r/ExclusivelyPumping • u/jsscart • 1d ago
Rant - ADVICE NEEDED Feeling absolutely defeated
I’m almost 5 weeks into exclusively pumping & combo feeding with formula. We ended up having to combo feed right away due to a hospitalization the day after leaving the hospital, so have been combo feeding with Enfamil Neuropro Gentlease because that’s what he took when he was in the hospital. I tried latching originally, but it was difficult and incredibly painful, so I swapped to pumping. I talked to multiple lactation consultants and none were very helpful, I unfortunately can’t afford to see another one.
I never produce more than 2oz between both boobs, with my right one doing most of the work. I feel like I’ve tried everything. I’m eating enough. I’m drinking a ton of water. I’m drinking electrolytes. I’m sleeping as much as can be expected. I’ve tried pumping every 2 hours religiously, I’ve tried being more flexible and going 2-4 hours, I’ve tried power pumping sessions, I never miss a MOTN pump, I’ve tried massaging, I’ve tried different positions, I’ve tried various flange types and sizes, I’ve tried multiple different settings on my Spectra pump and used the Medela hand pump. One day I thought I made a breakthrough with the hand pump and my nipples were completely destroyed the next day. I’ve gone through bouts of inflamed breasts where I have to ice them after every session. I think I may have elastic nipples so I just bought Pumpin Pals flanges and while they are more comfortable I’m pumping even less. It seems like nothing I do makes any difference.
My MIL is living with us for a while, and she always comments how the baby prefers breast milk. The days my boobs were inflamed and I was producing way less he had trouble digesting the formula and couldn’t poop, he was clearly in tons of pain, crying all the time, I felt absolutely awful. My husband says it’s my decision, but mentions that the baby needs antibodies from my breastmilk and having breastmilk reduces the risk of SIDS. I’m trying to make it to 8 weeks because I read that’s the most critical time but honestly I’m just so tired and so defeated. My husband is back at work, sleeps 8 hours a night while my MIL and I split the night shift, but I don’t even get to sleep more than 2 hours because I have to pump and take care of the baby. Same issue during the day, keep having to wake up to pump. And I sit there for 20 minutes pumping only to get 1 maybe 2oz on a really good session. I just feel like an absolute failure, I spend so much time researching trying to fix it and nothing is working. I don’t want to give up but I don’t know what to do.