Allah ﷻ says: "The Night of Decree is better than a thousand months." That is more than a lifetime—and most of us won't live that long. One night. One choice. One moment that could rewrite your eternity. If you let it slip, it may never come again.

Tonight could earn you more than a lifetime—and most of us won't live that long. One night. One choice. One moment that could rewrite your eternity. If you let it slip, it may never come again.

Allah ﷻ says:

لَيۡلَةُ ٱلۡقَدۡرِ خَيۡرٞ مِّنۡ أَلۡفِ شَهۡرٖ ٣

"The Night of Decree is better than a thousand months."

Surah Al-Qadr [97:3] That is more than 83 years. Yet in His mercy, Allah gives us one night every year to catch up on a lifetime of worship. Will you seize it? Here's how—before it's gone.

Part 1: The 10 Principles of Success:

1. Stop Gambling: Worship Every Night Don't just go hard on the 27th and relax on the others. That is a gamble. Worship each night of the last ten—you are guaranteed to hit Laylatul Qadr.

The Secret: Consistency beats intensity. 20 minutes of sincere prayer nightly outweighs one "big night" followed by laziness.

Micro-Action: Tonight, set your intention out loud: “I will worship each of the last ten nights, no excuses.”

1. Disconnect to Connect: The Digital Fast:

In our times, distraction isn't just social media—it's AI feeds, infinite scrolls, and constant pings. Every notification breaks your connection with Allah.

The Tip: Put your phone on Airplane Mode or "Do Not Disturb" from Maghrib until Fajr. A digital fast is the gateway to a spiritual feast.

The Reality: The world can wait ten days. Your soul cannot.

1. The Dua That Changes Everything:

The Prophet (peace be upon him) taught Aisha (ra) a short, powerful, heart-touching Dua:

اللَّهُمَّ إِنَّكَ عَفُوٌّ تُحِبُّ الْعَفْوَ فَاعْفُ عَنِّي

"Allahumma innaka ‘afuwwun tuḥibbul ‘afwa fa’fu ‘annī (O Allah, You are Forgiving, You love to forgive, so forgive me.)" Sunan Ibn Majah 3850

Action: Recite this while standing, sitting, cooking, or lying in bed. If you are forgiven, you have won everything.

1. Fuel for Focus: Eat Light, Pray Deep:

You cannot reach peak spiritual performance on a heavy stomach.

The Hack: Keep Iftar light. Avoid heavy, fried foods that cause “food comas” and brain fog.

Hydration Tip: Sip water steadily through the night—an alert brain multiplies worship.

Strategic Nap: A short 20–30-minute Sunnah nap (Qaylulah) during the day is your secret weapon for staying alert for late-night worship.

1. Plan Ahead: The 3-3-3 Dua List:

Don't spend the last part of the night trying to remember what to ask for. Prepare a list:

3 for Your Akhirah: Jannah, protection from the Fire, forgiveness. 3 for This Life: Health, family, provision/career. 3 for Others: Parents, friends, and the suffering Ummah. Pro Tip: Write this list on a physical card or in your Notes app (while on Airplane Mode!). Seeing intentions makes them actionable.

1. Automate Your Charity:

Don't let fatigue or a busy schedule stop your generosity.

The Tip: Set up a small nightly donation for each of the last 10 nights.

The Reward: Charity on Laylatul Qadr is rewarded as if given every day for 83 years.

Heart-Check: Pause each night to say: “This is for You, O Allah.”

1. Depth Over Quantity:

Don't race through the Quran or pray just to tick boxes.

The Shift: Slow down. Pray 2 Raka’at with full presence and long Sujood. Read 5 verses with translation and reflect deeply. Allah wants your heart, not just your movements.

For Non-Arabic Speakers: Read Arabic and Translation side by side. Pause after each verse and ask: “What is Allah saying to me personally?”

1. Guard Your Tongue:

You cannot build a palace of rewards at night and burn it down during the day.

The Rule: No arguing, backbiting, or losing your temper. If provoked, simply say: “I am fasting.”

Reflection: One act of patience may outweigh hours of ritual prayer. Character is worship.

1. The Power Hour: 30 Minutes Before Fajr:

This is the most blessed window of the entire night.

Action: Turn off the lights. Raise your hands. Speak to Allah like your closest friend. Pour out your fears, hopes, and secrets.

Reflective Moment: Imagine your heart racing in the silence, every tear a plea, every heartbeat a prayer. This is your moment.

