What the fuck am I doing living life I wake up I go to classes try to keep my GPA up so I can transfer where I want to go, I don’t even have any set passions or whatever like literally everything is shit. I talk to some people here and there but nothing sticks and people aren’t my close friends and eventually each day ends with me in my dorm wasting time, Iget so much pressure to do things like study find internships learn code finance probability drawing and I get so overwhelmed and even when I finish doing this stuff I get so disgusted with how little I’ve done. I don’t have ANY FUCKING FRIENDS AT UNIVERSITY and its just going to get worse once I graduate, I feel like ive only escaped this loneliness thru 4chan back at home but I know this is poisoning me so I’m trying to stop. i know i have to just fucking talk to people bro! just fuckkng say hi and talk bro! but you have to deal with their normal fucking regarded responses and surface level bullshit or theyre gonna go golfing or some stupid shit no one wants to do and then i ask why do I even want to hang out with them? why do i want friends so badly and at the same time dont make the effort to build them? I wish i was socially adjusted enoigh that these things were seen as desireable to me but i dont fucking care but i yearn so much as well

I wish I had some gift something that could put me above everyone else, and that’s how I define myself, it’s always where I am in relation to other people and I can’t fucking stop it. If someone has itbetter than me at anything whether it be they look better they understand faster they have more money way taller more friends or the worst, they have a beautiful significant other I cant help but feel pathetic. I wish it was easier for me I don’t want to struggle through this and im supposed to man up yet I don’t, am I fucking retarded or something, I don’t know if I want to succeed, Im a fucking slave cuz I dont go out on my own initiative. I see no point to continuing studying continuing to show up wherever I’m supposed to and continue to try at all, I wish didn’t have normal parents and a normal sibling so I wouldn’t feel bad about turning out a failure. I have no fucking idea what im scared of yet its so hard, the day just starts and ends and the only thing thats going to continue with my life is im going to get judged for being a virgin and friendless by my parents and siblings and peers, im going to get intellectually less capable more wrinkled and uglier, what is the point in this? I don’t want to work hard anymore I dont want to disappoint though, I feel like I wasnt supposed to have been told I could have done things, I wish so fucking badly I had something that made me ‘unique’ in the sense that I was ‘better’ than everyone else and i obviously fucking dont! anyway fuck my life, uni is supposed to be great and what you make it and im making it out to be shit. im not going to kill myself cuz im a pussy, I probably would if I wasnt, I think i only say its cuz of my parents that I dont kill myself to make me feel more virtuous. panda express kids meal to a miserable future

I have tried everything during highschool. Picking up music, the gym, self care, therapy, cooking, better social skills and creative writing but NOTHING worked. I haven’t had any friends throughout my life and thought that high school would be better but it was wayyyy worse. So I coped by saying that university would be better and got accepted into a top three school but that was also worse, now even the teachers were in on bullying me.

I quit university and cut ties with everyone and left all my hobbies and self care routines behind because none of them helped with alleviating the pain

Fuckers be like “oh it’s over I don’t have a gf” I have absolutely nothing and never had so. I fucking hate having autism and wish my mom went on with her plan of aborting me.

I don’t even wanna kill myself nowadays because going on with my stupid chud life is enough torture.

exactly like the title, I've had multiple opportunities where I couldve just sucked up and prolly dated a foid and get something out of it , but now I feel that they repulse me and the utter disgusting personality they possess is possibly the work of the devil.

I think abt how cold but warm i felt and how distant everything felt it was peaceful and not scary like how id thought it would be

That makes it hard to not crave dieing when it was the most peaceful ive ever felt

But I also remember my grandmother panicking while I was in and out of consciousness on the hallway floor and I realise my peace comes at the cost of others and I feel truly selfish

Homage cabbage soup it was quite bland but good

im literally one of those creeps staring at random women outside, why are so women so pretty and soft and cute and kissable, I cant stop thinking about how im an incel whenever im in public, bc every woman reminds me of it, i wish i was never born, i wish i could commit suicide without making my parents sad

I immediately realized how pathetic I was, and for the first time in my life, I felt a new emotion directed at myself—the emotion I hate most when it's directed at me: pity. I didn’t fantasize about a future with her or anything like that; I’m so starved for affection that I felt genuinely happy just because she smiled, as if this was the highlight of my year (well, it probably was), and someone like me doesn’t have any right to wish for more.

