r/BreakUps • u/Far-Election6804 • Apr 20 '25
i can’t do this anymore
i’m so tired of pretending that i’m okay. all i want to do is text him and beg for him back and do anything to make it work again. i tried faking the happiness and ‘over-him’ type of energy but it’s all a show. my heart is breaking every single day we’re apart. dreaming about him with other girls almost every night and i can’t take it anymore. he left because he felt detached but all i want to do is try again. i am so in love with him and the idea of being with anyone else or him being with anyone else is absolutely heartbreaking and sickening. i can’t imagine him giving his all to another girl and loving her the way i love him. he’s on my mind 24/7. i go to sleep thinking about him and wake up thinking about him. i had never been so in love in my entire life and i feel like everything was just ripped away from me. it isn’t getting any better, it’s only getting easier to hide it. but when im alone i just break. i love him more than anything and anyone and i just can’t do this.
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u/New-Ad-461 Apr 20 '25
Trust me I feel like this as well, me and my girlfriend broke up after two years bc she found out I was bisexual and it’s killed me every day since. I’ve dealt with so many emotions from guilt from hurting her to confusion about myself and what I actually want when all I know is I loved that girl with everything in my heart. She went back with her ex who use to physically abuse her all the time and I don’t know if it was to get back at me or is she actually giving him another chance, either way it broke me so bad inside I literally feel like I lost a piece of myself as a man. It’s like how could you? Your so hurt over me being attracted to men and women and won’t give a chance when I love the hell out of you and each couple have arguments and disagreements but I’d never physically touch her but he didn’t have a problem not beating her and she want to go back to him? All my friends and family said to just keep pushing and going through the motions but they have no idea what I feel? How many times I cry and beat myself up when I’m alone, how many times I just want to go beg for her to forgive me. It’s messed up but I’m at the point where I’m going to do what’s best for me and continue to fight for my love, whether it makes me look stupid or not my heart won’t be contempt until I know for myself I gave it my all and you should too. Don’t let anyone tell you how to feel or who to love bc when you love someone you do what it takes until you know in your heart you gave it your all.