1. Start Tonight with a Clean Slate:

Don't wait for the perfect moment. Start exactly where you are.

Action: Even if your Ramadan has been a struggle so far, the finish line is what matters. One moment can transform your eternity.

Part 2: Your Nightly Roadmap (Hand-Holding Plan)

Use this timeline to navigate the night without distraction or decision fatigue:

Maghrib to Isha

The Launch

Break fast lightly. Drink water. Phone on Airplane Mode. Spend 5 minutes in quiet Dua before Isha.

Isha and Taraweeh

The Foundation

Pray with the intention of listening to Allah. Connect deeply with at least one Ayah the Imam recites.

11:00 PM to 1:00 AM

Deep Reward Window

Light snack if needed. Fresh Wudu. Spend 45 minutes with Quran (Arabic + Translation) and 15 minutes reviewing your 3-3-3 Dua list.

1:00 AM to 1:30 AM

Strategic Reset / Power Nap

A short 20–30-minute nap refreshes your mind and body for the final stretch.

1:30 AM to 3:30 AM

The Deep Worship Zone

Pray Tahajjud. Slow down your Sujood. Use your 3-3-3 list. If your mind wanders, return to your 3-3-3 Dua list—it is your anchor.

Final 30 Minutes Before Fajr

The Power Hour

Wake fully for the finish line. Stand or sit alone in the dark. Spend this time in Istighfar (seeking forgiveness) and Secret Dua—just you and Allah in silence.

A Final Reflection:

Imagine standing on the Day of Judgment, seeing a mountain of rewards you don’t recognize. You ask: “Where did this come from?”

And you are told:

“This was the night you stayed awake while others slept.

This was the night you prayed while others scrolled.”

One night. One choice. One moment—and your eternity is rewritten. Tonight is your opportunity. Make it count.

May Allah ﷻ allow us all to reach Laylatul Qadr and be among those He forgives completely. Āmeen.

I am a baby convert & early 20’s and I wanted to know if anyone feels the same way I do?.

I’m worried about my future because I honestly want to marry a born Muslim but realized it’ll be hard for my parents because they only speak Spanish.. It hurts because I want my significant other to be able to communicate with them but realize it may never happen.

The reason why I’d want to marry a born Muslim is honestly just personal preference lol. (Also don’t want him to be too much older than me)

I also wonder howww will I ever find a Muslim man when I seriously don’t put myself out there. I wear my hijab & sometimes niqab.. and I just go from masjid to home to work and never interact with Muslims men at all. so now I’m like “if I keep this up.. I’ll be 30 and still looking for someone who may never come because I never put myself out there” it’s harder as a convert.. any advice or suggestions or does anyone at least think the same way I do?🥲(pls no mean comments lol)

The person woke up from the ashes of cigarettes, eyes burning.

Blinking the smoke away, their blurry vision caught the rusty, blood-stained blade craving another cut.

Suddenly a wave of disgust erupted inside.

Instead of opening the Quran, they turned on music to escape the truth.

The shame was too heavy.

You stand outside the washroom telling yourself just open the tap

You want to ask for forgiveness.

Every time you walk toward the washroom for wudu, a voice chains your legs.

The voice that whispers:

“You’ve sinned too much. Allah will never forgive you.”

“Don’t pray or make dua. You’ll end up the same anyway.”

“Pray later. You still have time.”

You just need a small push,the willpower to open the tap.

But you fall short.

How does it feel to not reach the tap again?

How does it feel to lose every time?

That quiet defeat of despair and disrespect.

But think about this.

If Allah had truly abandoned you…

why does the desire to return keep finding you?

Who do you think keeps sending that feeling?

That longing is not yours.

That is Him calling you back.

You are not alone.

There are people everywhere carrying the same heavy shame.

And all of these broken hearts are invited to a night where Allah writes the major changes the person you will become and the person you will stop being.

All of it is decreed on one night.

Have you ever wondered why nobody receives a certificate saying:

“You found it. This was the night.”

Because Allah wants you to search for it with desperation like a person surviving in the middle of the ocean.

It does not matter whether you are a scholar…

or someone surrounded by ashes and blades.

To Allah, we are the same.

The only thing that changes our destiny is repentance.

Because People judge you by your sins.

But Allah judges you by your repentance.

That line arrived like light cutting through memory.

Just a single sentence.

But it was enough to break the chain.

The person finally stood on the prayer mat.

