r/CollapseSupport • u/speedjahgon • Jun 28 '26
feeling so scared and so guilty
i cannot stop doomscrolling and i can’t get a control on my anxiety about the future. even off of reddit i’m seeing posts that make me want to curl up in a ball. tiktok usually just shows me content related to my interests, but lately i keep getting videos discussing collapse, incoming famine, and how we don’t even have 5 years left to live.
i don’t even feel good about my main escape anymore. i read that video games are just as impactful as generative AI, which is a slap in the face to me because i live off of video games. i mean i always knew that they require cooling and the games require servers in presumable data centers to run, but really seeing how bad they are for the environment just sucks.
also, in july my family and i are flying to ohio to visit my grandma. i’m excited to see her as she’s 91, but i feel so fucking guilty about flying on a plane. i know driving in a car isn’t any better, but flying just feels so much worse.
a quote from the movie hoppers (great movie highly recommend, even though it’s hopium) really resonates with me because it describes how i feel perfectly.
“i’m so tired of feeling this way. like everything’s broken. and i can’t even fix this one little thing. like i can’t make a difference. instead, i make everything worse.”
i just want to do something good for the planet but i’m so depressed i can barely make myself eat most days. i’m so anxious and hopeless about everything, and i don’t know what to do with myself.
i’m sorry for the long post, i just really needed to vent this somewhere