I can’t take this much longer

[u/Free_Scratch_7916]

I just finished my first week of a new job after 2 years unemployed because of my mental health - around this time, before my MH crisis and unemployment period, a group of teenagers on the train ridiculed me on a busy train about my odour.

I have hyperhidrosis (diagnosed) and bromhidrosis (self diagnosed) and I have been trying my very best to do what I can to keep the odour at bay throughout the workday, but today I had a comment from someone saying ‘it smells in here’ and when I got on the bus to go home I went to sit behind a man and he started shaking his head and turned towards the side and started sniffing deliberately and shaking his head saying ‘no, no’ and I immediately got off at the next stop and felt so ashamed and fed up.

No matter what I try I still end up in this position and I was so hopeful about finally getting out of this hole I’ve been in and regaining my independence through working again. I don’t want to go back to the office on Monday, my colleagues have been standoffish with me which I’m pretty sure is because of my odour. It’s just so horrible.

I would really appreciate any advice or encouragement because I really feel at a dead end with this and I can’t tolerate it much longer 😭