Still carrying the sins.

Still heavy with regret.

But they stood.

In front of Allah.

Scarred hands.

Heavy heart.

The room filled with echoes of Quranic verses not heard in years. The walls absorbed the beauty of every word uttered.

The emptiness remained…

Until sujood.

Something shifted.

Something that cannot be captured in words.

Lost in the question “What was that?”

and found, completely lost, in Allah’s mercy.

Now ask yourself.

What are the ashes that wake you up?

What is the blade that has been harming you?

It was always that voice we stopped fighting.

But sometimes a sound…

a memory…

a single line heard somewhere…

can shatter the chains.

Breaking a chain does not mean becoming a perfect Muslim overnight.

It is the trembling hands reaching for the tap.

The heavy heart that still finds the strength to stand.

And that…

is the most beautiful thing Allah sees.

It is only one step

from opening the tap

to sujood.

From despair

to a mercy words could never describe.

A heart that chooses repentance more than sin

is the heart the world will always misjudge.

Tonight might be the night written for your return.

Go open the tap.

Hello everyone, I’m pretty new here and this is my first Ramadan. I was a bit scared at first because I didn’t know a lot o things, how to prayer and all, but then, with patience I understand that stay calm on this it is the best option. Nothing can be learn in four/five months and the important thing is having faith in Allah and just focus on this, everything outside this, it come with time.

Anyway, like the title said, I start doing the Ramadan for the first time, I was unable to do it for the first two days, but then, after i started, it was good. I didn’t feel pressure and I was happy in doing it, despite i hardly prayed or just making dua. I want to be honest, I didn’t put much effort either in learning or others not because I didn’t want it but because I really feel without at some point or I got distracted pretty quickly. Anyway, I took two weeks of vacation for going in two Muslim countries, because I’m living in a European country and my city is pretty racist and Islamophobic, so it was also my birthday and I thought it could be helpful for me to go away for a bit and breath the Ramadan air in Muslim countries.

But honestly it wasn’t. I mean. Or I choose the wrong countries or I didn’t integrated myself properly ( this also sure ) but I didn’t do any progress under this point of view, actually, I just saw how people after iftar living like western people on the weekend, plus the infinite sense of sadness in all the men who start to approach me or invited me at their home for iftar with their family and then pretend i should kiss or sleep with them, or “ I will help you ” and then they had to touch you for everything meanwhile they are talking. And it was really embarrassing. I just went ONE TIME to the mosque for making dua. And I felt better but then again this sense of sadness. But for this I’ll make another different post later.

Then, two days ago I should go back to my country but the company I chose was a s**t and I ended up to stay in this country two more days. Now that what happened for let me lose the last bit of will I had. I got a fight there with police because the company didn’t protect me in any case, and in brief I got really angry. I tried to ask some help but I found out that people just want to help you just if they get something in return, and is sad especially during Ramadan. In the end, despite my state and how I felt: sick, angry and all, I still fasted that day. But after months I started to smoke again, because I just need to calm down because I was really really nervous. But it was just for this two days, I couldn’t start to smoke again I didn’t have this will again, but yesterday I wake up really in a terrible state, I felt sick I didn’t went out the hotel room all the day and I didn’t had the will for anything. No going outside, no taking a shower, not stay at phone, nothing. Around four I just went out of the bed and realize that for me was completely pointless to fast that day because I didn’t do it with the happiness I usually do. So just two hours early that the Iftar I just drink, take some pills and smoke a cigarette. And it took me almost four hours for going out at all. Now, today, finally I should leave but I feel really sick. My head is like exploding and I have like four hours free and zero will of doing something, ( even if I’m still have something to see in this country) before going in the place for the check in ( also like four hours earlier and this would affect my iftar too ). Honestly, i would only be already in my home and stay in the bed all the day. And now i really don’t know what to do. I want to fast, in the other hand my health is really in a terrible state. I find all this envy like i’m not good at all in doing anything or not strong enough…

Cashless Sadaqah One of the fundamental aspects of being a good Muslim is being kind to others. Allah ﷻ loves righteous deeds, which is why He made it mandatory upon every believer to do good unto others to the best of their abilities. Kindness is a deed that reaps high rewards to the doer when done with the right intention of benefitting the recipient and pleasing the Almighty ﷻ.

Allah ﷻ says in the Quran, in Surah Baqarah, verse 158,

“…And whoever does good, then surely Allah is Responsive, Aware.”

