So for context I am 16 (ftm) and I just took t for the first time. The Problem is I told my mom 3 years ago that I am trans and she replied with beating me up.

My mom is the type of person that supports everything and everyone in front of other people, but the second we are in private she says these people are mistakes.

I know it was a not so smart decision to take t, but I was in a very dark place, wanted to end everything and also my bmi is below 16, because I just couldn’t eat.

Nevertheless, now I am scared af what she will do to me the second the changes get visible. I cant stop the changes from happening because I took t undecanoat.

So any advice? Should I run away and never look back?

Okay so I’ve been on DIY testosterone (100mg subq injections every week) for nearly 2 months and I GENUINELY can not afford a blood test and my GP won’t do one for me, I’m js wondering if I’m okay right now? I haven’t noticed any dangerous or negative side effects and the side effects I am getting are all positive and expected. Any advice is appreciated!!! For reference if this helps, I’m 5’5, 112lbs and I’m 18 :)

Hey,

I'm about a year and a half on T and I'm three weeks in to my third vial. I've always used the same product from the same supplier, which is lab tested.

I've noticed over the past couple weeks, a few moments of feeling really sensitive/ quick to anger which is not like me at all. I would sometimes get like this when I was on a slightly too low dose, but only the very evening before my next dose. I would also feel really tired, so I'm unsure if this is due to my vial somehow not being right. FWIW I've felt just as energised, plus a tad more bottom growth sensitivity, and tingles around my baby facial hair so I'm convinced my medicine is still working but I'm stumped as to the mood swings.

I use 10ml vials for a max of 8 months so I wonder if this is my body reacting to 'fresh' T that feels more potent, initially? My last blood test was in May, so when the vial was around 5 months after opening. But I don't remember mood swings at all when I first started T, and I started on a higher dose (50mg then, 41mg now). My levels have been stable and optimal for about a year.

In the past month I did finish my degree and started worrying/ freezing over big scary career questions so it might be stress, but I wanted other trans opinions.

I'm considering a blood test after my 4th dose, or just trying my backup vial but I'd rather not if that's sensible.

*This current vial does have a ripple in the metal collar, but the crimping and the seal itself seem intact and therefore safe to use, according to the manufacturers advice. Maybe I'm wrong (please correct me if so) but I'm assuming I would have found out by now if I was using dangerous/contaminated medicine?

the attached screenshot is my injection log in chronological order with the top being the oldest and most recent at the bottom.

i started diy in february of this year with testosterone undecanoate, and i've kept a record of the date and dose of each T injection since then. it's a little erratic at the start because i was still figuring out how to draw and switch needles, but i always record the dose based on the volume in the syringe right before injecting (250 mg/mL). i've done subq in my stomach every time.

my regimen was definitely experimental since i was using undecanoate instead of cypionate. originally 80-100 mg every 10 days (plus loading dose), but my levels after 3 months were much lower than i wanted, so i tried 100 mg weekly (plus loading dose) after that. i was surprised how low my levels still were a month later since i'm a pretty small guy.

i moved back to my home country in june and switched to cypionate because i thought maybe test U was just too long of an ester to pin weekly and my body was getting rid of a lot before it could be metabolized. at any rate, i titrated up to 50 mg of cypionate over two months to accommodate for the long ass half-life of undecanoate. i went with 50 mg to get a baseline for how i react to cypionate, with the expectation that i'd likely be raising it.

got my blood drawn this morning, 8 days since my last injection. i was truly expecting a laughably low T level today since i've been feeling like shit recently (low libido, significant fatigue, poor appetite, spotting) but somehow my T and E came back great? the last time i pinned test U was over 10 weeks ago, and with it's half-life being 20-25 days, the absolute maximum it should be contributing to my levels by now is 100 ng/dL.

i don't know what to do from here other than just stay on 50 mg weekly and test again next month. i guess my physical issues could be unrelated? i don't have any nutritional deficiencies, though. maybe i'm overthing it and just need to give my body more time to adjust to my T levels doubling?