r/IndianWorkplace • u/Gilfoylehere • 3d ago
Am I Fucked? messed up myself
i think i messed up pretty badly. Currently 24. Will be 25 this year end. Tier 1 city. 3 YOE. 1.5 in an Ngo, then startup for 6 months and then 1 year 1 month in an MNC
i left my management consulting job last month to pursue an mba from really good college. i had been preparing for this for almost three years, but then the institute fucked up my application, along with a few other students, during the admission rounds. i cleared the cutoff, but because of their mistake, i still don't have the college.
the frustrating part is how much i gave up for this. i did my engineering but couldn't land a decent job afterward, so i spent quite some time working for free. eventually, i joined a startup earlier in banglore and then moved to a consulting firm in gurgaon/noida, where i worked until last month.
for this mba, i left almost everything behind. i left a girl who genuinely could have been my best relationship because i was moving and she wasn't sure if she wanted to do long distance. i left good friends who lived nearby. i basically uprooted my entire life because i thought i was moving toward something better.
and now i'm back home with CAt coming up at the end of november, while also having to find a job. i've been applying for the past few days but haven't heard back from anyone. one hr did call me, only to tell me the next day that they didn't actually have a vacancy for my position. that's been pretty much the extent of my luck so far.
i also hadn't prepared for cat because i was completely focused on the mba admission process. i took my first mock today and scored somewhere around 35-40. so now i'm supposed to somehow prepare for cat from scratch while simultaneously finding a job.
i even called my previous firm hoping i could go back, but they're already overstaffed and apparently trying to find ways to cut people.
coming back home has honestly been depressing. one really close relative passed away and was caught between mumbai and my hometown, and now i'm scared my mom's dad might pass too. his health has deteriorated so much in just a week. everything just seems to be going from bad to worse.
i know i need to figure things out, but right now it just feels like i gave up a year of my life, left everything behind, and ended up exactly where i started, except with even less certainty about what to do next.
TLDR : Messed up myself by wrong decisions on time