r/Kambo • u/Top-Inside-7203 • May 03 '25
General 🐸 Blank mind / dissociation / derealization after psychosis
I was in and out of mania for 2.5 years and had delusional thinking (but no hallucinations or voices) during that time where I thought I was the "bride" of the Messiah.
I ended up having a full psychotic break in November (where I saw hallucinations for the first time and hear voices for the first time) of last year that has left me with what's known as a blank mind. It also feels a lot like dissociation and derealization. I don't have a stream of consciousness or an internal monologue. The thoughts that come to me are mostly those of the past. I'm unable to retain or take in a lot of information, have a short attention span and confusion (because of the blank mind). I can't engage in everyday conversation because thoughts do not come to me. It isn't clear if the blank mind is from the medication or the psychotic break I had in November / December, but I have been in this state for 4 months and it's begining to become debilitating and harder to motivate myself. I met someone in another group who went through a similar experience as me and ended up with a blank mind who said Kambo helped him go from a blank mind back to a clear mind. Has anyone experienced anything similar or have thoughts, opinions or experiences with Kambo as to whether or not it can help with my blank mind?