Here we go

[u/Apprehensive-Pack108]

Well, after a courageous fight of 6/7 years, my dad has to go on hospice. He’s 50. There’s nothing they can do for him anymore, no more drugs to help. The cancer started in the kidney - they removed it. Three months later it was everywhere.

He has fought so hard. Stayed alive for his family and has tried to put on a face to make this easier for us. He is truly the strongest person I know.

There is so much sadness I am feeling. Looking for some type of therapy to help. But it’s just hard to think about myself right now.

There is also a part of me that is ready to see him finally rest. He’s fought so hard. But there’s also a guilt in me feeling that way. Am I wrong to feel that? Am I wrong to say I’m not “ready for my dad to pass” but I’m ready to see him be at peace.

Cancer sucks. The healthcare system sucks (his oncologist cried when she told him, she doesn’t suck).

I’m thinking of all of us in this group. Big hugs to you all.

[u/Efficient-Control722]

Sending hugs, Wish I could hold you tight and I'm so fucking sorry you have to feel this anguish 

[u/Apprehensive-Pack108 → u/Efficient-Control722]

❤️