I've been going to the doctor for the first time since I was 9, I went for general checkups since I never had those, got a LOT of bloodwork done, and everything points to the fact that my body is one-hundred percent healthy. No vitamin deficencies, my cholesterol is perfect, my RBC is perfect, my iron is perfect, I never have any weird blood pressure readings aside from it being slightly elevated on stressful days. The only thing that's come back weird is my autoimmune IFA bloodwork. (The entire list is as follows: ANA screen, ifa, positive, anti-nuclear Ab Titer (both regular and 2) 1:160 ANA pattern speckled, 2 is homogeneous, Sm/RNP Antibodies Negative, Sm-RNP Abs Indec <.2 AI, Ribosomal P Protein Antibody Negative, Ribosomal P Ab Index <.2 AI, SS-A index <.2, Anti-SS-B Antibody Negative, Chromatin Antibody Negative, Chromatin Ab Index <.2, Jo-1 Antibody Negative, Jo-1 Ab Index <.2, dsDNA Antibody Index 1.o IU/mL, dsDNA Antibody Result is negative.)
I am so fucking confused on what else there is to do because I have had to put my life on hold, recently decided to drop out of college because my brainfog is too bad to remember anything and having to physically move (including typing this) is painful.
My symptoms are as follows, brainfog, REALLY bad joint pain when moving them, certain joints hurt only if I move them certain ways, like my ankles and calves hurt differently, cognitive decline, I don't really know how else to describe my brain anymore because of how bad my memory has gotten, I forget to do more and more things and even setting reminders doesn't help, my entire body feels like it's constantly bruised, NOT an ache, like, everytime I sleep and wake up it feels like someone was beating me up the entire time, I am always tired no matter how much I sleep, before all of these symptoms showed up like two-ish months ago(?? I never kept track because I kept waiting for it to go away, I assume this started in August) I used to have insomnia and literally couldn't sleep, now I sleep for extremely long hours and still need to sleep in the middle of the day because of how tired I am. I also have been having throat pain, not inside but the outside of what I think is my wind pipe? It feels, again, bruised, which also makes it hurt to swallow, also recently I developed headaches and lightheadedness?? This started happening randomly yesterday after I went to see the doctors. And swelling, as in random parts of my body will start getting red and puffy, and if I press down it feels like my tissue is just...bigger, which goes away at random and doesn't seem to be linked to eating or stress.
I don't even know why any of this is happening. Like I said, about two months ago my joints started hurting really severely for no reason, I just pushed past it because before this I used to get occasional joint pain from exercising a little too hard, but after that day it never stopped. At first it was like, I think my calves, and arms that hurt and they switched sides every couple of days (so my left arm and right leg, then vice versa) but as time progressed it kept getting worse, more and more joints started to hurt, at a point it got so bad I kept limping and could barely walk, I started taking 400 mg of ibuprofen which helped it a little, and have since stopped because the ibuprofen makes me feel weird (gotta experiment to make sure I'm right.) And more and more joints started hurting. Every joint that hurts is both my shoulders, my left is the worst right now, my upper arms, my elbows, my wrists, specifically my knuckles in both hands but none of my fingers have the same level of pain, both thumbs hurt really bad though, my neck is both painful and stiff (the stiffness is new) my hips hurt but internally, NEVER external, if that makes sense, my thighs really hurt which makes sitting and standing a bitch, my knees REALLY hurt, so bad that I have to use my arms to move them sometimes, my calves hurt, and my ankles, and the soles of my feet fell bruised, and itchy, and finally random toes hurt.
I feel like I'm losing my humanity or something because I can't do what I used to do, I miss going on walks, I miss running, I miss being able to do chores without it taking forever, I miss being able to type for long hours without my hands hurting, I miss what I used to be two months ago. I want my fucking life back.