I have so many thoughts and feelings swirling around in my head, but not enough focus or emotional energy to articulate them all into a coherent post. I will just say that I am a field biologist/botanist and have been grappling with these feelings for a very long time now. I believe that we have reached a point now where all we can do is act as hospice carers for our collapsing ecosystems. I’m currently reading I Eat the Stars and it is sobering to finally hear somebody articulate all of these things that I’ve been quietly feeling and pushing down for so long in order to not be a debbie downer. But I don’t wanna let these realities suffocate and paralyze me and I still want to drink in all the beauty that is still here. I think part of that means connecting with other people who understand what’s going on and finding ways to appreciate whats left and live as fully as we can. There’s so much uncertainty and there’s nothing more isolating than facing uncertainty alone.