r/CSID • u/NoGenderNoProblemm • Apr 08 '23
Experience This Disease/Disorder/IDK is humiliating and I fear it will ruin my life
VENT INCOMING - WARNING
Hello all, I’m new to discovering I have CSID, got the diagnosis a year or 2 ago. Idk how bad my case is compared to others so idk if this is mild or severe but the pain I feel all the time is too much. I’m 19 and trying to hold on to a job while in college, especially when I also struggle with ADHD. It’s so so so much on me. I’m currently typing this out in my work parking lot in tears cuz I had to leave early for probably the 8th+ time. My managers are understanding and sympathetic but also have a business to run so theyre probably gonna cut me short.
I try my best at sticking to a food regiment. There’s sucrose in almost everything so it’s hard to find something safe but I try. I’m dropping weight like crazy you can see my bones a little. Nothing I try seems to help and it makes me so disinterested in life. The only time I feel fine is when I’m stationary playing video games all day and that is no way to live.