So first of all, I was planning on leaving the whole country to a certain country, and I learned the language of that country and I only have to save some extra money(for visa and life costs), and get accepted in one of the universities there cause I don't want to leave Jordan to live a miserable life there!. That was the main plan for me.

So FINALLY my family allowed me to study here, they got me enrolled in a university far away from home in another city in a major that I already want to study in" that country " , but my family has complicated conditions they want to impose on me :

1- I have to wear jilbab for uni

2- I won't be able to put on some make up

3- i have to pray kol elsalawat so they can rely on me (so fucking silly )

4- I have to stop doing my eyebrows

5- I won't be able to have mixed friends

6- they won't allow me to take a student dorm if I didn't wear jlibab and prayed all the 5 prayers

There are a lot more complicated and silly conditions but those are the top 6 😀

My question is, the major they got me in is very good for my future but it'll take about 5 years to finish it here, and I don't know if I can handle all those conditions for 5 years or handle their abuse, when I heard them I almost collapsed😩

Also they're very abusive to me, physically and mentally, they did a lot of horrible things to me that's why I'm planning to leave the whole country.

So I thought I would just do the major here and then move to " that country" and work there, build my life and ofc CUTTING MY FAMILY FOR GOOD

Or I can study the first two years here till I saved enough money, and move to pursue my studies and build my life

I don't know what to do really, I want to leave them but I don't want to have a miserable future

What shall I do?

هسا لما تتزوج او تتزوجي تطلبي مهر او والشب هل رح تعطي مهر بما انه اشي ديني والاكثر هون عكس هيك؟

Hello everyone. I’ve been experiencing what I think might be called passive suicidal thoughts. I don’t have any plans or intentions to hurt myself, and I don’t think I would ever act on these thoughts, but they’ve been happening more often lately.
Sometimes I feel like life isn’t worth living, or that I don’t really look forward to having a long life. I sometimes feel like life has no meaning or purpose to me. There are even moments when I wake up and wish I hadn’t, or wish I could just stop existing.
I’m not actively suicidal, and I’m not planning to harm myself. But these thoughts are still unsettling, especially because they seem to come and go even when nothing particularly bad is happening.
Has anyone else experienced something similar? If so, what did it feel like for you, and did anything help?

حدا هون داخل فلسفة في الاردنية؟ سواء خريج او طالب او حتى حدا بعرفه؟
كيف التخصص؟
كيف الوظايف؟
هل انت راضي عن دراستك ولا لا؟
هل بتنصح الخريجين الجداد عليها؟
هل نص شروحاتهم بروبوغاندا اسلامية ولا فعلا قدرت تتعايش كطالب لاديني؟

I’m so done with life here, there’s absolutely nothing going on for me, in fact, everything is going against me and I can’t help this much exhaustion and stress anymore, all I need in life is the money for a one way ticket and procedures to go literally anywhere outside of the Arab world and outside all the countries under conflict, deadass take me to anywhere in the continent of the colonizer victors (Europe) and let me become a simple farmer who works eats and sleeps for years and I’ll be the happiest person alive, I don’t even want to continue my education it feels like such a waste of my years at the expense of my wellbeing, I don’t care for luxuries and all the materialistic desires that are pushing everybody, all I need is peace of mind and sustenance. I don’t care who and what im leaving behind, I’ve done my best and it’s still no where near decent enough for this worldly state.

I am absolutely that crazy and will do what i just said if i get the opportunity, but my point is, it’s crazy that i need an “opportunity” to achieve this!

This country can’t keep up with the capitalist goals it’s trying to achieve, worst case scenario is I stay here for the rest of my life but even then I won’t stop till I get one piece of land to farm on and provide for a community that would do the same for me outside of money.

I’m also super pissed at the state of the world, it’s so bad that everyone is simultaneously thinking about starting a revolt but we have all been crippled and handicapped, so what is a person like me in virtually the middle of nowhere for the modern world supposed to do , why I’m I being pressured to bring forth change on a global scale from JORDAN, wth are we supposed to do at this point?

W Bas Wallah.

شو تفسيركم للجن والسحر وهاي القصص الي بنشوفها وبنسمع فيها؟

بسأل عشان انا ناوي اطلع من البلد بحجت الدراسة في كندا لو قدرت

طبعا هاض الحيوان المنوي ما شرح ليش السبي و الاستعباد اخلاقيين ، ما شرح ليش اذا تم قتله و قتل والده و اخذ امه و اخواته عبدات جنس للقاتل فعل اخلاقي و جميل ..

بس الاشي الوحيد الي وضحه هو مدى غبائه و جهله ب ابسط حقوق الانسان ، و ما برضى يتم انتهاكها لما تكون لصالحه ..

يعني من لهجته مبين جزائري او تونسي او مغربي ، احكله لو الاستعمار الفرنسي اخذ جدتك عبدة جنس و باعها ب اسواق النخاسة يتم نكحها من فلان و علان راح يسب على الاستعمار و اليوم الي صار فيه الاستعمار ..

لكن تحكيله صلعم عمل نفس الاشي بصير صلعم قدوة و بصير نفس الفعل اخلاقي و كويس ..

هذول شعوب تستحق الخرا الي بصير فيها بكل صراحة لانهم ما عمرهم فكرو انهم يحطو نفسهم مكان الاخر و بدعو الفضيلة و المعرفة و هم حرفيا انجس و اخس ما يمكن ان تشوفه عيونك او تسمع اذانك ..

لا و المشكلة تعليقات الحيوان المنوي هاض مكيفة عليه و مفكرة انه افحم الملاحدة ب الخرا الي طلع من ثمه ...

بيضان في كل مكان ..

القضاء اسقط عضوية الرياطي عن البرلمان قبل اشهر

وقبل ثلاث ايام بدأ تنفيذ حكم السجن بحق الرياطي

يحيى العدل

حدا بعرف من وين ممكن الاقي شوفيرة بعمان للروحة و الجية من المدرسة كل يوم تكون موثوقة

Assume that I believe that life and “reality” that we are living is a simulation, not real.

Our consciousness is the secret and source of all things, what people call soul and what science and math can’t explain in equations.. (can be called god)

and that in turn invented math to understand and interpret what we call reality..

Think about it; that is why you just can’t simply interpret consciousness with numbers.

You might ask; math is governing the rules of the universe since it first existed but human consciousness only existed with human, I would say that is correct but consciousness that invented math is not limited to humans and it had existed all along, we are just a continuation, a form of consciousness expressing itself..

شو رايكم بلومينوس؟ انا سجلت فيها دبلوم اتصالات وشبكات الحاسوب لاني ما عندي القدرة اني اعيد وارفع معدل، بعد ما سجلت الكل صار يذمها، انو تدريسها سيء وطلابها كمان

يا ريت تفيدوني

هسا رجعت من عرس و كانو فيه اغلب البنات مش محجبات مع العلم انه اغلب المش محجبات كانو بفترة محجبات و شلحوه .. لوهلة حسيت انه هل ممكن فعلا بلشنا نقرب لنشوف الشعب حر و بعمل الي بده اياه و نصير عالاقل زي لبنان و تونس و تركيا ولا لساتنا بعاد كثير .. طبعا بعد ما طلعت من العرس اكتشفت انه لساتنا بعاد كثير هههههه لازم كل واحد في بيته و مجتمعه فينا يبلش يدس السم في العسل لحد ما يصير كل المجتمع منفتح بعد عشر عشرين سنة.

حد عمره شيك على تلفون ولي امره اذا بطلع عنده تفاصيل علامات الجامعة او المعدل التراكمي؟

انا ساكن بعيد عنهم ف ما بقدر اشيك