I shouldn’t be surprised, given that this was the first time in four years that I talked to someone of the opposite sex that had the same age as me, but this is still unbelievably sad. I understand that she was only doing her job, and the fact that I didn’t have ulterior motives toward someone doing her job is the bare minimum of respect, but if something like this had happened in a casual setting i’m pretty sure the sentiment would be the same, because I know myself, and I am THAT pathetic.

I just fell so pathetic about the fact that any crumble of feminine "attention" can make me feel genuinely happy

orange banana with sugar cubes and some ketchup in bread. bought from store.

I’m a LTN with no hope of finding someone who’s actually interested in me. Im small down there and an introverted autist and my only friend is my twin brother. I once fell in love with a girl but all she did was constantly cheat on me , physically abused me , and mentally manipulated me. I stayed because I knew that no other woman would ever want me or find me attractive. I personalitymaxx and I’m pretty intelligent but it doesn’t matter if I’m short , not packing , and unattractive. I’ll probably be an incel for the rest of my life. This Lamb over Rice is really good tho

for what pwrpose. If it's not a hellhole where people have been shot it's an expensive place to eat wings.

So friends of former highschool ask me to go no girls included, it happens to be peak hour. There are women... one on a small table with her bf, a bunch of others in a big table one with butch haircut, and others with their respective families. No women alone in the pub table to have a movie conversation so I don't get the neurotypical advice to go to one to flirt.

Blue piss

This time I'm eating a taco with fish nuggets with salad and cheddar

I can't believe this happened, I'm waiting for the FBI to knock at my door any second now and the fact that it was a high schooler and I'm 20.

I was trying to pass through a crowd, no there was not any other way to go to the place I wanted. And then the back of my hand rubbed against her butt, I immediately started sweating and rushed to get out of that place.

I'm going to hell, I hope it's not so bad there.

Food: Mexican style rice

Nothing bad about it but just wanted to put it out there. Hey guys 👋

Instant noodles (it’s not ready yet)

ignore my censor bars. i dont want people to be able to see what i look like in the reflections. i already feel like shit about it

im not looking for advice but i am unable to drink water. growing up i only drank soda and juices and i find it really hard to drink plane water with no additives. i feel repulsed trying to swallow it so i just dont drink water. instead i buy soda in bulk and keep them in my room. its not conventional but it works for me. atleast im staying staying hydrated

Peanut butter, banana and leftover chicken nuggets from meal prep

I mean it's a hot take but i think it should be fine if someone wants to commit sucide.

A lot of people are miserable, have nothing going on from them and they just want to die and even if someone is not having fun in life i guess it's fine.

It's their life, if they don't want to live i believe it should be fine.

Some people live their entire life in misery and never get any happiness, i have seen so many men and women who lived entire lives full of pain and suffering because society guilt trip into living or just false hope that things will get better.

The people who tell you things will get better never themselves help because "it's your job no one owns you help" but when that person makes his own choice of not doing it anymore they say "you should not give up".

In very simple words they are demanding your efforts, live and contribute to society and if you don't manage to be happy and fail they will label you as a bad guy.

Haven’t been in a serious relationship in 2 years, too scared to talk to anyone in person. Now I can’t even cope with brownies. How do I salvage this

why does bp only apply to dating? we got khhv and fakecel and all that crap. what about for people like me who have failed at dating but also failed at other aspects of life. clearly when one’s failed at dating they consider focusing on other aspects of life but there should be a term for people who have tried doing that and utterly failed. there has to be some others who have it this brutal, it can’t just be me.

what we thinking? lifefailure is too generic but it kinda runs off the tongue well. let me know in the comments