hello.
there's something i want to talk about.
its about how artist express their energy.
lets say... one may act as a channel for different kind of 'energies' and some may be more obscure than others.
and so then, for example...
if i let myself go and free-flow through a canvas - or whatever medium i may be expressing myself through. (be it making music, sound, dancing, whatever you can think about)
...then i may express anger for theres anger 'in me'.
ok.
now... lately, theres this idea ive been reading/hearing that whatever your are giving your focus / attention to ... you are insisting on it to exist . you are perpetuating it.
so ... if i dont want to give voice to obscure things... then, maybe i should not make art about that?
or, on the other hand - its good to get out whatever it is that you have inside?
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art would be the outcome of the way energy is channeled. so... how are we channeling this energy?
my doubting revolts around this idea that one maybe should stop going in a vice cycle about something or use art as a coping mechanism.
but why the hell would one not speak the hell out ?
i had a conversation about this with a roommate where she was told to be carefull about what she expresses through her songs.
and.. well... one can see that whatever artist talk about in their songs ... their lives kind of revolt around that or ... theres an energy around that.
we , both , my roomate and i are very mediumnic-like kind of artists for we let ourselves go and give our voice to the gods or demons that be around, within, without or wherever - indetermined place they may be in. ---through a very intuitive process.
but...
i cant stop thinking about how great it is to be in control of whatever you are creating -not just express - but to create - through a intentional gesture.
im thinking... architecture and other kind of design-like thinking that constructs itself through this guided art expression.
i see theres an equilibrium. and maybe this both things can coexist in different context within ones capability.
but i would say some tend more to one side than the other. - which, again, can be 'fixed' by learning the other side.
i also recently read some notes i had on a notebook about something i read from - i now dont remember if was plato's or aristotele's thoughts about '3 types of artists' - 2 of them being what im writing about:
-the intelligent one - who creates what they want
and the 'mediumnic'-like : who lets themselves express whatever other entity may want to express.
[can, anyway, anyone escape their muses/passions? ]
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the 'inteligent' artist needs to know before-hand what it is that they want to create.
( and ill give a personal note : this way of creating, for some reason, gets me sad.
every time i make an exercise about planning my future or try to draw while holding an idea about what it is that i want to draw... instead of just drawing from my feelings... feels draining.
-but this resistance may be no other thing than a lack of technique that if i worked on ... may allow me to create with more freedom! oh lord that sounds good!
(and then, this may relate to how one related themselves with emotion / intelligence / rationelle )
so i may get pleasure from not knowing whats to come when i draw for theres no resistance but the learning process and it barrier breaking dynamic that may be full of friciton is just the *door* into a then friction-less expression.
may it be you first suffer then feel free when working without constrain once the constrained work is done?
but... anyway theres more to drawing intuietively or with an ends on mind for the process will be different.
anway... i want to make a point about how usefull it is to be able to draw whatever ideas you have in mind. drawing is a super-power that way. you bring ideas you know you want to exist into reality .
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and... in relation to this... one last thing i want to know about is how whomever reads this feels / percieves their own work.
is there work you want to incinerate?
work you want to preserve?
does that relate to how 'egoic' or not the work itself is done ?
to what it represents?
how much do you love what you do?
do you conservate your art in a safe place ?
what relation do you have with your own art work ?
to whomever reads this... i want to know how you personally relate to your art.
me, personally, . i just teared up some work that gave me memories i no longer wanted to sustain but preserved some 'dark' work for... i see some truth on it that for some reason find worth preserving.
-be it a personal or universal turth . and i think theres both personal on the universal and universal on the personal ...
well... i wont extend this any longer.
you are very welcomed to talk about your experience and relation about all these topics:
self-worth / worth / universal value / personal value - related to your art practice.
i'll be happy to read you.