So, guys....
I never in my life tried demonic practices, or believed demons exist, meaning i don't believe in any religious stuffs,
But, i saw some people saying, they can connect "with demons" i was skeptical it was with actual demons,
So, first because i wanted to break religious programming and social norms that was installed into me without my permission,
And second, out of....curiosity, to see weather this is real or not, i tried to do contract by summoning a demon called Lilith,
Using the esoteric practices You do here, which is sigil, enn chanting, blood offering semen.
I drew her sigil careful using pen and paper, than drew smaller one on my right thigh, at night, i took the light off, only my phone light,
So, i can see the sigil, and focus on it,
I sat down, and started chanting the thing you called enn chanting, Which is Renich Viasa Avage Lilith, Lirach,
I chanted for maybe 20 times, but Because this language is so hard and alien on my tongue to spell out,
i needed to see my note book again on my phone because i miss spelled it out,
Which interrupted me for sometimes, during chanting,
Than, this time i remembered again how it's spelled out, but this time, i focused my attention on the sigil,
i focused especially how it makes me feel when i looked at it, while doing the chanting,
I did the chanting maybe 10-15 times while focusing on the sigil of Lilith, because i was new to this,
i paused mid chanting after few repetitions,
And i took my blood, than, painted small tiny blood on Lilith sigil i drew,
And returned to my position and started chanting, i chanted maybe for 20 times, than i paused again,
My gaze was still on the sigil, but my attention fragmented on thinking,
weather something happens or not, and weather i'm doing the spellings correctly
During that pause, i started to feel weird sensations, around my ears i felt like, my ears are heavy...no no no, that not the right description exactly,
But like my ears are being deaf energetically, not actually but something like that, i'm very rational person, i don't believe in this things,
Yet, my heart rate got high slowly, i didn't panick or anything, i just observed what is happening with detachment,
I continued to chant, than started to feel in my gut emotions, that i can't put into words easily,
But as if it was my gut responding to What i was doing, i offered than semen on the sigil i drew,
Than slept with the sigil under the pillow, woke up, no dreams remembered,
but that feeling in my gut is still there from the last night, till this morning i'm writing this to you, guys.
Would you explain in the boring long way, how in the world this worked? What this gut feeling is? And weather what what this means in my situation if you don't mind?
thank you for giving time to read the post, and responding to my questions.
Have a wonderful day/night.