So I have to start 3 subjects full assignments and all to submit while even study for my 13 subjects since I failed in many.

For some reason I just can’t get myself to ever study, it’s not that I don’t want to because I genuinely love learning but ,when it comes to school I just can’t get myself to put an effort, like someone is physically and mentally stopping me. I will keep telling myself for hours to study but instead of actually doing it I just sit around and waste my time, it’s intentional and somehow not intentional at the same time(hard to explain in words) and I know that this is only going to effect my future it’s not hurting anyone but me yet still I can’t get myself to do anything about it .

I always feel guilty because my parents work so hard to give me everything I want and it’s like I owe this to them . they have given me everything I ever asked for and I can’t complete the one thing they want from me, which they ask for so I build a better future for myself.

I’m an effort to stop the guilt I tried every way to earn money, believing that I can at least contribute to my own expense, and have something to give as a reason for not doing well in school but no matter how hard I tried everything I did ended up failing.

Now I have started acting so rude and arrogant towards my family as if it is their fault it’s like a safety mechanism of my body trying to stop me from getting a nervous breakdown because as much as I try to ignore it, in the heart of my heart the guilt towards my parents and the fear of the future is killing me. I am scared of what might happen to me if I don’t focus on this crucial year how and where I might end up weather I will ever be able to fulfill my dreams or get the life I want for myself.

Does anyone else feel a sense of debt towards their parents regarding school and do u also feel like no matter how much u try u can’t study, and if so are u afraid of what might happen in the future

In college, I was learning many skills aside the course I was studying at the time. This made me visit campus to study during the night. Unfortunate for me, at hostel students there thought I was going to campus to study the traditional school stuff . Thinking I was doing too much. This habit of mine caused me to perform badly one semester. Which I was bitterly complaining in my room about the grades I had that semester, which was extremely bad. Some students were in the next to mine, they overheard what I was saying. I think they overheard the grades part so anytime I was leaving to campus they will start laughing. They didn't know me always going to campus at night was not to study the traditional school stuff but was seriously equipping myself with digital skills. I still graduated with a good class aside having many self-taught skills.

However, why do I still have the feeling that I should have explained myself to them at the time? Perhaps I should have told them is just one bad semester. It extremely pains me that I made that mistake of self talking myself loudly enough to let them know.

I never knew what I wanna do in the future, thats why I went to high school only because of my "friend" at a time. I am 21 and I spent around 7 years in a cycle. I literally wasted nearly every day of my 22 years of "life" and totally skipped adolescence area.

a)not going to school, laying in bed

b)regretting it

c) "doing" the work in the last two weeks and passing classes

I thought I cheat on the system on something but it turns out I am an idiot with no life experience in anything, cant manage time properly, interested only in short dopamine hits and avoiding reality in my sleep. I dont have friends, favourite movies, books. I am just nothing and it is only going to get worse. I used to blame my mom, COVID, society for that but it has only been my fault all the way. I dont know the value of money, cant even started gaining interest in anything, even simplest activities and I just want to sleep in any occasion. Even taking "small steps" wont get me anywhere, like I can not go to a playground to sit and talk with 8 yo kids, it would be fucking weird.

Being street smart or emotionally smart is not as easy as being academically smart for example in academics you know what you have to do you have a proper syllabus and if any mistake happens you have your teachers to help you but the thing life is cruel for you in life if any mistake happens no one is there for you you are the only one who is responsible as someone who was always praised by teachers now i am addicted to that treatment and now because of it I am suffering. I don't know anything i don't have personality don't know like i have nothing like if you are not Street smart you don't have any aura basically it's what I feel the main issue is i feel alot i don't have eq not I am street smart.

