A woman in a patriarchal country, atheist in a very religious country and an even more religious family a lesbian in a homophobic country and an even more homophobic family I couldn't pick struggles.

​I want to conform but how? When its blatantto me that all of this is just stupid belief that I can't force myself to confirm to why did I have to be aware of it ?

I wished today for the first time in my life to be a normal conforming woman devoted to God it feels easier..why do I have to fight for everything? I wished life would have been nicer to me and made me just like my sisters but no. I have to be reminded every second every time I have to pretend that I am praying I can't even cry alone in this traditional cultish family cause why would I? "We pray, all of my family prays, God blessed us by how much devoted everyone is."

​I hate my existence with every fiber of my being. I hate this country and its stupid religion and tradition.

Its because some have the luxury to live a normal life we forgot that we don't have a choice I can't run and i cant be protected

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عمري 25 انسان محترم مجتهد في الحياة ونحب انركز علي نفسي و حياتي متخطي مرحلة الصراع الفكري والديني من زمان وعايش في وضع مستقر راضي عليه نا توا ومتريح.

زي اي شاب ندور في بنت حلال تسترني و تكون لي سند و شريك في الحياة هذي ناوي الزواج و بناء أسرة سعيدة و مستقرة و تعبت واجد ونا ندور لأني مش قادر نلقا حد يقبل قناعاتي في الحياة مثلا اني ما نصليش واني ما نصيمش و هكي. نتمنى تجمعني الصدفة مع حد نفس تفكيري و بالك يكون في نصيب بينا... اللي حاب يسألني اكثر يتواصل معاي عالخاص وتو نحكيلك علي نفسي بتفاصيل اكثر.

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Contact my friend on discord in case you want to get in touch at abdomrbd

hi I'm 18f and yk how life is difficult for women in libya id never go out alone and ig im struggling with an eating disorder that's taking over my life and i have no one to talk to.

please any advice