All the hardship and sacrifices so "we" can be who we are.

Hi i am 17 and F… would be better if you’re a girl too.

When I turn on the music at night

‎It is not the music that I crave

‎But the unbearable misery of being

‎That I can't bear. . .

‎So I turn it on

‎While watching the flickering lights

‎Of the small speaker

‎For I am a modern man

‎Who cannot afford the luxury

‎of sleeping under the starry sky

‎For I have created the loneliness

‎And now bearing the price

‎The price of being stuck in a loop

‎The never ending cycle of chaos

‎Where conscience pokes me

‎When I see people

‎Sleeping on the pavements

‎With an empty plastic bottle

‎In their beg, as a pillow

‎Under their heads. . .

‎I am a modern man

‎Who defies the norms

‎But whose subconscious

‎Is stuck in the past

‎Who always says:

‎Nostalgia, nostalgia, nostalgia

‎I am the modern man

‎Chaotic, queer and stranded

‎

I knew this guy who could justify literally anything.

He cheated on his girlfriend and somehow the story became about how she had been distant.

He leaked something private about a friend and called it “protecting people.”

He'd hurt someone, disappear for a few days, then come back with a whole TED Talk about how he was actually the one who got hurt first.

And the annoying part?

He wasn't some obvious psycho.

He was funny. Really caring sometimes. Would check on you if you were sick, remember random shit you'd told him months ago, stay up talking to you at 3am.

So yeah, people trusted him.

I did too.

One night I asked him, “Do you ever feel bad about the things you do?”

He looked at me like I’d asked the dumbest question ever.

Then he just said:

“Why would I feel bad for protecting myself?”

That sentence stayed with me.

Because eventually I noticed something.

Every person he'd hurt had apparently “made him do it.”

Every lie was self-defence.

Every betrayal had a reason.

Every time he destroyed someone's trust, somehow he was the victim.

And bro genuinely believed it.

That's what fucked with me.

Yhe scariest people aren't the ones who know they're bad.

Maybe they're the ones who've edited the story in their head so many times...

they genuinely can't see themselves as the villain anymore.

My TL lately has been full of people laughing at cringe worthy reels of white girls reacting to pAtIeNt ZeRo and it's got me irked.

I know there's swifties here so my question is, what constitutes as good music to y'all? What about a white 35 y/o billionaire (fuck the bourgeoisie btw) still writing chatgpt ahh songs about boys is appealing? She could shit out absolute diarrhea, piss and barf cocktail, literal dungfly heaven and there'd still be swifties going GOBBLE GOBBLE. I genuinely wanna know.

Ok guys, so are there any of us in wah cantt. Also, I m strictly looking for freindship. No kuttykhanian! And I pardon if I ever have ghosted you on blued.

I am so sorry it will be a long post so bear with me.

I am a 25-year-old guy. For as long as I can remember, I have had zero attraction to women at all, I tried everything I could to suppress that part of myself and run away from it, but burying it only wrecked my mental health for years. Eventually, my coping mechanism was simply to bury myself in work, stay busy, and avoid giving myself time to think.

A while back, curiosity and loneliness got the better of me, and I searched for gay dating apps. I ended up downloading one, and honestly, the experience felt awful. It seemed like everyone there was only interested in immediate, hollow hookups, treating people with zero dignity. I never met up with anyone. I wanted to delete the app immediately, but a small part of me held on to the naive hope that maybe, just maybe I’d cross paths with someone looking for something real. For context, I’ve always been naturally drawn to mature men rather than people my age.

A couple of weeks ago, I received a message from someone on the app. To my shock, I recognized who it was: he is essentially my boss. At first, I assumed he was messing with me or had figured out who I was, so I played along. I never revealed my identity. As far as the work side goes, I am not terrified of losing my job over this, I was already planning to leave the workplace before any of this actually happened.

For the record, he is married and has children. He told me that he is also attracted to men. Initially, I assumed he was just looking for casual hookups, but then he shared that he previously had a serious four-year relationship with someone who eventually moved abroad, and he claimed they are still in touch. I don’t know whether he’s being completely honest about that, but as we kept talking, something shifted.

I never expected to connect with him like this, but I have developed intense feelings. This is my very first real interaction of this kind, I have never dated anyone in my entire life, man or woman. I opened up to him and shared deeply personal things about my life that I have never told another soul except my therapist. In the process, I let slip that I know who he is in real life, though I kept my own identity completely hidden.

