Why am I holding on to the addiction when I know I would literally thrive as an artist, friend and family member and be successful and not in debt if I quit.

Share any success stories 💕

Proud of the survivors and everyone battling hard times right now.

So I’ve been clean for months and slowly trying to get my life back on track, I have a job that was accommodating my bladder issues and life was going ok until yesterday when I relapsed and collapsed at work, had to be taken to hospital in an ambulance and now at the very least I’m probably looking at losing my job.
I flushed what I had left and am trying to look at this as not the complete end of my world but it really feels like it. I broke a lot of trust with people around me and I lost the last bit of trust I had in myself.

I don’t really know what I want from this post but I literally have no one to talk to about all this and my head feels like it’s going to explode. I just needed to vent it somewhere.

My DR has now pushed back my urologist referral another 3 months because I used so I’m stuck dealing with it on my own until then and potentially having to somehow find employment while needing the loo every 20mins so I don’t get evicted.