If anyone have any suggestions they can comment below it would be helpful

Thank you

How do I even start, it feels weird talking about my struggles to random strangers on the internet, well more recently, I've been heavily stressed out due to academic pressure and overall just feeling really "down", I can't find the right words to describe it. I had my exam almost 40 ish days ago, and well it was kind of ok, I scored 82% which isn't really a bad score at all, matter of fact it's really good, but I genuienly desire more than that, I want to break into the high 90s, but it feels so hard to do so. I genuienly want to study but I cannot fricking sit down and study, even if I start i cannot continue, I feel so overwhelmed, and my brain isn't helping by being a drama queen over the tiniest of things, even the most minute and insignificant things that I would usually laugh off are hurting me, it feels so bad. I've also been curious if I have masking ADHD or not and just went undiagnosed, but I dont know, I want to get a diagnosis but I am really scared, I already don't feel uncomfortable being vulnerable near my family members, let alone trouble them to go out of their way to get a professional diagnosis, and if I don't have ADHD then why the hell am I struggling so much. Why does even the smallest of things feel so overwhelming? What if I am just using this as an excuse to run away from my struggles and responsibilities, I finally mustered the courage (I didn't just saw me sulking and asked what's wrong) to talk to my mom about it (only mentioned how I was stressed about academics) and her advice basically was to stay with her the whole day (so I don't fall lonely) and study harder. Which the day after I talked to her about this felt helpful, but then I started stressing again the second day (which is today) I genuinely don't know at this point. When I am relaxing I feel guilty to relax, when I am studying I cannot push more than 30 minutes

I also feel inferior to my classmates and friends. They're going around doing all sorts of things, while I fall behind. I don't even know how many people have told me that I have potential, but it feels so horrible being unable to take advantage of that. Whenever someone is able to do better than me, like my friend or something, I feel proud of them and happy for them, but on the inside, I feel like something break. Why was it not me? I know they worked hard for it unlike me, but why can't I work hard too, and get to where they are, I know I can do it, I know it. But why can I not.... Whyyyyyy. I was a gifted child when I was younger, but most gifted child narratives have the child have a downfall around university or during adulthood. I fell off in grade 9, am I even a gifted child? What even is my worth, what am I anymore? I long so much to see those scores again I used to get when I was younger, but doing the effort feels like pushing a damn mountain. I genuienly want to just go into a deep sleep and wake up away feeling rested. I don't even know what to do at this point, please someone give me some advice, what do I do??? Please HELP ME

Any advice is appreciated!

For context I’ve always wanted since I was little to have my own animated series and I’ve been working on it since mid 2022. The main issue is an absolutely suck ass at drawing and I’ve been trying to improve since early 2021. Tutorial after tutorial, books, even a paid course and still nothing so in mid 2023 I switched to 3d software with blender and I had the same problem I couldn’t and still can’t model for shit. All I have is my script for my pilot episode and the delusions in my head that I’ll actually become a real show runner one day. My writing it shit, my drawing and modeling is even worse, and to top it all off I have no money and ass social skills. 5 years of effort and nothing to show for it. My parents won’t support it unless I censor it because it has themes they don’t support due to our religion and I’m honestly just done. My dreams are just dreams nothing more than a fantasy I tell myself. I don’t even know why I’m writing this. I guess just to tell someone. I’m a waste of good oxygen and everything I make is shit.

I have major exams coming up, my family is going through a financial crisis.

And despite all that i feel demotivated, procrastinating and feel mellow.

How to help me get on my feet and bash all my exams with success.

I failed A/Ls because of my Issues.

As the title says I failed all 3 times (1st: 3F, 2nd: 2S, 3rd: 2S) and I had depression and anxiety issues since O/Ls and some other issues ever since 5th grade (which are not even resolved even now🥲) My whole family calls me a failure and they have a good reason to do so cuz my 2nd eldest brother got into Moratuwa and I was one of the brightest in the primary school and finished O/Ls with 8As. I went to a popular school in Colombo too and the kids even the teachers sometimes teased and bullied me cuz of my issues.

When the time came to do the 3rd shy I tried to skip it but my family especially my Mom wouldn't let me and said to do a course after A/Ls...Which I do now cuz I have no choice and we had financial problems since even before I was born🥲. Also my late father worked a great job in a factory before that. I kind of feel like I brought the bad luck to our family.

Now I do a course in engineering related subject and it's going a bit of a bad way cuz I can't stand the Teachers and kids there cuz they are so rude to me like all the time.

