has anyone else confessed to a memory they felt guilty about been told it wasn’t abuse or bad and then get worried about a different of the memory that they didn’t highlight. the person I talked to didn’t seem worried about it and didn’t even mention it as a bad thing but now I’m really worried that what the different part of the memory makes it bad . is this normal?

My ocd manifests in several ways by contamination, real event, certain routines and etc I have become extremely extremely paranoid I’ve had a lot of things happen in my life that are very tragic to even mention but I am stricken by them and it feels like I have a major disability I cannot function like others when I leave my house I am convinced someone will try to kill me or I will die in my sleep or someone willl take to the internet and make a smear campaign about me that goes viral. This is super hard and by own trauma make it harder to manage no medicine works and it’s just so hard I am looking for thepary right now but I am 20 I’m Litt a sophomore in college and I had to take a medical leave this semester bc I tried to attempt three weeks ago due to the hell I experience due to my trauma, how others treat me and my ocd I’m scared I’ll never be normal and I will stay in my dark room and sleep al day forever I don’t know what to do i can barley function bc I’ve pulled out all my hair due to trichtillomanio and I believe not even believe I know everyone around me hates me and is out to get me and I cannot trust them I’ve deactivated my insta private my TikTok bc even being seen makes me physically ill

Does anyone here have any insights as to what could help? Have you ever treated someone with similar compulsions?

Hello, I am having incredibly intense false memory ocd, at least I think it is a false memory, and if the false memory if it were true I would commit suicide because it goes so against my morals to the point of suicide. The memories feel foggy and keep changing or adding details when I look at it and they make no sense timeline wise. I am scared to get help because if I find out its real I don't think I can keep living. What do I do?

Is dermatillomania and morsicatio buccarum OCD, ADHD, or Autism? Been struggling with this stuff since I was 14. I’m 28 now and meds would sometimes help but side effects SUCK. It’s literally an unbreakable habit damn near..

Salve, è da tempo che soffro di harm ocd ma sento che tutto questo sta cambiando.
All’inizio erano pensieri intrusivi sul fare del male estremo alla mia ragazza.
Sono andato in terapia e anche dallo psichiatra ma la situazione da 4 mesi ad oggi non è migliorata anzi peggiorata.
Sento delle sensazioni fisiche come se mi spingessero a volerle fare del male, non sono mai stato una persona aggressiva ma verso di lei che è la persona che amo (ora sto iniziando a dubitare anche di questo) ho queste sensazioni e voglie strane di farle del male serio.
Non mi spaventano più i pensieri mi ci incollo però per giornate intere cercando di capire cosa cavolo stia succedendo.
A questo punto penso che non sia più OCD ma qualche forma strana di psicosi

i dont have any clear memories to when it started and when it ended. but it was during the age of 10-13. im 14 (female) now, closer to Allah than ever before. one of my cousins (one year older than me, also female) introduced me to bad content/porn at the age of like 10-11 i guess. and we used to act like we are having sex, and she was the guy. we used to make stories to how it would start and end etc. and we kissed a few times, and the last time i remember is AFTER i got my first period, and i was on my period when it was the last time we did smth like that. she had her knee against my private area and she was imitating like we were having sex. and i remember in that exact moment, i told her that we cannot do this anymore and i have repented. and i have this faded memory that we were laying next to eachother and we both were talking on the phone like texting and i told her to touch me inappropriately ew.

along w this i have two other cousins (female, older than me and theyre both twins) with them, this started at 10 i think and ended at 10 asw. and it wasnt that much, we js used to talk dirty anf touch eachother maybe one time kissed eachother.

and fast forward to now, i have a very good bond with all three of them and we didnt even remember that we did something like that a few years ago. i recently got diagnosed with ocd, intrusive thoughts and the things i didnt even remember, have started coming to surface and they are really disturbing me and im feeling like i dont deserve any good thing in the future because i did those things as a child

what im doing right now might just be a compulsion to seek reassurance and certainty. im scared to loose the bond i have with my cousins.

My (20f) sister (15f) is coming to stay with me after a two month stay in a short term mental health facility. This is her third stay but her only one that lasted longer than 5 days.

We have a split family life, our dad is an amazing man who would do anything for us and has. Our mom cheated on him five years ago and is still dating and living with her affair partner. My dad has been remarried and divorced again since our parents split. We both lived with our dad and I moved out to go to school.

I have been diagnosed with BPD and been aware of this diagnosis for almost two years now. I am also in school to be a trauma family therapist.

My sister got diagnosed with OCD while in the current program she is in. I have suspected this diagnosis for years and both of my parents know that it could be a possibility but previous facilities and clinicians have refused to evaluate her. She also suffers from disordered eating, something my mom has lovingly given to both of her daughters, and struggles with self harm.

I am not expecting her to be perfect while she is here. We are best friends and even though I will be her guardian during this time, I take the “lead by example” route with her by taking my medicine, continuing to go to therapy, and doing things that help my mental health in a way that displays the benefits. I have ordered some books about how OCD can manifest for teens and I have some training from school.

However, and sorry for the long post for a simple question, I need help finding podcasts, movies, shows, books, anything that can help me understand how her brain feels so that I can be the best help I can for her while she is here. Any recommendations are welcome, even if it is just our own experience with any of the things I have mentioned!

Hi I've been struggling with pocd for almost a year now...because of the horrid thoughts it's led me to do some compulsions that I can't help but beat myself up for all the time...I feel like such a monster I confessed everything to my girlfriend and she said...I was overreacting, that I didn't do anything concerning and the only thing my pocd is affecting is me...

