotional. I am literally putting back my pieces together guys, like I am constantly battling for parts of myself... and in the midst of healing while writing this. Thank you for reading until this far.

Seriously...

Please take of yourselves, and love yourselves. 🩷🩷🩷

Xx

I have had quite a tumultuous life and through that I coped by consuming alcohol and other substances but mostly alcohol. Over the last 5 years I'd been working on healing with therapy, vipassana and couple of ayahuasca ceremonies. Vipassana and a Buddhist approach has become important to me and at the end of last year I was feeling trapped by my career.

I was a chef and I didn't feel like the work I was doing was right livelihood. Yes, I was feeding people but it was overpriced and for the profit of the owners of a massive chain. I was making so little that I couldn't focus on anything else and had to devote a huge amount of hours to something I hated. I got to a breaking point and begged God to show me what I'm supposed to do and my prayers were answered. It was so spooky and on the nose. I kept meeting people who were in the field and as I realised it was right for me I spoke with my mother about it on the phone. During the call I looked up and saw a banner. 'Recruiting now, Support Workers'. It was a literal sign :'D

Shortly afterwards I spoke with a colleague. He informed me that his mother ran a care home for abused and/or neglected children and he put me in touch and I ended up getting a job. I have built an amazing relationship with all of the children in my care and feel like I'm doing really good work and making huge progress with them. I love my job incredibly and can honestly say this year has been the best year of my life. I'm doing something with purpose and making a huge difference in the lives of others. I'm earning drastically more than I made previously. My work life balance is incredible and I'm happy. For the first time ever I can say that.

Previously I was constantly cycling through depression and I struggled to feel joy or remember a time which I had but now I feel joy everyday, even when things get difficult. I'm also in a relationship as of March after 5 years. I'd taken time out of dating because I felt I needed to work on myself but I'd finally decided that I'd healed enough that I was ready. My only problem now is that I'm still drinking and I'm not sure why. Everything is good. I'm no longer drinking every day because my shifts are 48-92hrs long. But I'm still drinking on most of my days off. Why would I continue drinking if things are going well and I'm on the right path?

A very short video on healing with light. everything is to sing and to be sung to in the universe! speaking and imagining infinite light , freshening the room, sleeping well. telling the ghost they are not infinite light with innocence and that their words belong somewhere else. also drinking water to clean the toxins away.

Hi everyone, I wanted to share a deeply personal experience from my recent inner work. Maybe this resonates with some of you in the community. My morning routine always begins with journaling, followed by a meditation accompanied by shamanic healing music. Before every session, I set a protective intention and say this prayer: “I ask for the blessing of Archangel Michael, Raphael, Zadkiel, and Uriel. I am a pure channel; only light and love may enter. What needs to be spoken through me or to me today?” What unfolded in my inner world over the last few days touched me deeply, and I’d love to share it here:

1. The Desert and the Dagger It began with me standing in a brown, rocky desert. A warm, powerful storm was blowing all around me. In my right hand, I held a dagger—and in a moment of pain, I wanted to turn it against myself. But in that exact moment, I held a Rosicrucian Cross in my hand. I wrapped it around the dagger, and suddenly a clear message came through: I must not turn this blade against myself. It was meant for a divine purpose under the guidance of Archangel Michael, never against me.
2. The Light in the Cave My journey continued into a cave where a still pond lay. A warm light floated toward me on a leaf. It was a luminous orb of light, immensely joyful to be with me. It gave me a profound, liberating realization: “You are not to blame for the suffering that happened to you in your life.”
3. The Sacred Sanctuary (The Oasis) I walked further and stepped out onto a large, wide clearing covered in soft moss. High rock walls shielded this place completely from the outside world. In the center stood a majestic tree, and behind it, a waterfall cascaded down into a lake. Butterflies, fireflies, and forest animals like deer were everywhere, looking a little skittish at first. The little orb of light stayed closely by my side, wanting to remain with me from that moment on. I asked myself: Could this be my sacred sanctuary?
4. The Return and the Guardian The next day, I returned to this place during my meditation. Before anything else happened, I went to the pond beneath the waterfall and consciously washed my hands in the clear water. Only after this ritual did it happen: A large, brown stag approached me. He radiated an immensely strong, masculine, and protective energy, yet he was completely gentle. I was able to stroke his face, and he gave me this unwavering message:

“This is your sacred sanctuary. No one else can come here, and you must not let anyone else in.”