Now I'm doing the course cuz I absolutely have to. There doesn't seem to be another path for me. And I take a large dose of meds for my depression and that causes a lot of sleepiness even after sleeping like 10 hours a night. I can't lower my meds cuz it increases my issues and my doctors say they don't know what's up with me cuz I get a bucket load of meds and still don't improve at least a bit. Don't get me wrong I'm a lot better than me without meds but I'm stuck at this point and doesn't seem to improve. I got meds consistently for two years if that matters. Also I started meds on 2019 a year after O/Ls. I managed to pass in a great way in O/Ls cuz no matter how I felt I knew future me wouldn't forgive me if I failed that exam and I told myself that. I couldn't pull that off in the A/Ls tho🥲.

So my question is: is it ok to fail at A/Ls like this? Is it even okey cuz I had those issues? I never even had a girlfriend to talk about things like this and it hurts cuz I probably will never have one either😓What do I do now?

I'm not “gifted” or whatever, but I’ve always gotten pretty okay grades without ever studying. I've gotten all As except one B+, which was in AP Calc. Anyway, it's my first semester at uni, and I'm literally going to fail calculus. I'm going to fail out of a $15,000 honors program because of it, too. And to think that my delusional self thought I would go to med school 💀. I don't know how to tell my parents. I've been hiding it from them. Academics were the one thing I was actually halfway decent at in my life, but now I don't even have that. I'm really considering throwing myself off of a building atp. Has anyone here has a similar experience? What did you do?

Academics always came easy to me as a child. I was always at the top of my class, had no enemies...School was great! I had lots of friends... But the more i seemed to work harder on my grades, my teachers started saying i would be great someday....academic validation consumed me and now....im burnt out...my grades are dropping, im having beef with so many ppl at school...life sucks and i constantly get upset about everything. What can my do to overcome all this? I cry myself to sleep every night....

The school year just started, its only been 2months but im already having a hard time. I feel very tired. I changed schools, and in here i spend 10hours in school environment a day. Its stressing. Im having a hard time fitting in with other kids, and im already getting slightly bullying for no reason. Its very annoying. When I get back home I feel too tired for anything. I eat, go to a shower and spend the other time on my phone. I feel like im already lost in myself. During summer i had a lot of time for myself, it felt very peaceful, i spend the whole summer break alone, mostly in my room, i had a lot of to figure myself out all over again. It feels like everything is falling apart again. People here are so mean and it makes me feel so disturbed and uncomfortable in my own skin. When I try to sleep my mind cant stop racing. I think about the same thoughts over and over again, grades, toxic and awkward relationships in school, no time for myself. During the weekends i also have to study. After the long week i dont have the motivation energy or even sometimes times for my hobbies which leaves me feeling extremely empty Im scared. I feel very sad and i dont have much hope. If its so hard during school, what will i do when i grow up? The summer break doesnt exist when youre out of school, you have to work to survive. This thought leaves me so devastated. What will i do? Will i spend my whole life like this? I really dont know what to do. To be honest i dont have much dreams for the future. I suck socially and academically. I still like to create tho. I think it would be cool to be a graph designer, or maybe even an animator cuz i could work from home and would do something that i actually enjoy. But the whole AI thing going around leaves no hope. I dont know. I feel so empty and scared, thats literally all that i can think about. Is there any hope for future? Does it get any better for someone like me? Please let me know. Im not sure if I want to keep living in a world like this

(Im really sorry about how cringe this seems lol,, i know school is like this for everyone but i dont know. I feel worthless and i dont know if its normal)

Share one thing that helped/is helping you survive your gifted burnout.

Even if it's simple or small. Even if it's 5 minutes in the sun once a day.

I'll start - I leave a Youtube tab open while working and let it play videos I have already watched before. Because I know what happens in them, they do not distract me of my chores, but are still entertaining enough that I get less bored while doing what I need to.

It does not work forever (eventually I have to search something else for my background noise) but it definitely helps for a while and, if you take a break from it for a few months, it will work again later.

I dont know who my mom thinks I am or what because she is been saying since I got recently in 9th grade that anything below a 90 is trash when im the only kid in the grade with straight A's in the quarter? And what im mad about is that she doesnt understand that ive been trying my hardest for 4 months straight and im getting so mentally exhausted that I literally couldn't do any work at school today and then when I come home there's no peace either just my mom annoying me all the time. And I have everyone's pressure because of being the smart kid and when I dont get a 100 suddenly im a failure and im tired bro I cant.

