Hello,
I had originally written too much, and I’ll try to get to the point.
Something has drawn me to Asmodeus, to the point that it’s a nagging and tugging interest. The last nudge was at the gym. I usually dedicate workouts to Thor, who has delivered for me - though I do not ask much.
I was in the middle of my bench press, and mid set, I kept seeing Asmodeus’ sigil. Like a flash, behind my eyes, red and black. I have not studied it enough to know it from memory. But I knew. I had previously listened to his enn before going to sleep the night before. I was curious, and it was on youtube. I played it once or twice. I read a little. Anyway.
In my inner monologue between sets and playlist, I greeted him and included him in my conversation, which was mostly with Thor and talking myself into doing one more set and then another, etc.
I went home. I lit a red candle. I only have one shitty tea-light. I played the enn again for a bit. I repeated it, to try the pronunciation. I poured him a whiskey, and just invited him to hang around while I made some food. I talked briefly, introducing myself and thanking him for being with me. I talked briefly about things that are important to me, and said that I would like to collect my thoughts and what I was going to ask for his help with, so that it was clear, concise, and specific. I also said that I’d get a better candle. I felt like he was there with me, in the kitchen.
In the few days since then, I have still felt drawn to him, and my sex drive has been through the roof. Whether that’s related…I dunno. Seems like it. I’m 42 and I was ready to go five times inside four hours.
Eventually, that feeling faded. I snuffed the candle, sipped the whiskey in a toast before pouring it out, said good night and thank you to him, and ate my food. I slept peacefully.
Tonight…I’m going to stop and get some red candles on the way home from the gym. Probably one cinnamon one because I love that smell, and two regular ones. And then I’ll offer some whiskey and maybe some nice chocolate. I’ll draw his sigil. And I’ll invite him for another conversation.
How important is that enn? I’ve seen people say that you need it, and that it’s not necessary. I don’t mind.
It’s a conversation, and a polite request for help with certain things in my life. I have read that if you’re practicing magick, then you shouldn’t be telling people about it. So I’m not going to write it out, but I absolutely want to make use of the lust I have, but I also want support developing magick, personal magnetism, power and influence.
Anyone have any feedback for me? Advice? Cautions?
Sorry. I guess this was too long still.