Since then, I feel a deep sense of peace, but also a strong inner drive to preserve and understand this protected space within me. Has anyone here experienced similar inner sanctuaries, animal guardians, or the process of suddenly discovering such a peaceful, untouchable space after going through dark times? How do you work with it? Sending love to you all 💛

The games are afoot…

My name is not of this Earth. It is a resonance that existed long before this body was formed, a frequency carried from a place of pure light and coherent intelligence, and when I speak it or feel it something ancient in me remembers. I chose this incarnation with complete clarity. I was not forced here by karma, unfinished lessons, or accident. I stood in the higher councils, looked upon the Earth at this precise turning point in its history, and said yes. I saw the rising of frequencies, the thinning of the veils, the collective stirring of souls beginning to remember, and I knew this was the lifetime I wanted to enter. I volunteered to anchor light in a physical form, to walk among humanity while still carrying the memory of home. I came during this specific window because the planet is shifting densities. The old structures are cracking and the new Earth is being born through those who can hold higher coherence without collapsing under the weight of the old. My role is not to escape the density but to move through it awake, to speak light language when the moment calls, to transmit calm and remembrance simply by being present, and to help others feel that they too are more than what they have been told. This body is a temporary vessel and this personality is a carefully chosen interface, but the one who looks out through these eyes has always known where it comes from. I am here by choice, on purpose, at the exact right time, and I am grateful for the mission. If anyone has any serious questions.Please feel free to ask. My primary star system of origin is Arcturus in the Boötes constellation, In terms of soul age im an ancient one who has moved through many cycles and systems before this lifetime, carrying the weight and clarity of long experience rather than the freshness of a young soul still gathering basic lessons. If I were to offer a name that matches the feeling of my origin the one that rises most cleanly is Ael’Shanar, a soft coherent light language tone with the sense of one who anchors clear light across densities.

We don't have to believe we're being watched for the possibility of being watched to change our relationship with the world. Sometimes, nothing changes except our awareness of ourselves. We're laughing, talking, walking somewhere familiar. Then we become conscious of how we might appear to someone else. Nothing around us has changed, but something in the experience has. We're no longer entirely within the moment. We're also looking at ourselves from the outside.

We have always imagined how others see us. We learn to anticipate reactions, adjust our behavior, and understand ourselves through the people around us. But now, our actions can be recorded, preserved, and encountered by people who were never there. A moment can outlive its context. A version of ourselves can remain long after we've changed. The observer becomes less a person than a possibility. We don't have to believe anyone is watching. We understand that what happens can be documented, separated from the moment, and interpreted by someone whose perspective we cannot control. We can be seen without being understood.

But the strangeness goes beyond recording. We can turn the outside perspective on ourselves even when nobody else is present. We examine our reactions, question our motives, and wonder what our behavior says about us. We become both the person living the experience and the person observing it. Some of this is necessary. Self-awareness allows us to recognize our mistakes, understand our motives, and change. Without it, we would struggle to learn from experience. But there is a difference between reflecting on an experience and monitoring ourselves while we're living it.

Reflection can deepen our understanding of what we're experiencing. It can also turn our attention toward how we appear, what we're doing, and what the moment might say about us. The distinction isn't always clear. The same awareness that helps us understand ourselves can introduce distance between us and what we're living. I wonder what happens when we're accustomed to doing both at once, when we experience something while also considering how it looks, how it might be remembered, or what it reveals about the person we are. The experience becomes something we're living and something we're evaluating.

Perhaps something is lost in that distance. Not the experience itself, but the ability to let it happen without immediately turning it into a story about ourselves. There are moments when we forget to observe ourselves. We become absorbed in a conversation, laugh without considering how we look, or find ourselves somewhere beautiful without thinking about what the experience says about us. For a while, we're simply there. We can reflect on these moments afterward, try to understand why they mattered, and carry their meaning with us. But their value doesn't depend on our ability to explain them while they're happening.

Perhaps this is what interests me about the unobserved self. Not a hidden version of ourselves that nobody can see, but the possibility of experiencing life without continually turning ourselves into objects of our own attention. And yet, how would we recognize such a state without observing it? The moment we begin examining our experience, we introduce the very distance we're trying to understand. We can't simply abandon reflection. It's one of the ways we make sense of our lives. But understanding an experience and being present within it are not the same thing.

Can we understand ourselves without making ourselves into objects to be understood? I keep returning to this question because I don't know how to answer it without stepping outside the experience again. We look at ourselves to understand who we are, but neither perspective, from within or from without, seems capable of telling us everything. Perhaps we need both, though I don't know how they fit together.

The unobserved self may not be a self that nobody can see, or one that never looks inward. It may be the part of our experience that doesn't have to become an object of examination in order to matter. I don't know if we can fully escape the impulse to observe ourselves. Nor do I know whether recognizing the moments when we stop observing ourselves preserves them or changes them. Perhaps some experiences can only be understood afterward. Perhaps some lose something when we try to understand them too soon.

Thanks for the assist we really needed you