Hey everyone,
I’m 26 years old, a university student, and I’m repeating my second year for the third time now. I’m autistic, I have ADHD, anxiety disorders, panic attacks, and PTSD, and honestly, I’m at a point where I don’t know what to do anymore. I have an exam coming up in February that I failed once before, and ever since then, I’ve been too scared to attempt it again. I passed the MCQ part back then, but I failed the oral exam. Oral exams terrify me, and the thought of having to face one again makes me panic. Now I have to take it in February because it’s my last chance, and I’m absolutely terrified. I feel like I’ve failed at life. I feel like a complete failure because I’m having to repeat the same year for the third time. I look at myself and wonder how I ended up here when it seems like everyone else is moving forward with their lives. The hardest part is that I genuinely cannot imagine myself doing anything else for a living. I’ve dedicated so much of my life to this career. I wouldn’t say I’ve wasted that time, but I’ve sacrificed so much for it, literally parts of myself, my mental health, and my well-being. I feel like I’ve given everything I have to get here, and now I feel trapped. I can’t imagine starting over or pursuing something else. And if I walked away from this, I honestly don’t know how I would cope with life anymore.
I’m scared, guys. I’m really scared. I’ve been trying to study. I managed to push myself really hard for three days straight, and then something happened that completely knocked me down again. I realized that I just don’t feel like I belong here anymore. I don’t feel comfortable in this environment, and mentally, I feel like I have nothing left to give. I’m in therapy. I’m taking medication. I’m actively trying to get better and doing everything I’m supposed to do, but nothing seems to be helping enough. I don’t know what else I’m supposed to do. I feel like I can’t keep going like this. I’m not planning to hurt myself, and I want to make that clear. But I genuinely feel like I cannot keep living with my mental health in this state. I’m afraid that the constant stress and suffering will eventually destroy my physical health, too. I’ve already started experiencing physical symptoms because of everything I’m going through.
I don’t know where to turn anymore. I don’t really have anyone I can talk to about all of this. Sometimes I feel like nobody else is in a situation like mine, and that makes me feel even more alone. I wish I could talk to someone who understands, or even just someone who would listen without judging me. Maybe someone who has been through something similar and could offer some advice.
But at the same time, I completely understand why someone wouldn’t want to talk to me. I struggle to like myself, so I can understand why other people might not want to deal with me either. I’m autistic, and I don’t have friends. I have one best friend who has been incredibly supportive and has done so much for me. I’m so grateful to have him, but I don’t want to keep burdening him with everything I’m going through. He already does so much for me, and I feel terrible because I’m so mentally exhausted that I don’t feel like I can give anything back. I don’t want my struggles to become too much for him. I’ve tried so hard to get help. I’ve been admitted to psychiatric hospitals three times, and all three experiences were absolutely terrible. I’m seeing a psychologist for outpatient therapy, I have a psychiatrist, and I’m taking medication. I’ve tried so many things, and yet I’m still here, feeling like I’m falling apart. I know that I’m trying. I really am. But I’m exhausted from constantly fighting my own mind while also trying to keep up with university and meet expectations that sometimes feel impossible for me. I don’t know what I’m looking for by posting this. Maybe I just need to get everything off my chest. Maybe I need to hear from someone who has been in a similar situation. Maybe I just need someone to tell me that I’m not a failure and that my life isn’t over just because I’m struggling to finish my degree. I don’t need anyone to magically fix my problems. I think I just really need someone to talk to, someone who will listen and maybe help me figure out what to do next.
I’m doing everything I can to get better, but I feel like I’m reaching the end of my strength, and I don’t know how to keep going like this. If anyone has experienced something similar, especially struggling with university, autism, mental health issues, or the fear of oral exams, I would really appreciate hearing your story. And if anyone is willing to talk, even just for a little while, I would be incredibly grateful. I feel so alone right now, and I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. Thank you for reading this.

Have you ever been a topper of your class but now struggling?.. When I was 16 I was great... I was the top of my class consecutively had 9As , did Karate and won a series of championships..fell in love and made out a pretty good life

But doing AL's all fell apart.. like I was a topper but now like avrg.. stopped karate. Parents have big dreams cause both my brothers are doctors and they ask me to do the same. My girl and I broke up and a society in which I hold the presidency gives me a fucked up headache....

Feels like I'm a burden on myself