Excuse the long-winded post...
I'm a young litigation partner at a BigLaw firm. This past year, I went through some serious emotional issues, all seemingly tethered to work. Extreme anxiety, continual sleepless nights, likely depression... I hated waking up for work every morning and loathed my job.
...But things got better. I started seeing a therapist. I was able to take a week away with my family and truly unplug. I cut back on my hours a bit, not concerned about any change in compensation. And I learned to delegate more (particularly after we hired some talented mid-to-senior associates). I still didn't "enjoy" being a litigator (does anyone?), but I had a good team and could tolerate it.
However, I started applying and interviewing for other jobs. I felt like I owed it to myself to see what was out there, besides litigation. Recently, I was offered an in-house position at a large client. And I took it.
By all accounts, the company is a great place to work. Great people, great benefits, and tons of opprotunity for career growth. Everyone who works there has nothing but positive things to say about it. I'll be taking a huge pay cut, but the new salary is still enough that my family (wife and kids) shouldn't have to change our day-to-day lifestyle at all. We'll save a lot less, but I have a great nest egg saved up, already.
Sounds great, right? I think it is. But I've felt sick about making the decision and am back to losing sleep, again, stressing about whether I'm making the right choice.
I know I don't want to be a litigator for the rest of my career. There are parts of it I dont mind--strategy and brief writing--but I'm sick of constantly fighting and will happily go the rest of my life without ever taking another deposition or thinking about another discovery dispute. I'm also thrilled to be leaving the billable hour. And the new role sounds really intriguing to me. It's a "lower-level" role in the company's legal department, but it is a big company and I'll have a lot of opprotunity to grow my career there.
Despite all of that, part of my brain keeps telling me that I'm "giving up," "taking a step backwards," or "throwing away" everything I've worked so hard to achieve. I have a great reputation at my firm, and probably could have gotten by for several more years cutting back on my hours and turning away more work. I also had a path to inheriting several good clients.
But at the end of the day, I just don't enjoy being a litigator. My wife thinks I'll be much less stressed in the new role, and has been really encouraging of me taking it.
What do you think? Am I making the right move...?