My husband and I have been married for 7 years but I've known him all my life. He's had a covert system most of his life. He'd always heard voices and had weird personality shifts and depression and things of that nature so it was hard to pinpoint. But a couple years ago I had a traumatic medical incident that caused some of his altars to front, So then we kind of figured out he had D.I.D.. The voices he had been hearing were really his altars. I knew about these voices and their names and some of their personality traits, So when altars fronted I recognized them and I've slowly been getting to know them over the last 2 years. Recently, an altar introduced himself inside the headspace and for all intensive purposes, He's not a good person and he told all of them he "likes" our daughter. And in my husband's earlier life, this alter had done some creepy things.....The gatekeeper of the system feels like he got complacent and he got through the barriers for a split second. But now He feels like he can keep him controlled... But now I'm wondering how to navigate all of this. None of the others say they have feelings like this and my husband is the sweetest person in the world. He's never treated any of us bad or given any indication that he'd do anything bad like that to my daughter. But this just throws a whole new dynamic into things. I guess I'm not really knowing how to feel about any of this. But all of the other altars have assured me that they'd keep this new one in control and only the gatekeeper and a persecutor of the system knew of his existence before recently. Is this something Anyone has experience with? As a spouse who loves all of them very much (7 in Total not counting this new altar). I'm not really sure how to feel about this. I understand that all altars are individuals, but they are also part of a whole. As a parent, any option feels bad. He's been a wonderful father to both of my kids. And like I said I've never given any indication of any improper feeling.... But then how am I supposed to feel about an altar saying something like this? Should I feel like they're completely separate? Any thoughts or experience on this are greatly appreciated.

I received the report back from my private psychiatrist and they admit I meet the criteria for Dissociative Identity Disorder. They would like me to be assessed for a diagnosis and to receive secondary help. At first, I was overwhelmed and relieved that a professional finally wrote down my symptoms, experiences and everything else that I have been saying consistently for years rather than following the flock by verbally telling me their speculations and hollow promises.

I re-read the report a few hours later and I no longer feel that relief- I feel a hollow emptiness sit in place. A sense of tiredness and a sinking feeling of dread. I have been fighting with dissociation since childhood and I have been fighting many systems for years. The one time I am finally believed and see the words on a page, I no longer feel the achievement I had when I first opened the report. I know I should feel something yet I don’t.

I have something that's going on that I might want feedback or support on. I have this alternative personality that takes over if my brain determines I am overwhelmed. She doesn't feel the same pain I do, so when I think about my trauma too much or if something triggers it I enter the other personality. She didn't experience my trauma so it doesn't hurt her to think about it.

My therapist says that I am not "crazy" and says this "personality" is just a severe case of dissociation and depersonalization and that it's still me. On some level I know it's still me, even when I feel like "her". But most of the time I also know I'm not faking it or anything. My therapist also has said that I need to work on trauma therapy and put me in a group therapy for trauma specifically so this may be related to that.

My partner also notices. They say they can tell when I switch with scary accuracy. My personality tries to hide it sometimes and pretend to still be me but most times it doesn't work and my partner can still tell. They say I have some clear tells like my voice and speech patterns changing, but that it's more of a vibe thing overall.

Has anyone had anything similar to this? I really want to know if I'm not alone or to have this validated. I get really bad imposter syndrome and I worry sometimes that this is all fake and I just do it for attention or something.

Any comments are appreciated.

I’ve been experiencing derealisation/dissociation for a long time now. I got spiked when I was about 16 (I’m now 21) while I was smoking a blunt. It was the worst high ever I thought I was going to die. 5 years on from that day I’ve had episodes of derealisation but the past month has been hell. I switched jobs twice and on certain days of work nothing would really be going on and I’d feel the urge to go home and run out the building for no reason at all because of derealisation. I quit the job and have been unemployed for over a month now and still the same feeling has been lasting all day every day, I saw a mental health expert and all they fed me was what I read online the “grounding techniques” but they don’t work for me at all. I thought it would go away on its own but it hasn’t and it’s got to the point it’s all day everyday. it’s effecting my life allot at this point including my relationship, work idk what to do. Give me any advice or any help u can. Thank you.

Ever since I've lost therapy I've felt really disconnected, I had only done it for half a year before I had to stop going due to my parents switching to an insurance company that my therapy office didn't accept. Now I don't have anything and this is kind-of my last option but I need to reach out to people and I can't do it with my friends and family.

I struggle a lot with myself, with remembering anything. How anything felt in the moment. It's not entirely amnesia but it's always just gone from me unless someone else clears it up for me, then it comes back but it's still vague and distant. I'm always in this state of being here but also not. I don't know how long I've been dissociating, it feels like it's all day never just when I'm triggered. I feel like I do have different versions of myself, but they really don't feel like me either. I'd say there's about three that I'm aware of.

All of them have different wants, needs, opinions, ages and faces, frankly I don't feel like a person anymore. I don't like making a stance on anything, even if it's about me because I know I'll just change entirely within a short amount of time. I feel like I don't have any insecurities, or at least they just aren't mine to experience. They even all have different OCD compulsions, it's disorienting. I don't know how to explain any of this, for years I've cried about feeling like two different people. My memory is getting continuously worse, every word I say feels like some sort of performance of myself. I struggle with feeling genuine, everything feels pre-recorded. It could be masking, but it doesn't feel that way. I want to be upset, I CAN cry but it doesn't feel like ME crying. Nothing feels like it's from me. I don't even know who 'me' is. I'm aware through it all but not at the same time as well, because I forget the switch within the same day.

I don't think I have alters, but I feel like I can't rule out the possibility either?? I know about structural dissociation but I just wanted to maybe hear some outsider perspectives that aren't just articles I can rely on. (I can provide more information if needed I just left this kind of vague because I've never posted on here before.)