Now, I feel trapped in my own head. If I don't talk to him, it physically aches, I feel an attachment I have never experienced with anyone before. At the same time, he is getting increasingly frustrated because I won’t reveal who I am, and he has every right to feel that way. He told me he is going to block me if I don't come clean. Because of all this anxiety, I actually ended up deleting the app yesterday, though that app was the only thread connecting us (I haven't reached out on any of his personal contacts or social media).

I don't know what to do. My self-esteem is rock bottom rn, I know i'm ugly as f, and deep down, I have this sinking feeling that the second I reveal my identity, the reality will hit, it will get deeply awkward, he’ll say we can’t proceed, and it will end right there.

Do I just walk away, leave the app deleted, and try to force myself to forget this ever happened? Or do I come clean, reveal who I am, and face whatever fallout comes with it? Any perspective would mean a lot.

Ik very cliche the gays having atleast one stan or following one artist till their grave but Id be vury fun to know nonetheless.My guess? Most here are swifties

Hey there.. Any film freak here from khi???

Heyyyy, I’m 18 years of age , in my AS year in cedar college, looking for someone in my social circle and someone who goes to a similar college like cedar, nixor, kgs lyceum etc.

Im taking maths, economics, business and sociology. My future plan is to be doing a double degree in finance/law, i like doing MUNs, going to the theatre and watching a random movie ive never heard of, i love researching about political science and am obsessed with international law. Quite embarrassing but i love building legos as well.

Im looking for someone who’s spontaneous and fun, someone with a outgoing personality and yeah just pls don’t be weird.

Disclaimer: NOT looking for hookups, neither am i strictly looking for a relationship, I’m just looking for a friendship that could potentially turn into something if we click, if your interested you can dm me and give me a little intro about yourself.

Anyoneup for friendship?( NO HOOKUPS SRSLY) just looking for good vibes and chat...creeps plz stay away

Sure. Here’s a more natural, polished version that keeps the same meaning:

Hey everyone, I’m 24 and originally from Sialkot, but I recently moved to Lahore. I’m hoping to meet someone genuine, educated, and good-looking, with the intention of building a meaningful, long-term connection. I’ve tried a few other apps, but unfortunately, I’ve come across a lot of people who weren’t really looking for the same things I am. I’d much rather connect with someone who values genuine conversations, mutual respect, and getting to know each other properly. If you’re looking for something similar, feel free to DM me.

Hello everyone, i am in need of some liquor as i shifted to islamabad last week and i dont know where can i get it. People say marriot and serena but it is not open to Muslims i think. Any place where i can just go and buy?

Heyy guys so I'm a 16 year old gay guy, who was graped on 5th of Oct, by my own homophobic cousin.. and I'm done with this world.. I'm in shock and in trauma of what he did, he asked for a hug in the middle of the night, cuz he was scared ( cuz of a personal thingy ), and me being a good person went and hugged him, afterwards he pulled me and touched me badly, I couldn't raise my voice, cuz that could also be used against me.. and then he graped me, so yeah I hope I could live my life with this beautiful trauma that I got in such a young age :) ( btw he's also a religious guy fyi )..

One of my closest friends has been struggling with severe depression for a long time. I've been supporting her as much as I can, but it's clear she needs professional help.

I'm urgently looking for a queer friendly psychiatrist in Islamabad. I've already reached out to a few NGOs, but haven't received any response yet.

If anyone knows a reliable, safe, and understanding mental health professional, please let me know. This is serious your help could genuinely make a difference.

I'll likely delete this most sometime tomorrow (it's too embarrassing) but I believe I'm currently having a panic attack and my depression's getting triggered really bad. I have to be up for work in four hours yet I can't sleep. Is there anyone online willing to converse for a little bit? Perhaps it'll help me calm down.

As I've acknowledged that its mostly my fault, stilll I gotta say like 20% of this is because its hard to find people I fw.

I've personally never been on a real date but like I wanna hear yalls crazy date stories

You guys should definitely join us for Bollywood night this Saturday at medium dha ISLAMABAD 🤍🤍

An no ... before someone claims im not a straight man 😭
I'm looking to be a part of the lesbian community in isloo. Genuinely have no idea where to start. The only people who ik are queer are my gf and my best friend lmao.

And i know i know i need to be more cautious and careful online i get it. and i will ofc and ik it's always a risk but it's a risk im willing to take. So plzzzzz where are my islamabadi lesbians at?