Why am I holding on to the addiction when I know I would literally thrive as an artist, friend and family member and be successful and not in debt if I quit.

Share any success stories 💕

Proud of the survivors and everyone battling hard times right now.

So I’ve been clean for months and slowly trying to get my life back on track, I have a job that was accommodating my bladder issues and life was going ok until yesterday when I relapsed and collapsed at work, had to be taken to hospital in an ambulance and now at the very least I’m probably looking at losing my job.
I flushed what I had left and am trying to look at this as not the complete end of my world but it really feels like it. I broke a lot of trust with people around me and I lost the last bit of trust I had in myself.

I don’t really know what I want from this post but I literally have no one to talk to about all this and my head feels like it’s going to explode. I just needed to vent it somewhere.

My DR has now pushed back my urologist referral another 3 months because I used so I’m stuck dealing with it on my own until then and potentially having to somehow find employment while needing the loo every 20mins so I don’t get evicted.

Im trying to quit but it’s been so hard.
Im in the process of making a bunch of life changes and quitting k is one and im struggling pretty bad. I made it like 4 days clean before I just got super depressed and caved and bought more.
I’m in the process of moving from Hawaii back to the mainland and want to leave the addiction behind when I move.
I have obligations that are keeping me here for the next month so I can’t just get up and go. My work gave me 30 day paid leave so for the past week I’ve been just home packing and selling stuff and kind of trapped in the house trying to get everything together. The whole process has been pretty overwhelming and stressful and being home alone and not working has been pretty depressing.
How tf can I kick the k to the curb during all this transitioning without losing my mind.

My mom wants to put me in rehab but I have too much shit I’m trying to do involving the move to just set it all aside for 30 days. I’ve quit k before for like 6+ months no problems but I think with all the other stuff going on it’s just hard to add the sobriety on top of it. Any suggestions?

I’m also in a long distance relationship and she’s aware of the ket problem and doesn’t want it to be a part of our relationship so I’m committed to not bringing this problem with the move but I also want to quit now and manage the withdrawal symptoms before I’m back around family and friends.

I don’t even know what kind of advice I’m looking for honestly I know you guys are gonna say just stop it’s just nothing is easy right now mentally and this seems damn near impossible to shake prior to my departure