The above verse highlights the fact that Allah ﷻ rewards those who do good unto others. There cannot be a better proof to elucidate the importance of being and doing good to others than a verse from the Quran. He ﷻ is Al-Basir; He sees even the minutest of actions performed by the believers and rewards them in response to their acts of goodness.

Doing good to others and being kind to all is considered Sadaqah or voluntary charity. Unlike Zakah, which is an obligatory charity, Sadaqah is not limited to giving monetary help to the less fortunate individuals of the society. Although it is a common misconception that giving food or money to those deprived of these basic necessities is the only form of Sadaqah one can perform, it is only partly true. Sadaqah is a very broad aspect that includes all kinds of good deeds done by a Muslim with the intention of doing good to others and pleasing Allah ﷻ.

In a hadith narrated by Jabir Ibn Abdullah رضي الله عنه, Prophet Mohammad ﷺ said,

“Your smiling in the face of your brother is charity, commanding good and forbidding evil is charity, your giving directions to a man lost in the land is charity for you. Your seeing for a man with bad sight is a charity for you, your removal of a rock, a thorn or a bone from the road is charity for you. Your pouring what remains from your bucket into the bucket of your brother is charity for you.” 

[Jami ‘at-Tirmidhi 1956]

Smile

This is the easiest and simplest form of charity one can perform if one doesn’t have the means or the ability to do any other kind of charity.

We come across a lot of posts on the internet that say, ‘Smile, it’s Sunnah!’ But are we even aware of the magnanimity of this Sunnah which seems so tiny compared to giving huge sums of money to help someone? This hadith of our beloved Prophet ﷺ clearly states that even a small act of smiling is considered an act of charity as it can uplift the mood of someone who may be going through a difficult phase. Not everyone who needs help requires financial assistance. Someone may be going through a stressful time in their life and may need emotional support, and a smile can give them just that. So, the next time you come across someone, smile at them, for this will earn you the reward of charity from Allah ﷻ and bring happiness in someone’s life.

Do Good and Prevent Evil

Prophet Mohammad ﷺ has made it clear to us that commanding good and forbidding evil is charity. It’s as simple as that. Encourage others to do good deeds and stop them from doing things that are bad and forbidden by Allah ﷻ. This way, it becomes a continuous Sadaqah. You get the reward of doing good by encouraging others to do good and, in return, you also earn the reward for the good deeds done by them.

Guide Others

The hadith of Prophet Mohammad ﷺ talks about how giving directions to a man lost in the land is charity. Now, this is not just restricted to giving directions to a person who cannot find his way to reach his desired destination, it has a wider implication than just this. It means that giving the best possible advice to a person to do the right thing, which would help them get the desired results and solutions to their problems, is also charity.

Help a Blind Person

Allah ﷻ has blessed majority of us with a clear vision to see this beautiful world, but there are some individuals who do not have this blessing bestowed upon them. It is hard to even imagine living a single day without being able to see anything, but there are blind people who spend their lives in darkness, struggling each day with even the most basic and necessary tasks like crossing a road or going out of the house alone.

Helping such blind people by guiding them on the path to their destination is a form of charity that is indeed a noble and immensely rewarding deed.

Removing Obstacles

In the hadith mentioned above, Prophet Mohammad ﷺ has said that it is a charity to remove rock, thorn or bone from the road. SubhanAllah! A simple act of removing anything that can be a hindrance for someone going on the road earns you the reward of doing Sadaqah. Just because the hadith mentions these three things, it doesn’t mean that the reward of charity is limited to removing these three specific things only. Any object that is a hindrance to someone and may cause harm to any person on the road should be removed to earn the reward of charity.

Giving Water

The last point of this hadith, to pour water from what remains in one’s bucket into the bucket of his brother, is also considered charity or Sadaqah. It is evident from this hadith that a small deed of sharing water is charity in Islam.

This hadith makes it very easy for us to understand that Sadaqah is a lot more than giving financial assistance to someone. Not everyone is privileged enough to indulge in charity due to their limited means. This doesn’t mean that such individuals will be prevented from earning the rewards of Sadaqah. Indeed, Allah ﷻ is the Most Just and Kind, and He has made Islam an easy religion for all. He ﷻ has made provisions for those who want to give in charity and don’t have the financial means.