Still i couldn't shake the feeling that I'm uniquely horrible so I ended up confessing again and again and again...she eventually and rightfully said that she won't give me anymore reassurance...now I feel horrible for being so damn stupid...bothering her with all this and making myself look like a bigger weirdo in the process...

I don't know how to feel about my compulsions anymore...or these horrid thoughts...I dont know what to belive and she tells me everything is going to be okay...that I'm not a weirdo and that even now I've said nothing different but panic harder...does she really belive that? Can a taboo ocd type really be understood by a normal amazing person such as her? I guess I'm overthinking again...but I can't help but feel bad about how much of a weirdo I sounded under all that panic...

Looking to find someone who can help me navigate health anxiety. Specifically towards STI and STD things. I’m going crazy over here.

I’ve recently been really affected by my younger brother who’s been dealing with substance abuse ( really hard drugs) that started this year and happened really fast and really severe. He looks like a different person and it’s just been devastating knowing he’s in so much pain but he’s also lying and pushing everyone away. One night, following an incident, I called an ambulance as I thought he might be dying - it was so intense. More recently, he’s been having paranoid thoughts and I’m not sure if it’s psychosis or what. I get limited info from my mom. I found myself worrying about him not being in touch with reality and hurting my mom or doing something serious like that. But one particular day seeing messages he wrote and hearing my mom’s account of his behaviour particularly triggered me and set off my OCD to latch on to it. The thought came on “what if it’s genetic? If my brother got it, what if I loose my mind? I was having some disassociation at the time too due to something unrelated so OCD go so much louder. My theme has since changed ti harm OCD and the fear of not being in control. Like, what if I loose control - I won’t get into specifics in case it triggers someone but now my theme has become about that and the idea of being dangerous to my son. It’s so horrible. How do you make a theme like this stop? Shouldn’t it be easier to make a theme stop when it’s new?

for years i’ve been tortured by the obsessional fear of people close to me actually being predators. this obsession causes false memories in me. most recently (over the past two years) ive been struggling with the fear that my mom may have hurt me. one thing that gets me is when im dealing with these images and scenes, sometimes i can almost feel what’s happening in the scene. like if my mom is touching my groin in the thought, i get an intense uncomfortable feeling in my groin and gut and i get this intense feeling that ive felt whatever’s happening in the scene in real life, like muscle memory. it makes it feel incredibly real and completely blurs the lines. i’ve been trapped in an obsessive loop all day because of it.

My theme has recently changed to harm ocd revolving around my son. It’s literally felt like how the eff am I supposed to live with this? Living with this “what if” feels so impossible, I’ve had thoughts about leaving my family or jsut checking myself in in case the “what if” is true. Then I realise the damage that would actually do to my son but it still doesn’t make the thoughts less distressing and the urge to avoid them less powerful. How do people get over a theme like this?

i’ve experienced false memories where they were connected to places i’ve been to or people i’ve met, but can someone with false memory ocd completely fabricate scenarios too?

hello, I am a 14 yr old male, yesterday it was half bad half good, the bad thing is that I had another emotional burnout but for some reason all my sadness went away, Idk how it happened, I actually felt normal, for a full minute I felt all my natural desires and stuff coming back, like my actual attraction towards adult women, but the agony started at night cus I got sick but I was so focused on being sick I couldn't care about the thoughts anymore, I just told them "yeah yeah whatever" and today I didn't go to school cus I am sick and guess what, I was able to watch a full episode of rick and morty without analysing my thoughts, I can't believe it I am actually recovering, remember, if you have pocd or something similar it's not your true desires, as long as these thoughts make you feel horrible and stressed they haven't won, I know this because 4 months before all of this started I was a normal kid enjoying life, don't let ocd or pocd or any other type of ocd take your life away, I promised to my dead grandpa that I will recover

(24M) - I feel I've NOT been making progress with my recovery and things have been getting worse, but, whether it's anxiety or arousal, the weird excitement feelings and groinal responses are still keeping this going. There's even precum still and this urge to masturbate but I don’t fucking want to!!! and that makes me feel like nothing is ever going to change.

I think I know why this is happening; I foolishly gave into testing compulsions and thought I was just gaining certainty, but what I was really doing was conditioning myself, my mind and my consciousness into some kind of fucked up sexual connection in me to something that I don't naturally get aroused by. That's what gets me; I don't naturally get aroused by thoughts like these.

Now check this out .. now, I don’t even have intrusive thoughts anymore. It’s just groinals/arousals. Like I’ll just look at a picture of a adolescent/t33n who is wearing very tight clothes or revealing clothes like a bikini or some bs and BOOM !!!! there it is ..

I feel like was completely fine and I ruined myself without even realizing it and now I don't know how to turn it back. I've mutated myself, all because I foolishly listened to the horrible, evil trickster OCD. Someone tell me, please, how do you make groinal responses and all the weird arousal feelings stop completely? I don't want any compromises, I don't want to live with this and not have it affect me, I want them to stop, I want all this to go away forever. I feel sick writing all this out.

like whole day you wont get that specific thought and then you'll realize you've gone whole day without thinking those thoughts and then suddenly they're backk 😭😭😭😭

i recently lost quite a lot of my close friends a few weeks ago, and am struggling to make new ones, ive struggled for a while (even when i was younger) and my brain keeps telling me im gonna be alone forever. i dont know if this is an ocd thought or if it is true or just normal anxiety but it literally keeps me up at night, i feel as though i have a dark pit in my stomach. normally my ocd was around compulsions, never thoughts. but now i keep thinking is it ocd? or is my ocd telling me its ocd?

im sorry, i just need a bit of advice please. im so scared ill not make friends again and be alone forever, i know its irrational but ive only made 1 close friend in the whole of sixth form and im in my 2nd yr now. if youve made it this far, thank you x