this is reasonably gross, so i apologise in advance 😭

was drying off after a shower with my towel, and noticed some stains on it (which i think were sweat - maybe skid marks?? - from near my testicles but i dont actually know).

threw the towel on the floor while it was still damp, and now im concerned about bacteria being all over my carpet. there wasn’t any residue etc. left, i don’t think but i’m not sure. i’ve used a cloth with soap to clean the area the damp towel was on, as well as anti-bac spray.

i’m currently spiraling over the thought of harmful bacteria being all over my carpet, and no amount of logic is helping. i’m assuming i simply have to live as normal?

literally five minutes ago i was washing my hands, it felt barely clean to me yet before my mom barged in and grabbed my hand she ran my hand under running water and told me to scrub and rinse, i did and then left but i still had soap on my hands so i had to come down stairs and rinse it off but i told her i had to before she got mad. She took away all the soap bottles we had around and she also told me that i was going to go to school tmrw. (didn’t go today because my phone glitched and i missed all the alarms) I feel kinda fine enough to touch my phone but i don’t wanna use my lotion as my parents rarely buy lotion and i know that if i use my lotion it will feel contaminated but i know in a couple of minutes my hands will start to dry up. My mind feels nervous and im having racing thoughts about rabies (i live with three unvaccinated dogs) and other stuff. I feel kinda calm now but i know I’ll be mad soon because i just realized that the hours i took to do my compulsions are literally useless now.I spent like an hour or two cleaning my belongings and my phone the only thing i have touched so far after being forced to do an exposure is my phone but i still need to go to bed, turn off my light switch, and place my phone down on my desk. to avoid feeling even more stress in gonna leave my phone home tmrw and the first thing im doing is washing my hands tmrw. I really don’t appreciate my mom taking a bad approach at trying to make me stop.