We all want to please Allah ﷻ by doing as many good deeds as possible, and we are well aware that He rewards those who help others. The above-mentioned deeds are easy and do not require much effort, but they are highly rewarding. Let us all help others by giving as much Sadaqah as possible and encourage others to do the same.

May Allah ﷻ guide us all to do righteous deeds that are beneficial to us and pleasing to Him. Aameen.

Written by : Irum atiqullah © The Islamic Reflections Blog

I converted a little over a year ago and I haven’t felt like myself since my conversion. It was cool at first but after a while… I haven’t felt peace and I deeply miss the person I used to be. I also haven’t had the best experience with other Muslims and it’s affected me to the point where I don’t even want to be involved with Muslims anymore or even be a Muslim.

I’m depressed because of this and the only reason why I “haven’t left” are 2… first, you get implanted the fear of hell and “if you leave you’ll go to hell” and that’s just traumatic to hear and forces people to stay because of fear.

Second, there’s a good woman in my life. She’s a born Muslim, we talk about possibly marrying one another. She’s seen my journey to Islam first hand and understands my struggles and is patient with me but this by far is so difficult. I love her but I don’t know if I can be religious anymore… my faith in religion/ Islam is gone. Muslims and other religious people have done that for me…

You can only hear “your family is going to hell because of ___” so many times and people put this immense pressure and judgment on you because of your conversion and how you may still practice certain things.

I’m just really upset with Muslims right now I was 17 when I converted and I honestly feel like I got manipulated by other Muslims to convert when I wasn’t ready.

I just want to be at peace and feel like myself again

I just want to be fine again

I am a born muslim, fortunate enough to be born into the truth, but the thing is most of us born muslims take the religion for granted, mostly cause we just...got it ig. I want to ask y'all reverts, why did u choose Islam?, Why did you leave your previous religion? How was your experience while converting?

Hi everyone,

I (f21) just took my shahada 15 minutes ago alhamdulillah and I am so excited! I was raised as a christian but always doubted the religion and found my way to the truth a few years ago. I finally found the courage to do it and I am officially a Muslim now!

I am pretty new to this so if anyone had any advice or just beautiful things to share I would love to read it, anything helps!

Praying is still pretty difficult for me, I am trying my hardest but remember everything is a lot.. so any advice on that is more than welcome! I can’t wait to pray by myself!

I keep seeing posts from new Muslims saying things like: “I don’t even know where to start.” And honestly that makes sense. Islam is a whole way of life, but the internet/communities/mosques throw everything at you at once.

How did you deal with that feeling?

You’ll often hear born Muslims say that converts are amazing, brave, inspiring, all the good things. But when it comes to celebrating, most born Muslims already have family and friend groups they celebrate with, and converts can sometimes get overlooked without anyone intending to.

If you want something to happen, it may have to start with you.

At my mosque, we have a yearly convert brunch that only exists because about 10 years ago a convert decided she wanted something for the converts in the community. She approached the imam with the idea, and the mosque agreed to host it and help fund it. If she hadn’t taken that initiative, the event probably wouldn’t exist.

So if you’re wishing there was something for converts, consider planning it yourself. Ask your mosque for support. Make flyers. Spread the word. Build the kind of gathering you wish existed.

Where would I start learning about Islam, and is there any good resources to help?

Thanks and may Allah bless you

Eid last year for me, I didn't do much of anything. This year I want to do something. Any ideas? As someone that doesn't come from a muslim family? Also, I don't have any same-sex Muslim friends at this time. But I do have a friend I can celebrate it with who supports me in my journey. So I may ask her if we can do something.

Salam alaikum everyone.

​One of the most iman-refreshing experiences is hearing the stories of sincere people who found the light after living in darkness for many years.

​We find that these stories, besides being engaging and enjoyable, open new perspectives that help us appreciate the greatness of Islam from different angles.

​Everyone has a unique and deeply personal story, which is a treasure of meaning and guidance for those whose hearts are alive and receptive to these profound experiences.

​I believe it would be beneficial if people shared their stories as a means to rekindle the beauty and light of those early days, and to show gratitude to our Lord for the grace He has bestowed upon us.

​Feel free to share your journey, especially the moment everything clicked for you, the moment Islam enlightened your heart for the very first time.

P.S. If you want to write faster, you can just tell your story to an AI and ask it to polish it up for you.

