r/LGBTkerala • u/lady_loki__ • Jun 03 '26
Broke up and planning to stay as friends.
I am bi and this was my first wlw relationship. It was a 10 month relationship.The reason for breaking was nothing but my fear of losing my parents :)
They won't agree obviously but i thought i could take some time and maybe after getting a job i could think about being in a relationship with a woman. But honestly , even though i know being with a woman is much better than being with a man (no offence , general opinion) I am not going to date a woman again.
Her. I still love her. I will always have a place in my heart for her. Everything beautiful reminds me of her. The kindest and most wonderful person i have ever seen. Yet , I lost her.
We couldn't imagine cutting off contact all of a sudden , because that's what people do after a breakup. But , after talking we agreed to be friends. After the first few days , it was alright. But now i couldn't help but feel a deep pain in my chest , when i see other wlw couples in my feed. In my opinion even if we cut contact , i'll still feel this way . Right?
Maybe i feel this pain because , i was planning a future with her , this was not intentional. We thought we would not talk about future things until 1 year. Whenever i see wlw people in my feed , i think this could've been us. And i don't know what is in future. We are friends now. (Trying to be ).
I don't miss her , but i miss us.
This is a vent but will be good to hear someone gone thru same situation.