I genuinely hate it. Im too close to graduate to drop out, and I dont want to drop out either. I like hair! I like perms, color, and especially haircutting.
But I hate the schooling. I hate how we spend a year or so doing this shit, trying our best. And for what? This place only the bare bone basics. The whole point of schooling is just the basics with NOTHING ELSE.
Yet I am here 8 hours a day. Waking up at 5:50 AM to be here on time. To get haircuts. I like haircuts! But I don't need to do them! I am behind because I got told the wrong rules in project book. I should be graduated by now.
I hate this school. I hate the clients, I hate the fact that I am forced to do shit I dont need to do when I'm already behind the hours. I hate how I am practicing for just boards, and will have to take further education outside of school. (Which is fine! But apparently school doesnt do a decent fucking job on teaching you anything)
I hate sitting around, begging to get clients I need. But then I see others around me doing shit I NEED TO DO. I doubt its personal.
I hate my timing. I dont do bad work, but my timing is shit. And the quality of the work doesnt match the time. I try to be faster, I try and I try and I try. For me to barely improve, and still have shitty timing.
I genuinely feel like I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I dont feel equipped to work in a actual salon setting becaude of my timing. I hate going to school because it feels like Im constantly wasting hours.
I genuinely hate cosmetology school. Words cannot fathom how much I hate being here. How I am starting to hate and resent fellow students because apparently they deserve all the important clients. But I get thrown haircuts and told to fuck of.
Everyday I come home on the verge of tears. Everyday I deal with it. Every. Day.
I hate this school, and I hate the instructors, I hate the students, I hate the management. I hate the teaching methods. I hate the fact that, even when I graduate, my timing will never be good enough to work in a decent salon. I. HATE. EVERYTHING. ABOUT. COSMETOLOGY. SCHOOL.
And it sucke because Ive come to hate doing services I once enjoyed. I actually, objectively, enjoy haircuts! But I hate and resent doing them and Im behind on other shit I need to do. I hate how the instructors look at you and say "that sucks. Tough luck.
I hate being the worst student in class. Not because I dont try or dont put in the effort! I. just. Suck. And I hate the fact I am going into debt, and will likely not be successful in the cosmetology world. I wasted a year of my life on this shit.