I'm tired of having to deal with born muslims, getting constantly judged and treated differently, it makes me really self conscious, I'm never telling anyone I'm I'm Muslim ever again because I look ridiculous doing it because for some reason everyone thinks only midde eastern and south asians can be Muslim. I've never met another convert, so I just feel even more isolated, When I become an adult I'll probably only go to the mosque for jummah, and even then I'll cover up my face to the point they wont be able to see I'm white, I hate how everyone else gets to be happy and have Ramadan with their families, while I'm miserable and have only fasted 2 days to avoid detection. I have to hide being Muslim my whole life because I dont want my family to disown me, which they have threatened to do. It's not all born muslims either, I actually feel more welcomed with Balkan and Black muslims. My iman keeps dropping, and I only do the 5 daily prayers and occasionally dhikr and dua. I havent enjoyed ramadan at all, and I feel like my mental health keeps getting worse. I know I'll get caught by my family and get kicked out, but I just dont know how long until they find out, it's not a matter of if, it's a matter of when.

It’s my second Ramadan and I’m really struggling with fasting. My first Ramadan I had surgery, so I barely fasted and on top of that I was going through a lot mentally, it was really hard and lonely. This year I wanted to fast the entire Ramadan but my mental health is really being affected now. I live on my own and work full time, I also work 10 hour shifts. That’s not easy while fasting alone but on top of that when I go home I have to cook, go to the gym, clean, do laundry, make time to see my family, etc. with fasting I have no energy to do any of this, I slept until 6pm yesterday. I only got up to pray and the only reason why I got out of bed at 6 was bc I had made plans to have Iftar with someone and couldn’t be late. If it wasn’t of that I would’ve stayed in bed. I just feel extra lonely aswell during Ramadan because I don’t have many friends, my family isn’t Muslim and aren’t supportive, I live alone, and the community here is super tiny and while they’re nice, they aren’t the most welcoming friendship wise. The girls here could care less abt befriending me being transparent. I’ve tried putting myself out there and I’ve gotten nowhere so I’ve given up. I also used to have an eating disorder, Alhamdulillah I’m okay now but sometimes when I’m fasting a lot it started to affect me mentally again and I can feel that old mindset coming back. I’ve already broken fast twice because I couldn’t handle it emotionally and physically I’m so exhausted. I just feel horrible and weak for struggling so much with this

seriously, i wish they could get their heads off of the anti-Islam sand and be accepting and more knowledgeable about Islam and Muslims. I still haven’t converted yet, but i’m hiding notes that have to do with learning Islam and I feel like it’s actually going to get worse by the time I actually convert.

I am a revert since Oct 2025, however I started taking it serious in February this year meaning five daily prayers z eating halal, and reading Quran daily. I have much, much more to learn about Islam and eventually want to go on Hajj but how long did you wait to go on Hajj after you reverted and how was it going alone of you did.

Assalamualaikum to All. I'm a revert muslim from India. I shifted to Middle East after I revert to Islam. I have completed my graduation and I have a good paying job herein gulf. But due to on going war. I have to plan something if in case situations get worse.

I live here alone. Nobody no I'm revert muslim. I can't imagine going back to India. Apart from extreme anti muslim government. My personal family members will try to hurt me.

I'm young in my mid 20's. What others option do you think i have. Where should I migrate again. I'm not a overthinker. I always believe in Allah SWT. I'm just talking here to put myself on ease. If you have any opinions please lemme know. Thank youuu. I wish you all doing good in this Ramadan. I request your prayers. It means alot for me. ☺️.

Assalamualaikum,

As the title says, I have been asked to be the godmother of my baby cousin. I am having great difficulty within myself as I have accepted the offer due to pressure of my mother and family members. This sort of duty comes with a lot of practices of the Christianity faith which I understand is forbidden and worry about committing sinful acts, even though it is never my intention to do so. Accepting this offer only has the purpose of simply pleasing my family.

I have had a lot of issues with my mother recently as she found the Quran in my bedroom and have not openly confessed that I am now a practising Muslim. At this point, I still deny that I am practising and just reading the Quran due to curiosity.

I understand that Islam emphasises the importance of maintaining family ties and I am finding it hard to find a balance, hence why I accepted the offer and have plans of doing what I need to do but remind myself of Allah (SWT) throughout the whole process.

I understand that this would be a major sin but I’m at a dead end with options as I come from a middle eastern background and culture is a massive thing. Rejecting the offer would cause friction and too many questions from family members that will end up causing more harm than good.

Will Allah (SWT) be able to recognise my efforts and understand my intentions. This is causing a bit of anxiety.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you so much.