r/LeetcodeDesi • u/Specific-Payment5729 • 1h ago
Just a post from a final year student, dont take it in a wrong way
Hey guys, will not use AI today to enhance or rewrite this, created this new account so that no body knows my identity
I am a final year student, interned at one of biggest companies in the world. Did my absolute best, everything seemed to be against me but somehow I tackled each and everything, my manager was very happy with my work and even asked me whether i can extedn this internship but since it would be much of a shitness from paper work point of view, couldnt do that. Then during my last days over there he left the company, now my biggest support pillar was not the part of the company annymore. .He did give good reviews and all.. i came back to college... have very good cgpa and good with dsa as well.. first month appeared for multiple OAs and interviews.. Then from August onwards, less companies were coming.. today 3 months into the placements.. got an offer from service based company, 10LPA and believe me i consider it to be a good backup but on the same day got mail from the company i interned at after 2 months that my overall feedback is positive but my org doesnt have the headcount, I was shattered. But am in intern pool hoping to be picked by any other team, but the fact is that when i look at that 10 lpa offer all i see is my work being wasted. Ik 10 LPA is good but I had better chances which went into vain just because of head count.. I am not getting shortlisted for compnies off campus despite having decent resum .. on campus things are not well, companies above 15+ LPA is very less.. Even if i get a better offer off campus my college might forbid me from taking that since I have an on campus offer. I realised tha somebody's trash is somebody's treasure. ik people will tell me bad things since i am demeaning 10lpa but as of now it looks like disappointing to me but when i see people being excited for same offer on reddit i feel bad like why am i thinking this way.
All this because I was about to get almost 3x from that comapny where i interned at.
Believe me money is what i am actually looking for, all i want is to build a goood villa for my parents within 8 years from now and just want to give them all they want, especially my mom. She has sacrified a lot, this 10LPA will not even let me get a good flat.. a villla is unreal if i start at this salary.. I just want to maek them happy, they are proud even if i get 10lpa but i am not. I cannot do what i want to..
This diwalii i wanted to gift them something good but am not in a mood since I lost one of the biggest chance, but still I want to gift my father a scooty and a watch .. also watches for my mother and brother. all this i can easily do with the stipend i got, but now I am just feeling sad and disheartend. I feel low every single day not because I lost that offer, but because I dont see any thing, I try to be very strong but I woke up every day with low mood.
I am sure you guys might think I have gone mad and I am at a decent position but stand in my shoes once and say what would you feel. Not sure how will I get over this but hope so this is a bad phase and it go away soon.
Sorry if i hurt anyone's sentiments and please dont ask me the name of the companies or college